Shadows

I never wanted you to know my story
Never wanted you to share my pain
All I ever wanted to do was love you
I know I can never take your pain away again
I wonder why this happened
Or if it were all a dream
A dream turned into a nightmare
Where life seems too obscene
I died that day he said it
I can't find life anymore
I'm trying to climb out of ten shadows
So I can love you more
I cannot stand the agony
So I keep you surrounded by those who can
And GOD will help me through this to get back to you
And that's my prayer. Amen.

Copyright ©2016 Attica Lundy Cooper

GOD MADE ME A FATHER

I waited on a call.
I always wait on a call.
When I get the call, it's always about her past and she wants to know things about herself.
I ask to speak to my child, but she says no.
See...I won't curse her out.
She knows this about me, that I could but that I won't.
I did all that when we were together and I've grown up to learn that that was wasted energy.
And for what?
She has done everything to make me feel nothing and yet I love even my enemies and so she's safe.
I'm patient.
I could be like all the men she knows and will know because of energy she brings and yet I don't wish bad for her, she's the mother of my child.
She's hurt.
Goodbye means that's not my issue but I have compassion for her as in i'm not laughing at her.
I can't see how I'd even be thinking about her anyway and I don't.
I only think of my children.
I'm happily married to someone she knows is the best for us.

But that's fine.
When I had nothing I could send nothing but as soon as I got something I sent something and even my consistency is not enough for her, though she always tells me how much it comes in handy.
I was never even encouraged, but I was put down, belittled, asked to give up my rights (glad she knows I have some), etc).
I know that when I get to the point where I can start saving and investing I can have representation to give me the right to have adequate visitation with my child;
I mean, I'm able to raise other people's children and I was able to raise my own prior to the break up.
It's sad how the break up changes things.
Whereas I could stay up all night to watch the baby while she was out and away, not I can't stay up all night to protect the child while she is out and away solely because she is not coming back to me and I'm there with my wife.
Meanwhile, her dude does go visit his.
I laid down with you once upon a distant time, but now I step aside and do not put our child in the middle; I take the hit.
Crazy how we have to bring other people into our lives, and the outside world has the wrong idea of who the deadbeat really is.
I still pray everyday for mine.
I still ask for them.
I'm thankful for Father's Day because GOD made me a father, and she can never take that away. Amen.

Copyright ©2016 Attica Lundy Cooper

Freestyle to ...her ...allude to an interview

 I wanna make her dreams come true; if only I could settle down long enough eye got my eye on ..us
Poetry in the mist of minds
created
paraded
elated to be able to speak with you soon
to pick your mind
and see whats new
so when, my dear, shall we.......
interview?

And yes, I wrote that....
for....
YOU

~By Attica Lundy Cooper
Freestyle to ...her

Copyright ©2016 Attica Lundy Cooper

Woman to Man

Woman to Man...

Man, I need you to be able to financially contribute to our well being and our livelihood. I cant do it all alone. We can't depend on only me. 

Need you to be able to hold me down. I'm holding myself down but I'm not in this alone; we need each other. I can't hold you down all on my own.

Where is your strength? Why excuses?  I need you.  To be able to life the financial burden of our needs for survival (rent, food, transportation, clothing, children,etc). These are our basic needs and I need you to put forth effort and do.

Not because the men before you did, but because you are grown. But you know my needs....the needs of our community. This is not new for today only. Our women should not have to go to prostitution because that's the only way she can get assistance from a man.  Like wow. I'm laying with you, but do you feel me?

Any man that expexts to be taken care of by a woman isnt ready for adulthood and has automatically failed his own children. But if he's not ready he should get ready. If a man feels that part of his needs is not to take care of his women and children then he is selfish and immature and should be happy to know that about himself and willing to grow.
Woman

Copyright ©2015 Attica Lundy Cooper

First Wife Blues: A poly monologueystic poem

"How do I feel for real

when I see him kiss her lips just so;

His lips brush quicker on mine nowadays

But when he kisses hers it seems they kiss slow.

I see the way he looks at her

Sometimes he looks right past me

I see that newness in their eyes

And I can't see what THEY see in me

She would never even have him

 if it were not for me.

I helped to mold him into the man

 that she done stole from me.

(I know that's a lie)

 She's my sister, my heart, my friend; I hate I think that way

She's here because I prayed for her

And forever she will remain."

Copyright ©2015 Attica Lundy

WAR:THE HYPOCRITE

In times like this we swallow hard
and sip the "glass-FULL" fate.
We deviate from fellowship
and cower down to hate.
And this (by "law" and in their eyes)
is right and just and condoned by man.
Though he knows deep down that killing's wrong;
blood's still on his hands.
Copyright ©2013 Attica Lundy

CAUSE I AIN'T YO WOMAN

I KNOW WHY

I KNOW WHYYYY

CAUSE I AIN’T YO WOMAN

 I’M NOT PICKING UP THE PHONE TODAY

CAUSE I AIN’T GOTTA LIVE THIS WAY

NO MORE/BABY,

NO, NO MORE

IT SEEMS LIKE EVERYTHING I TRIED

COMES BACK THROUGH THE SIDE

LIKE IT AIN’T ISH

AND I KNOW YOU FEEL ME

I KEEP GIVING YOU ANOTHER CHANCE

TO SHOW ME A LITTLE ROMANCE

BUT YOU TOO BUSY

AND I KNOW YOU FEEL ME

BUT WHEN I TRY TO GO SOMEWHERE ELSE

YOU MAKE IT AN ISSUE ABOUT MY HEALTH

AND I’M SAYING THAT NICELY

BUT YOU AIN’T RIGHT

MY FRIENDS SAY I SHOULD LEAVE YOUR SIDE

BUT I’D RATHER LIVE IN YOUR LIE

AND THOUGH I KNOW YOU ARE MY LIFE

I AIN’T NEVER GON BE YOUR WIFE

I KNOW WHY

I KNOW WHYYYY

CAUSE I AIN’T YO WOMAN

Copyright ©2013 Attica Lundy