Stolen Love

We made music together
Acoustic soundwaves filled the sky
Harmonic symphonies with melodic moments
All of this, his very first time

I'm compelled to say it was unselfish
To make his world feel right
To touch his heart more than anyone else
Even if it were for the last time

When he held me, I slept peacefully
He wondered where I'd been all his life
I knew that somehow it wouldn't last forever
Couldn't put my finger on it, but it felt too right

Was I his fallen angel
Seemed like I knew the hourglass was spilling fast
At twenty four, he was still innocent
But longed for passion, even if it were not to last

I enjoyed making him so very happy
Dying young is never easy to do
And though we both had our own ailments
I felt compelled to see his through

The last night he asked impossible questions
Wanted to know if my love was true
And he told me I'd see him in my dreams
A promise he made so true

The seductive kiss in the shower
My hair still wet from the fall of rain
To think of him brings happiness to my heart
I'm not ready to feel the pain

I cannot wrap my head around this
A stranger I've known all along
Breathing without his life present
Just somehow seems so wrong

I do not know his family
I know only the life he shared with me
In solitude I light candles for his soul
To one day be rejoined with me

Is he looking down from heaven
Can he feel the shatters of my heart
I think he knew it would be over
Long before it was to start

Despite the unanswered questions
I know what we had was real
And to anyone else who doesn't beleive it
Doesn't know how sincere he could feel

I loved him before I knew him
I love him now even more
And I will be waiting my whole life
To see him again when I enter heaven's door

So sleep quietly, darling, don't fret
Your love travels with me each day
And we will be together once again
So meet me there on judgementday

I'll smile at our inside jokes
That will keep a smile on my face
But deep down I'll always miss you more
So sleep quietly until I see you again


Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

Investment in love

The dust has settled
And the dawn has set in
My heart is so heavy
In all we've been in
And yet I still wonder
How things could have been
Had we took the time to take it slower
And not just to have rushed in
I love you today
As I loved you the day before
But is love ever enough
To keep closed the door
The door to the unknown
I've been there before
So I suppose it's the comfort
Of not having to push for another score
But when do we take time
To see the sunrise
Are we unaware of the beauty
Of when the sun shines
And when do we share
In hopes, dreams, and goals
When all we have is routines
Never any time for anything more
See...that's why I shutter
to think of what could be
If I did not have you
And you did not have me
Would we be the same people
Would anyone else love us best
I'm not willing to risk it
Not willing to take that test
See, God had a plan
Whether you believe it or not
He sent us to each other
So that our hearts would not rot
He meant for you to join me
In a journey where pain did not exist
But sometimes you forget that...
Sometimes you hit and miss
And then there are those moments
When we are silent, but it feels like we're old friends
And that's called companionship
With that, we've got to win
Because some people are lonely
They don't have "forever" in anyone's eyes
Don't think you are unlucky
Just know that You've got I
And I've got you, babe
For now and ever more
I pray that you'll understand
And come back to me once more
See...I've never been alone
But always felt solitude
Until I met you
And made a choice to change the mood
So listen quite closely
Because you may miss the point
Eternity has a price
Like an account that is joint
Together we stand
Seperatly we will fall
So let's do this together
This is the last call
I'll stand side by side with you
And never be afraid
It was a wise investment
...the price that we paid

Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

Love is God

Love is more than a four letter word
It is a world that God made with his mind
It is doing the right thing because you know it's right
It is the good that God intended
It is when he made Eve for Adam
It's companionship
It's when he spared a few from the flood
It is sacrifice for the greater good
It is forgiving your enemies
It is being stronger by being wiser
Love is God

Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

The commitment of love

To love love is being in love
The joy
The smiles
The laughter
The tenderness
The safety
The security
The certainty

To be committed to the commitment is remaining committed
The vows
The promise
The work
The choirs
The name
The ring
The date

If it were as simple as that
Forever would never be in question
But what is committment without love
Is it co-habitating with no common interests?
Is it saying "good morning" and "goodnight"?
Or is it taking in fully what you have encountered
without hesitation
moving forward and putting in effort

Remember when you first met
When you took time to converse
When you took pleasure in pleasing one another
When traveling wasn't an issue
When you not only loved each other but liked each other
When you fought for us, not fought with each other
When it was important?

Do you see how things have changed?
Do you see how time is not taken to remember?
Do you see how hard it is to speak about joyful things?
Do you notice that her eyes are full of pain?
Do you notice that he no longer knows what made him long for you?
Does the thought of forever now seem improbable?
Is every night just like the night before?

It would seem that this is not love
It's not like
It's not enjoyment
It's not right

But it is forever...
So why not start again?
Why not search deep within?
Why not only be partners, but also try to be friends?

Such a shame to lose the love...
You listen to the love songs all the time
but don't really liiiisssstttteeennnn
Do you hear the words
Words like "taste" and "want" and "need"
Remember when you did just that?
Like riding a bike, you can learn again...
try again....
do again....
be again....
before it's too late.


Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

Shattered

Seemingly
Love is so unkind
Like nothing matters
In the path in which we find
Our two heartbeats
beating in union-now it's so faint
And you are comatose
And it's too much for me to take
My heart is shattered
And love pours from it's own veins
And I am broken
Because I may never see you again
Please come back, baby
Our love needs to grow even more
I can't lose you
Please walk back in the door

Tears
Flow from my eyes
They will not stop
I feel like drowning in them some more
I cannot touch you
Can't take away your pain
And I can't find you
I don't have the strength to abstain
From hurting so much
From hurting so deep
I cannot breathe
I cannot sleep
Will you just come back
Don't go into the light
We can make it through this
We can put up the greatest fight

I feel shattered
Today you had your surgery
And now you're in a coma
Are you dreaming of you and me
Is our love
Enough for you to come back
Or will you leave me now
And throw me all off track

Your laughter still remains in my mind
Your keeps my heart beating still inside
I don't want to lose you
I've lost too much before
Please be strong enough for us both
And fight for us some more.

Don't leave me shattered.........

Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

Failed Test

I told you in the beginning
All the secrets to having me
The things that would keep me close
The things that would make me not leave
You said those other guys
Were stupid for not appreciating me
And that you would treat me better
And be all that I need
I love hard, so I gave you my all
I try hard, so I did my best
But you failed on so many levels
And could not past the final test
So I'm gone and you are sad
You know that he said the same things to me
He said that you were a fool for not trying
And you know he's right, that's why you lost me



Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

Until Dessert Comes

The appetizers have not yet arrived
But I have
Over and over again
Almost
Before the waiter even brought out our drinks
I can't stand you
Because you say we can't leave
Not until dessert comes
He comes over with glasses of ice water
I take out a cube and begin to suck on it
And your hand is still there, under my jacket and up under my dress
Fingers stroking my cherry,
but not fast enough
Because he is there taking our order
And you calmly talk to him, asking me questions that I can't even decipher
about what I would like
As if you don't know
I give you the look
Chuckling at the waiter
Because my behavior humors you
You say something clever to the waiter
And you order for me
And continue to torture me all the while
I beg you to stop
whispering to you so no one can hear
But you won't
You whisper back that you won't stop
Until dessert comes
I cover my mouth
Suffocating screams before they escape
And you won't stop
Until dessert comes
But I can't wait for the waiter
I can't wait for our meal
You see,Whip cream escapes and my cherry has burst
And now I'm not in the mood for dinner
But you say we'll stay anyway
And will not leave
Until dessert comes

Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy