First Wife Blues: A poly monologueystic poem

"How do I feel for real

when I see him kiss her lips just so;

His lips brush quicker on mine nowadays

But when he kisses hers it seems they kiss slow.

I see the way he looks at her

Sometimes he looks right past me

I see that newness in their eyes

And I can't see what THEY see in me

She would never even have him

 if it were not for me.

I helped to mold him into the man

 that she done stole from me.

(I know that's a lie)

 She's my sister, my heart, my friend; I hate I think that way

She's here because I prayed for her

And forever she will remain."

Copyright ©2015 Attica Lundy

WAR:THE HYPOCRITE

In times like this we swallow hard
and sip the "glass-FULL" fate.
We deviate from fellowship
and cower down to hate.
And this (by "law" and in their eyes)
is right and just and condoned by man.
Though he knows deep down that killing's wrong;
blood's still on his hands.
Copyright ©2013 Attica Lundy

CAUSE I AIN'T YO WOMAN

I KNOW WHY

I KNOW WHYYYY

CAUSE I AIN’T YO WOMAN

 I’M NOT PICKING UP THE PHONE TODAY

CAUSE I AIN’T GOTTA LIVE THIS WAY

NO MORE/BABY,

NO, NO MORE

IT SEEMS LIKE EVERYTHING I TRIED

COMES BACK THROUGH THE SIDE

LIKE IT AIN’T ISH

AND I KNOW YOU FEEL ME

I KEEP GIVING YOU ANOTHER CHANCE

TO SHOW ME A LITTLE ROMANCE

BUT YOU TOO BUSY

AND I KNOW YOU FEEL ME

BUT WHEN I TRY TO GO SOMEWHERE ELSE

YOU MAKE IT AN ISSUE ABOUT MY HEALTH

AND I’M SAYING THAT NICELY

BUT YOU AIN’T RIGHT

MY FRIENDS SAY I SHOULD LEAVE YOUR SIDE

BUT I’D RATHER LIVE IN YOUR LIE

AND THOUGH I KNOW YOU ARE MY LIFE

I AIN’T NEVER GON BE YOUR WIFE

I KNOW WHY

I KNOW WHYYYY

CAUSE I AIN’T YO WOMAN

Copyright ©2013 Attica Lundy

Thursday

I don't know what this means
It's like something from our dreams
Unique in that she's the very one we wanted
Did GOD bless us with that moment

My mind and soul won't believe that it was wrong
It's like the words to the perfect love song
It's like what love feels like already right now
I know that she's the one to whom we would say vows

Wow....and it even about the sex
It was just really the connection of love at it's best
AND I really don't even know how to say it at all
Love expressed in a triad at passion's door, loving the fall.

Copyright ©2012 Attica Lundy

 

This is ours
Our love, our pain, our scene
And though others came before and hurt us
We regained our crowns, both king and queen

This isn't about anyone else
Just the peace from escaping the world
Safety and soundness in each other's eyes
Shut off, just a man and his girl


Copyright ©2011 Attica Lundy

Green Light

Real Recognize Real
That's the game we play
It's not no kiddy shit
It's real life these days
I put a lot on the line
But had to come to a hault
Now it's the middle finger
But you're the one at fault
At no time did I ever
turn my back to you
I kept it 100%
Never no games with you
But in the end you couldn't
handle the simple truth
And it caused you grief,
so what's a woman to do?
We were lovers, then friends,
then turned to family
I would have given you the world,
hell-I gave you my key
But you turned from a boy to a man
then to a bitch
Never really had my back,
turns out you were a snitch
So now you cannot exist to me
Pull a stunt on me again and it's death you'll see
Cause in the end
you are no longer shit to me
So I'll handle you
like all the lames that I see
Stay the hell away from my my door,
you have fucked up now
In your mind you're gangsta,
but I can show you how
Real Recognize Real,
I don't recognize you at all
And before you rise,
I will see you fall
So take that Bonneville,
or that Old school whip
And drive it the fuck away,
and hopefully you won't slip
Cause if I see you in my lane
in any way
Dem shooters will surely be
all up in your face.
Copyright ©2010 Attica Lundy

I Don't Know What To Do

Lost in a sea of tears
Drowning in grief about you
I can't find my way
I don't know what to do
I just cannot believe
That you are no longer here
Save me from my pain
Save me from my fear

You are my everything
You are the words I sing
You are the way i go
You are my every flow
You are the strength I have
You are my better half
And if there is no you
Then I don't know what to do

Lost in a sea of tears
Drowning in grief about you
I can't find my way
I don't know what to do
I just cannot believe
That you are no longer here
Save me from my pain
Save me from my fear

I have no place in this world
Where you don't exist
Find me in the stars
I'm so hit or miss
I pray for your return
All I can do is pray
Tell me you feel the same
Tell me you'll be back again

Copyright ©2010 Attica Lundy