Thursday, November 1, 2007

Bliss

I don't really want to hide
The truth is so much better
Lies always find their way to the surface
And it will make us tear apart each other
No need to peal away the layers
I stand naked before you now
I don't need to lay under the covers
I will find warmth amist your touch
Your tongue tastes good inside my mouth
I'm filled with nothing except you
I love the way you make me feel
I'm home whenever I'm with you
Take me to the world you're from
Help me learn your native tongue
Your sweat drips on me like a shower
I'm bathed in the waters of your love
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy

Slow Down

In the midst of my youth

I'd fallen for untruths

And the glamour of being seen on the outside,

Which led to me being unclean on the inside.

As if momma raised me to be out there and loose;

But didn't she, for she held the permissions for lock and for key?

Her fault, then, that I gave it up to him

And again she's the cause of me earning that nickname

And I suppose dad could be guilty, too, for pushing me into another man's arms

The same man who then sent me to another..and another did the same

Wow, and of all this I made it out somehow

Had to regroup my thoughts and retain my youth

With my nose up high, I dismissed my past

Because bullshit walks and money talks, and bullshit don't last

And here and now if I hear "hey Red, what it do?!"

I'm gonna keep on walking like I didn't hear you

And that's because that old girl is long gone

And she left behind those childish songs

Now I'm looking at our youth of today

Walking around with hickey's on their necks and guilt on their face

And I want to grab them and hold them

And sing them my song

Say, little girl don't wander off too far

And little boy, come on back home

Keep the stride of a child and a kid

It'll soon be over when you hit that adulthood bid

See..grown folks get caught in bills, payments, and taxes

And we're always too busy, never time for relaxing

Some of us have to play catch up

Cause when we were young, we weren't on task

And how the hell you gonna live today on forty thousand a year or less

And I'm just saying, once you have kids it's your responsibility to provide

And regardless if you weren't the only one that laid down, it was your choice so you can't hide it

And damn, you see "free" people out there, and you reminisce about back in the day

When you could just be tired and decide to sleep all damn day

But now you're on the grind, and it feels like you are digging your own grave

Remember, though, back then when you were ever so brave

Can you recall the first time you sipped your first beer

Or snuck kids in the house when your folks could not hear

And when you rolled your eyes at the teacher and told you she's not the boss of you

Remember those times when you screwed up in your youth

See, I remember those times and I remember them well

That's why I'm not so angry about it when I have to struggle to make bail

It's karma, so I take it, and pray for better days

And I know they will come, long as I still pray.

Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy

Holla

Subliminal thoughts cross the room towards me, but I do not answer your calls of misguided intentions and reservations of what you think you feel.

For real.

See, I'm not a little school girl impressed with your age or popularity because as I see things from here,

I'm the one who gets the cheers.

See,

once upon a time, baby boo, I was so definitely all into you

but ever since we were though I

see nothing at all in you.

Nevereverland must have a place for you, and damn, what is it that you are trying to do?

I'm oh so satisfied and have made it clear

that your presense is not at all welcome

here.

Wow,

you just don't get it. Must I entertain

the energy that it would take to get this into your brain

that once it's over it's done. Can't you see

that you seem so damn weak to me.

It's not a good luck boy. Go bother someone else.

Or just stay single for a while

so you can find yourself.

Must have been a blow to the ego that I moved on so fast,

but we all know that good women don't stay alone as time passes.

I-----got up got some business about I, myself, and me…

and then the rest is just plain old history,

and you can read about us on the latest blogs

about how this dreamy romance came in out of the fog.

Sniff sniff, must I hand you a tissue for your eyes?

You still ain't got nothing, I know this came as no surprise.

Did you honestly think that I'd keep putting up with you

and remain in the shawdows because I couldn't be seen with you?

Wow, you really underestimated my worth from the start,

and that's the main reason why you are no longer in my heart.

So imma leave now, because me and my man have plans

and no

there will never

ever

be another chance.

Grandma

When I'm all alone I listen for her voice
Saying, "You don't have to go that route" and "You always have a choice"
And I know that even though she's no longer here with me
I'll always have the thoughts, the words, and the memories
She took me in when all was lost
And tried to give my life sunshine
Even though times were hard
She gave me peace of mind
Back then I didn't understand just how much a big hug meant
But now I know, and I thank her..from God to me she was sent
She was my grandma
Beautiful can't even describe her
Hair jet black and straight, skin so smooth and light
And, boy, could she set you straight
If you dared to do me wrong
That's why I loved her...she was my very first love song
I miss her now
I wish she were here with me
To see me smile
She'd be so happy
To see my life
And what it turned out to be
Me as a mother
And a wife
That's what she wanted for me
To see my dreams come true
And for my children to be happy and kind
That's why I do what I do
I show my family love
That's the way I keep her spirit alive
I feel her in heaven above
In a place with the most high


Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy

Wow

I just made love in the sweetest place of heaven
I think I'm floating on cloud seven
I didn't know that sweat could taste so sweet
And that I could shiver in the heat
I wish that nights like this would never end
Can't wait for the next night like this to begin
And though I'm dreaming it feels like I'm awake
This is farthest from my old heartbreaks
If I could touch this I wonder how it would feel
Would it feel soft like feathers or hard like steal
I'm floating so high that I can't see the ground
And it's so quiet I can't hear the loudest sounds
All I hear is heartbeats-is that you or me
I'm so dizzy I can barely see
This is crazy-why do you make me feel this way
Promise me that you will always stay
I'm never going to leave this fuggin' bed
I know you're talkin' but I can't hear a word you've said
It's funny how when I try to maintain my composure
You make me lose it, make the wild side in me show exposure
I'm awake now, I guess I was never asleep
It was just so good that I thought I was in a dream
Okay, I guess I'll say goodnite for now
Gonna try to get some sleep somehow
Hold me tight until I drift off to my dreams
No matter how long it seems to take me
And I'll make you eggs and bisquets in the morn'
So you can regain your strength and be strong
Goodnite

Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy

Morning

Waking to the pulse of your vain within me
I move to the rhythem it brings
I imagine it is my ride to freedom rings
And then I exhale
As tulip bulbs begin to bloom
My breasts rise up and down like the peaks of mountain tops in June
We are one, me and you
And then I exhale
Rolling over and looking into your soul, I'm intact
I understand love now and will never go back
And I thank God as I wrap my arms around your neck
And then I exhale
Legs wrapped around your back as you do what you do
I wonder when the exact moment came that I knew
Just how very much I am in love with you
And then I exhale
Nothing sweeter could ever be
The way that you chose to love only me
You are the last piece I needed to complete my family
And then I exhale
On all fours I grab pillows so tight
That I'm sure the feathers will excape in this fight
But I don't care because this is right
And then I exhale
Fingers scratching the wall as I moan your name
And you say mine, too, and I'm going insane
You pull back to taste me as you work my brain
And then I exhale
I'm so lucky to have you take care of me
This is like tasting honey, so damn sweet
As I float up high to ecstasy
And then I explode


Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy

He Sees Me

He sees me
I know he does and if I look harder I can see him, too
I knows me
Sometimes better than i know myself, and that's so very hard to do
He holds my hand, I squeeze a little so he knows that I feel him
I love him so and never knew that love could feels so free
He's the best thing that ever happened to me
They call this love
They call this love
They call it love but I know it's so much more
They think they know
They think they know
They think it's the same as what they have, but they are so wrong
This is the purest form of happiness
He says we'll be this way forever and I believe in him
He tries so hard, never wants me to struggle again
Embraces my trueness and I love him so much for that
He smiles at me
I wink at him
That's our way of confirming what we have
It's been too long since I've seen him
And that was only five seconds ago
He watches me from the corner of his eye
As if he is painting a portrait of me in his mind
I take a pic of him from my camera phone
And stare at it all day when he's not near me
Love is
Feeling this way
And Love is
Staying this way
And Love is
All that we've said and more........
and this is forever more.

Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy