Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Freedom Rings

Freedom rings, but it comes with a price
The sound it releases ain't always so nice
Sell your soul to come up out from the gutter
Turn your back on what's right so things can feel better
What happened to times when hard work wasn't a waste
When food was so good that you dreampt of the taste
When gas wasn't so high that you could take the scenic route
When parents closed doors so the kids wouldn't hear them shout
When the neighbors were family to each other
When blood was bond and we cared for our brother
What happened to "I do"'s were forever
When death til us part didn't mean we may kill each other
When we were proud to sign up for the cause
When we didn't have to suffer through all the loss
Things were not great, but they weren't this bad
Seldom do we see smiles anymore-now this is sad
When respect was earned and not just expected
When we romanced instead of letting love go neglected
Freedom rings and I sing it's glorious tune
Because I demand it, now what about you?
Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

Thursday, July 24, 2008

The truth

We are told that in the beginning there was Adam and Eve
Then time passed, and the world was gone; only to be reborn again
We started over, still failing test after test until God started it all over again
Pairing us up, two-by-two...but that only lasted for a while

And here, I smile
Knowing that change is inevitable and that God trusts us to find our own way
I struggle to do the things I feel are right, and to make it day by day
And deep down I know secrets that aren't really secrets at all
Because our conscious exists, and that's God's blue print on our soul.

They say he sent his son here to forgive us of our sins...
I'm thankful for that
because no matter how much I try to imitate perfection
I'm always going to slack
And that is fine; because as long as I try to make ammends for things I've done wrong
Then there is still hope for me to be born again
And to embrace his only son

But who am I?
Am I his daughter?
Am I just as important as he?
And if so, then isn't it my duty to find injustice and set it free?

Such a large burden;
I'm still just a child in the midst of the galazy skies
So many stars and planets and journies
And so again, I ask "Who am I"?

It's hard for me to embrace the thought that there is but one soul intended to touch mine
And it's impossible for me to understand why there are no clear boundries on my path
I screamed to the heavens once, "What is this all about?!"
But no answers came readily to me
And then when the silence fell upon the dark night winds
The answer came to me

It said that freedom exists when you can give your all
And not expect anything back in return
And when you can put a smile on a saddened face
Or help to break a fall
And it said that when mothers hold their young close to them
And heal them from their pain
Then there is good in the world and good in mankind and there is hope that still remains
And that faith is the belief that all is not lost
And that the sun will shine again
And the rain will fall upon scorched dried out lands
To help the harvests grow again
And when you can spare some bread or meat or drink to calm a hungry man
And when you can give it your all and something good comes from it, then it's proof of God's gentle hand

So many answers came that one moment, and I still shutter when I think of it all
The lovliest voice I've ever heard; almost the sound of a white dove's call
Words like bible and love and growth and hugs and kisses and couples came about
Feelings like joy and bliss and elation filled my body
Moments of being afraid escaped me momentarily and a strong surge of braveness erupted
That moment when God told me his entire plan is the moment when I learned to love it truth we can be good or we can be bad
The choice always remains in our hands
And even when we fall short of glory
He'll always extend his hand

I tell you this because you need the proof
Of what you already know
That hope is not lost and you do have power to make it through
Even when things don't look like they are going to go
You way....but they will if they are meant to be
And if not, then you're better off without it
But my point is to look way deep inside
And the truth will always arise.

Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Heaven's Door

Looking into your eyes
I search for the truth
But decide to end the search
Because what really matters is only you

I don't care what happened
The hurt has been cast aside
I only know that the love we have
Must never again hide

To the world, it can remain hidden
But we both know the truth
And whether we surface or remain underground
The love we have is true

So know that I forgive you
Because that's what love is about
And you'll never have to test my heart
And you'll never have to do without

Things have changed from then to now
And we are more than ever before
And though our lives are on different planes
I'll always come visit you through heaven's door

Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

Saturday, July 12, 2008

Do you consider

If I told you everything or nothing at all would it matter?
Would you notice if I lay awake or sleep at night?
If you had the power to make a change would you make the effort
To make the wrongs with us turn into right?

If I passed away this very moment would you miss me?
Does our silence comfort you in a selfish way?
If I cried from hurt would you let my tears continue
Or would you have the heart to wipe them away?

If I was falling and reached out to you would you try to catch me?
Or would you let me fall without even trying to save me?
When I say things to you that are important to me, do you consider
That I'm saying them to you because you're the biggest part of me.

Sometimes I think that I am just a factor,
A small fraction of something that exists in your world, but is overlooked.
And when you see the sorrow in my eyes does it make you want to try harder
Or is it not important enough for you to even look?

My love is so large, it overflows...
But is it wasted as surplus that has no value at all?
If you could turn back the hands of time to the moment you said you loved me
Would you change that moment so that I wouldn't fall?

Fall as in falling in love with you;
Do you regret that you chose this path with me...
And if you don't regret it, why won't you make it better
Instead of making me feel that I'm an object of stupidity?

Two wrongs can never make it right
And love is a job that has to be worked with pride
And the level of perfecting a craft of the heart that is supposed to last forever
Cannot be swepted and continuously brushed aside.

When you laugh and joke with your buddies, can you see the difference?
Can you see that you don't laugh and joke with me?
It would seem that two people who are committed to each other
Would have stolen moments that make the two feel complete.

I will not try to confront tonight's heartache
I've been here too many times before this night
No matter what I say, you won't feel compassion
Or even want to heal my heart that you kicked aside.

So a new day will come at the break of tomorrow morning
And we'll start the new day as we have each and every day
And I'll pray that you won't disappoint me again and make me lose my luster
Because I'm really trying to make my heart's love stay.

Sometimes it feels like a losing battle...
God, I'm tired of fighting the same old tirdful fight
So I'll pray that God will open your eyes to what you need to do
And that he'll forgive you for overlooking the gift created for you last July.

Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

Monday, July 7, 2008


This feels raw
Unable to assertain the definitions of my feelings
Not able to understand the rhyme nor reason
Incapable of grasping any corner of hope
Too willing to have a glimmer of coping skills
To make it through this pained moment
And as the skies open up through the clouds
I still feel foggy
For it was love that was the biggest lie
That pushed my heart over to the side
And walked out through the door
Into the great known; for it was the door which led OUTSIDE our home
And into a dangerous place
And the saddest part is that you did not notice
The look of heartache on my face
Did not see the watery seas which were my eyes
Nor did you hear my hidden cries
Could you not FEEL that I needed you
To hold me up, instead of knocking me down
Towards the floor, even underneigth where the crawlers lurk
It was the distance which handed out that final blow
To make me realize that we were no more
What I always thought us to be:
Two hearts that would beat as one;
But you only maintain the beat of one drum
Not of partnership, so I was the fool
Who thought you were my protector, not my deliverer of doom
Not the one who would hurt me with non-trust
And shush me into silence, not wanting to hear
That I needed you; I guess I didn't make that clear
Or did I?
I think I did...but you don't care, only what matters is what you said
And what you say
And what you think
And what you want
As if my needs are minute fragments
Of a fool's play things
Won't taste me because I'm sour to you
Won't embrace me because it's not the needs of you
Won't protect me because you simply do not care
But I want to thank-you, my darling dear
For the one and only gift you gave to me
The knowledge of what it feels like to not matter at all
This feels raw
Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

Saturday, July 5, 2008

Stolen Love

We made music together
Acoustic soundwaves filled the sky
Harmonic symphonies with melodic moments
All of this, his very first time

I'm compelled to say it was unselfish
To make his world feel right
To touch his heart more than anyone else
Even if it were for the last time

When he held me, I slept peacefully
He wondered where I'd been all his life
I knew that somehow it wouldn't last forever
Couldn't put my finger on it, but it felt too right

Was I his fallen angel
Seemed like I knew the hourglass was spilling fast
At twenty four, he was still innocent
But longed for passion, even if it were not to last

I enjoyed making him so very happy
Dying young is never easy to do
And though we both had our own ailments
I felt compelled to see his through

The last night he asked impossible questions
Wanted to know if my love was true
And he told me I'd see him in my dreams
A promise he made so true

The seductive kiss in the shower
My hair still wet from the fall of rain
To think of him brings happiness to my heart
I'm not ready to feel the pain

I cannot wrap my head around this
A stranger I've known all along
Breathing without his life present
Just somehow seems so wrong

I do not know his family
I know only the life he shared with me
In solitude I light candles for his soul
To one day be rejoined with me

Is he looking down from heaven
Can he feel the shatters of my heart
I think he knew it would be over
Long before it was to start

Despite the unanswered questions
I know what we had was real
And to anyone else who doesn't beleive it
Doesn't know how sincere he could feel

I loved him before I knew him
I love him now even more
And I will be waiting my whole life
To see him again when I enter heaven's door

So sleep quietly, darling, don't fret
Your love travels with me each day
And we will be together once again
So meet me there on judgementday

I'll smile at our inside jokes
That will keep a smile on my face
But deep down I'll always miss you more
So sleep quietly until I see you again

Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

Friday, July 4, 2008

Investment in love

The dust has settled
And the dawn has set in
My heart is so heavy
In all we've been in
And yet I still wonder
How things could have been
Had we took the time to take it slower
And not just to have rushed in
I love you today
As I loved you the day before
But is love ever enough
To keep closed the door
The door to the unknown
I've been there before
So I suppose it's the comfort
Of not having to push for another score
But when do we take time
To see the sunrise
Are we unaware of the beauty
Of when the sun shines
And when do we share
In hopes, dreams, and goals
When all we have is routines
Never any time for anything more
See...that's why I shutter
to think of what could be
If I did not have you
And you did not have me
Would we be the same people
Would anyone else love us best
I'm not willing to risk it
Not willing to take that test
See, God had a plan
Whether you believe it or not
He sent us to each other
So that our hearts would not rot
He meant for you to join me
In a journey where pain did not exist
But sometimes you forget that...
Sometimes you hit and miss
And then there are those moments
When we are silent, but it feels like we're old friends
And that's called companionship
With that, we've got to win
Because some people are lonely
They don't have "forever" in anyone's eyes
Don't think you are unlucky
Just know that You've got I
And I've got you, babe
For now and ever more
I pray that you'll understand
And come back to me once more
See...I've never been alone
But always felt solitude
Until I met you
And made a choice to change the mood
So listen quite closely
Because you may miss the point
Eternity has a price
Like an account that is joint
Together we stand
Seperatly we will fall
So let's do this together
This is the last call
I'll stand side by side with you
And never be afraid
It was a wise investment
...the price that we paid

Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

Thursday, July 3, 2008

Love is God

Love is more than a four letter word
It is a world that God made with his mind
It is doing the right thing because you know it's right
It is the good that God intended
It is when he made Eve for Adam
It's companionship
It's when he spared a few from the flood
It is sacrifice for the greater good
It is forgiving your enemies
It is being stronger by being wiser
Love is God

Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

The commitment of love

To love love is being in love
The joy
The smiles
The laughter
The tenderness
The safety
The security
The certainty

To be committed to the commitment is remaining committed
The vows
The promise
The work
The choirs
The name
The ring
The date

If it were as simple as that
Forever would never be in question
But what is committment without love
Is it co-habitating with no common interests?
Is it saying "good morning" and "goodnight"?
Or is it taking in fully what you have encountered
without hesitation
moving forward and putting in effort

Remember when you first met
When you took time to converse
When you took pleasure in pleasing one another
When traveling wasn't an issue
When you not only loved each other but liked each other
When you fought for us, not fought with each other
When it was important?

Do you see how things have changed?
Do you see how time is not taken to remember?
Do you see how hard it is to speak about joyful things?
Do you notice that her eyes are full of pain?
Do you notice that he no longer knows what made him long for you?
Does the thought of forever now seem improbable?
Is every night just like the night before?

It would seem that this is not love
It's not like
It's not enjoyment
It's not right

But it is forever...
So why not start again?
Why not search deep within?
Why not only be partners, but also try to be friends?

Such a shame to lose the love...
You listen to the love songs all the time
but don't really liiiisssstttteeennnn
Do you hear the words
Words like "taste" and "want" and "need"
Remember when you did just that?
Like riding a bike, you can learn again...
try again....
do again....
be again....
before it's too late.

Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

Wednesday, July 2, 2008


Love is so unkind
Like nothing matters
In the path in which we find
Our two heartbeats
beating in union-now it's so faint
And you are comatose
And it's too much for me to take
My heart is shattered
And love pours from it's own veins
And I am broken
Because I may never see you again
Please come back, baby
Our love needs to grow even more
I can't lose you
Please walk back in the door

Flow from my eyes
They will not stop
I feel like drowning in them some more
I cannot touch you
Can't take away your pain
And I can't find you
I don't have the strength to abstain
From hurting so much
From hurting so deep
I cannot breathe
I cannot sleep
Will you just come back
Don't go into the light
We can make it through this
We can put up the greatest fight

I feel shattered
Today you had your surgery
And now you're in a coma
Are you dreaming of you and me
Is our love
Enough for you to come back
Or will you leave me now
And throw me all off track

Your laughter still remains in my mind
Your keeps my heart beating still inside
I don't want to lose you
I've lost too much before
Please be strong enough for us both
And fight for us some more.

Don't leave me shattered.........

Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy