Hands Off! Black Jesus has spoken and has come into the scene
He's cleansed me of my pain, and brought me to my knees
He's the one I'm loving now- nobody else can compare
From the soles of his feet, to the top of his braided hair
Black Jesus has me shaken - Nobody can do me like he can
I don't need no bullshit n*ggas, cause he's a REAL TRUE man.
Copyright ©2006 Attica Lundy
Thursday, November 1, 2007
Making Love Feels Better
Making love always feels better than sex.
When in love, he goes in deeper.
When in love, his kisses taste sweeter.
When in love, everything is wetter.
When in love, he smells better.
When it's just sex, things are unatainable
When it's just sex, the dreams have no meaning at all
When it's just sex, there's a risk involved
When it's just sex, there's no point, no debth, no fall
When in love, each time is a journey
When in love, it's possible to fly
When in love, the dance is endless
When in love, it's just he and I.
Copyright ©2005 Attica Lundy
When in love, he goes in deeper.
When in love, his kisses taste sweeter.
When in love, everything is wetter.
When in love, he smells better.
When it's just sex, things are unatainable
When it's just sex, the dreams have no meaning at all
When it's just sex, there's a risk involved
When it's just sex, there's no point, no debth, no fall
When in love, each time is a journey
When in love, it's possible to fly
When in love, the dance is endless
When in love, it's just he and I.
Copyright ©2005 Attica Lundy
Greywall
HE......... be dat niggah from around the way
"Oh, that's Zulu's cousin" is what they would say
Dark skinned brother with a glisten in his eye
Casanova by clique, cause back then that was fly
Too much to handle, I knew that drama would be deep
And he was too much into the ladies, so way too much for me to keep
And back then I was playing or tied down so I couldn't oblige
Cause if I tried him and got caught i'd get a pop in the eye
So I stayed young, didn't act grown, and just forgot he exists
Never thinking about the opportunities that I could have missed
Turned a deaf ear to the crowd if they mentioned his name
But always cheered him on (on the sly) at the school's ball games
I was just a little girl in this boy's eyes
and so way off limits - that I couldn't disquise
Now we grown with kids of our own and things have changed
"Wassup Miss A?" and i'm like "What??!" and now the day done came
What the phuck? I don't know...but Imma see for a bit
Cause the lovin' is so strong, and the phuckin' is DA SHIT
But I want more, cause now I just can't get enough
It's not just the sex, even though I like it when the shit get's rough
It's not the smile, even though it makes my knees weak
It's not the voice, even though it puts me deep in my sleep
It's not the money- hell, i'm grown and I make enough for me
It's not the status, hell, we grown and what we do - folks don't see
It's just that I see him in my future and can visulize him in my life
And right now i'm his lady, but I want to become his wife
I think we'll do just fine if we go there, but he's on the stall
I want him 100% or nothing at all
So Imma sit back and look, but for me in the end,
We cool as hell as lovers, and we friends till the end
So we gonna do this, and I hope he sees what I see
Cause our love is too good for us to let it fall off like leaves.
Copyright ©2005 Attica Lundy
"Oh, that's Zulu's cousin" is what they would say
Dark skinned brother with a glisten in his eye
Casanova by clique, cause back then that was fly
Too much to handle, I knew that drama would be deep
And he was too much into the ladies, so way too much for me to keep
And back then I was playing or tied down so I couldn't oblige
Cause if I tried him and got caught i'd get a pop in the eye
So I stayed young, didn't act grown, and just forgot he exists
Never thinking about the opportunities that I could have missed
Turned a deaf ear to the crowd if they mentioned his name
But always cheered him on (on the sly) at the school's ball games
I was just a little girl in this boy's eyes
and so way off limits - that I couldn't disquise
Now we grown with kids of our own and things have changed
"Wassup Miss A?" and i'm like "What??!" and now the day done came
What the phuck? I don't know...but Imma see for a bit
Cause the lovin' is so strong, and the phuckin' is DA SHIT
But I want more, cause now I just can't get enough
It's not just the sex, even though I like it when the shit get's rough
It's not the smile, even though it makes my knees weak
It's not the voice, even though it puts me deep in my sleep
It's not the money- hell, i'm grown and I make enough for me
It's not the status, hell, we grown and what we do - folks don't see
It's just that I see him in my future and can visulize him in my life
And right now i'm his lady, but I want to become his wife
I think we'll do just fine if we go there, but he's on the stall
I want him 100% or nothing at all
So Imma sit back and look, but for me in the end,
We cool as hell as lovers, and we friends till the end
So we gonna do this, and I hope he sees what I see
Cause our love is too good for us to let it fall off like leaves.
Copyright ©2005 Attica Lundy
WTF
What the phuck? I don't know...but Imma see for a bit
Cause the lovin' is so strong, and the phuckin' is DA SHIT
But I want more, cause now I just can't get enough
It's not just the sex, even though I like it when the shit get's rough
It's not the smile, even though it makes my knees weak
It's not the voice, even though it puts me deep in my sleep
It's not the money- hell, i'm grown and I make enough for me
It's not the status, hell, we grown and what we do - folks don't see
It's just that I see him in my future and can visulize him in my life
And right now i'm his lady, but I want to become his wife
I think we'll do just fine if we go there, but he's on the stall
I want him 100% or nothing at all
So Imma sit back and look, but for me in the end,
We cool as hell as lovers, and we friends till the end
So we gonna do this, and I hope he sees what I see
Cause our love is too good for us to let it fall off like leaves.
Copyright ©2005 Attica Lundy
Cause the lovin' is so strong, and the phuckin' is DA SHIT
But I want more, cause now I just can't get enough
It's not just the sex, even though I like it when the shit get's rough
It's not the smile, even though it makes my knees weak
It's not the voice, even though it puts me deep in my sleep
It's not the money- hell, i'm grown and I make enough for me
It's not the status, hell, we grown and what we do - folks don't see
It's just that I see him in my future and can visulize him in my life
And right now i'm his lady, but I want to become his wife
I think we'll do just fine if we go there, but he's on the stall
I want him 100% or nothing at all
So Imma sit back and look, but for me in the end,
We cool as hell as lovers, and we friends till the end
So we gonna do this, and I hope he sees what I see
Cause our love is too good for us to let it fall off like leaves.
Copyright ©2005 Attica Lundy
Love and Marriage
Imma take it slow
Give it 2 U real, boy "blow by blow"
U dealing with pure Diva from head to toe
Niggah, U ain't know?
Betta ask somebody 'cause I keeps it Real
Hypnotic on yo azz - something U can feel
And dat's REAL TALK on bedroom tip
Don't wanna hear no lip!
U can use those lips 2 go down below
Diva like it when u get it wet, so Do what U know!
Then flip me over to my belly and grind real slow
Do it till Hynotic can't take no mo'!
Then pull me off da bed, take it to the flo'....
Be careful wit the carpets- but just let it go.
Don't hold back cause I can take it all!
And Since we on the flo', you know that I won't fall;
And no more bed creekin' so we can go real hard!
Don't be acting like u chicken, don't be scarred!
Do me like 2morrow there won't be no time
Phuck me till I lose my mutha-phuckin' mind
Then send me home alone so I can just unwind.
Shit, I be missing U before I get the car in the drive
Then I'm making a U-Turn back to see you for one more 'gin
(I gots to get the lovin' till the day done end)
and then i'm hooked like dope and actin' like a feen
But the phucked up part is that you actin' like u also a feen
and we too high on sex to make the choices right,
"phuck going to work" and we gon' phuck until the next daymn night
Now, that shit's TIGHT
And U know it feel so RIGHT
but we got to chill and get some food to eat
Cause you don't wore me down from my head to my feet.
I can't even see straight 'cause it look like 2 of you
Double dick, double fun, i'm into double-you!
I'm tweekin' on some estrogen, cause it's in overflow
Pussy just so wet....Phuck...I want some mo'
I can't do without it, I'm just gon' marry you
then we ain't got to stop, that just what we should do.
Take it to the alter and call it forever and a day
YES????? What you say?
That's real talk, man! On the lifetime tip!
And I don't want no backtalk-don't give me no lip
Just don't be late to the church, preacher man gon' trip
cause i done got him out to bed to marry us
and thank got he so dayum holy- so he cannot cuss
He just say "get here in the hour" cause he was tring to sleep
and late hours is something that he cannot keep.
Thank God you made it here, baby you just in time
"I do. You do. We do". Now we just grand and fine
Let's get to the honey moon and do this thang!
Whew....i'm tired already, you got my body 'bout to sang!
And dayum...i'm looking at the shine on this phuckin' ring!
"Close your eyes so I can do my special thing"
Yeah, I know you like it...get ready to be hypnotized
Cause you all mine!
And it's about dayum time!
Just lay back and unwind;
Imma blow your mind!
Copyright ©2005 Attica Lundy
Give it 2 U real, boy "blow by blow"
U dealing with pure Diva from head to toe
Niggah, U ain't know?
Betta ask somebody 'cause I keeps it Real
Hypnotic on yo azz - something U can feel
And dat's REAL TALK on bedroom tip
Don't wanna hear no lip!
U can use those lips 2 go down below
Diva like it when u get it wet, so Do what U know!
Then flip me over to my belly and grind real slow
Do it till Hynotic can't take no mo'!
Then pull me off da bed, take it to the flo'....
Be careful wit the carpets- but just let it go.
Don't hold back cause I can take it all!
And Since we on the flo', you know that I won't fall;
And no more bed creekin' so we can go real hard!
Don't be acting like u chicken, don't be scarred!
Do me like 2morrow there won't be no time
Phuck me till I lose my mutha-phuckin' mind
Then send me home alone so I can just unwind.
Shit, I be missing U before I get the car in the drive
Then I'm making a U-Turn back to see you for one more 'gin
(I gots to get the lovin' till the day done end)
and then i'm hooked like dope and actin' like a feen
But the phucked up part is that you actin' like u also a feen
and we too high on sex to make the choices right,
"phuck going to work" and we gon' phuck until the next daymn night
Now, that shit's TIGHT
And U know it feel so RIGHT
but we got to chill and get some food to eat
Cause you don't wore me down from my head to my feet.
I can't even see straight 'cause it look like 2 of you
Double dick, double fun, i'm into double-you!
I'm tweekin' on some estrogen, cause it's in overflow
Pussy just so wet....Phuck...I want some mo'
I can't do without it, I'm just gon' marry you
then we ain't got to stop, that just what we should do.
Take it to the alter and call it forever and a day
YES????? What you say?
That's real talk, man! On the lifetime tip!
And I don't want no backtalk-don't give me no lip
Just don't be late to the church, preacher man gon' trip
cause i done got him out to bed to marry us
and thank got he so dayum holy- so he cannot cuss
He just say "get here in the hour" cause he was tring to sleep
and late hours is something that he cannot keep.
Thank God you made it here, baby you just in time
"I do. You do. We do". Now we just grand and fine
Let's get to the honey moon and do this thang!
Whew....i'm tired already, you got my body 'bout to sang!
And dayum...i'm looking at the shine on this phuckin' ring!
"Close your eyes so I can do my special thing"
Yeah, I know you like it...get ready to be hypnotized
Cause you all mine!
And it's about dayum time!
Just lay back and unwind;
Imma blow your mind!
Copyright ©2005 Attica Lundy
What's It All Mean
What's it all mean when love becomes just another 4-letter word?
What's it all mean when you've said it all, but not been heard?
What's it all mean when every holiday becomes just another day?
What's it all mean when the door opens and you walk through it, and then lose your way?
What's it all mean when life moves in slow motion and you still can't catch up?
What's it all mean when your two becomes one and solitude becomes your only choice?
What's it all mean when a smoking gun welcomes you to bat?
What's it all mean when you can no longer live with that?
What's it all mean when your home becomes a house?
What's it all mean when you fight to find your way out?
What's it all mean when you have feelings but can't express them?
What's it all mean when you no longer trust him?
What's it all mean when you say let me be!
What's it all mean when you feel locked up, not free?
What's it all mean when you want to try but can't find the energy?
What's it all mean when alcohol and smokes set you free?
What's it all mean when you run but cannot hide?
What's it all mean when you can't feel right with him by your side?
What's it all mean when you put a wall up to shield you from the pain?
What's it all mean when your tears pour down like rain?
What's it all mean when you feel so lost inside?
What's it all mean when you lose your stride?
What's it all mean when you know it's there, but cannot approach it?
What's it all mean when you still love him but cannot show it?
What's it all mean?
The answer lies before your eyes...
But you cannot go back to how things were
Because you are so lost and hurt inside
Copyright ©2005 Attica Lundy
What's it all mean when you've said it all, but not been heard?
What's it all mean when every holiday becomes just another day?
What's it all mean when the door opens and you walk through it, and then lose your way?
What's it all mean when life moves in slow motion and you still can't catch up?
What's it all mean when your two becomes one and solitude becomes your only choice?
What's it all mean when a smoking gun welcomes you to bat?
What's it all mean when you can no longer live with that?
What's it all mean when your home becomes a house?
What's it all mean when you fight to find your way out?
What's it all mean when you have feelings but can't express them?
What's it all mean when you no longer trust him?
What's it all mean when you say let me be!
What's it all mean when you feel locked up, not free?
What's it all mean when you want to try but can't find the energy?
What's it all mean when alcohol and smokes set you free?
What's it all mean when you run but cannot hide?
What's it all mean when you can't feel right with him by your side?
What's it all mean when you put a wall up to shield you from the pain?
What's it all mean when your tears pour down like rain?
What's it all mean when you feel so lost inside?
What's it all mean when you lose your stride?
What's it all mean when you know it's there, but cannot approach it?
What's it all mean when you still love him but cannot show it?
What's it all mean?
The answer lies before your eyes...
But you cannot go back to how things were
Because you are so lost and hurt inside
Copyright ©2005 Attica Lundy
Linger
Time's on hold, And this place is so cold-This place is so cold.
I can't breath,Need someplace to think-Need someplace for me.....
Sometimes things seem so damned grand When you take me by the hand, And make me fall in love with you....
But then I see a glimmer in your eyes that makes me start to realize, That in the end it's all about you....
Time slips away, Nothing more to say-I need some place to pray...
A window view, A memory of you-A choice of me or you
I just want to have some time, I just want to clear my mind-But you hold here anyway
You say if I go off on my own, Then i'm the one you'll never know-And so I stay but can't set my mind free
I'm alone
Need a place to call my own
Got some things that need to get strong
This place makes me feel weak
Now I will no longer speak
Because the truth isn't doing us any good
I'll just live a little lie, And see if I can just get by-Cause you'd rather me suffer than do what I know to do
So i'll die, A little at a time-A little at a time
Bury me under that big oak tree-Then you can always have me.
Cut the grass under the tree, don't let weeds cover me-that way I'll never leave
And when you want to hear my voice
Just speak out loud- cause that's your choice
Just speak out loud and hear your own voice...
And for now on I'll just smile
And linger for a while
And linger
for
awhile
Copyright ©2006 Attica Lundy
I can't breath,Need someplace to think-Need someplace for me.....
Sometimes things seem so damned grand When you take me by the hand, And make me fall in love with you....
But then I see a glimmer in your eyes that makes me start to realize, That in the end it's all about you....
Time slips away, Nothing more to say-I need some place to pray...
A window view, A memory of you-A choice of me or you
I just want to have some time, I just want to clear my mind-But you hold here anyway
You say if I go off on my own, Then i'm the one you'll never know-And so I stay but can't set my mind free
I'm alone
Need a place to call my own
Got some things that need to get strong
This place makes me feel weak
Now I will no longer speak
Because the truth isn't doing us any good
I'll just live a little lie, And see if I can just get by-Cause you'd rather me suffer than do what I know to do
So i'll die, A little at a time-A little at a time
Bury me under that big oak tree-Then you can always have me.
Cut the grass under the tree, don't let weeds cover me-that way I'll never leave
And when you want to hear my voice
Just speak out loud- cause that's your choice
Just speak out loud and hear your own voice...
And for now on I'll just smile
And linger for a while
And linger
for
awhile
Copyright ©2006 Attica Lundy
He Aint In Love With Me
He don't like the shit I like
He don't laugh and cuss like me
He don't give me the last bite
Or even as me if I had something to eat
He don't fuck me like he used to
Now it's all a rush, ya know
Like my pussy ain't worth a slow grind
Like he got somewhere else he got to go
He don't open the car door for me
He don't let the toilet seat down after he pee
He don't say he's sorry when he hurts me
He don't clean off the windshield so I can see
He don't say excuse me when he farts
He don't clean out my car when it ain't clean
He don't hug and kiss me when he see's me
And he talk to me so damn mean
He be flirting with them hoes
And he be choosing his boys over me
He don't give me the remote control
He don't see things the way I see
He can't show me unconditional love
He don't write to me no more
And when we go somewhere and all the seat's are taken
He take the last seat and tell's me to sit on the floor
He don't respect the place of God
He don't pray with me at night
He don't know how to handle this woman
He don't know how to treat me right
He think that everything is all about him
He think that he's God's gift to the world
He don't see me as his wife
He just see me as his girl
Yeah, them hoes call his cell phone
When they know i'm not around
Then he lie to my face like nothing
Like i'm just a fucking clown
He don't want me to go nowhere
He can't stand it when i'm gone
But when I stay around
It's just the same old tired ass song
He don't hold my hand when we go out
And believe me, us going out is rare
We ain't never been on a trip
He don't even help me take care of my hair
He won't shave my pubic area
He won't rub my back at night
He won't help me take down my braids
He refuse to treat me right!
He don't care about me like he should
And this ain't the way that it should be
I know that I deserve true love
But he ain't in love with me.
Copyright ©2006 Attica Lundy
He don't laugh and cuss like me
He don't give me the last bite
Or even as me if I had something to eat
He don't fuck me like he used to
Now it's all a rush, ya know
Like my pussy ain't worth a slow grind
Like he got somewhere else he got to go
He don't open the car door for me
He don't let the toilet seat down after he pee
He don't say he's sorry when he hurts me
He don't clean off the windshield so I can see
He don't say excuse me when he farts
He don't clean out my car when it ain't clean
He don't hug and kiss me when he see's me
And he talk to me so damn mean
He be flirting with them hoes
And he be choosing his boys over me
He don't give me the remote control
He don't see things the way I see
He can't show me unconditional love
He don't write to me no more
And when we go somewhere and all the seat's are taken
He take the last seat and tell's me to sit on the floor
He don't respect the place of God
He don't pray with me at night
He don't know how to handle this woman
He don't know how to treat me right
He think that everything is all about him
He think that he's God's gift to the world
He don't see me as his wife
He just see me as his girl
Yeah, them hoes call his cell phone
When they know i'm not around
Then he lie to my face like nothing
Like i'm just a fucking clown
He don't want me to go nowhere
He can't stand it when i'm gone
But when I stay around
It's just the same old tired ass song
He don't hold my hand when we go out
And believe me, us going out is rare
We ain't never been on a trip
He don't even help me take care of my hair
He won't shave my pubic area
He won't rub my back at night
He won't help me take down my braids
He refuse to treat me right!
He don't care about me like he should
And this ain't the way that it should be
I know that I deserve true love
But he ain't in love with me.
Copyright ©2006 Attica Lundy
Prelude To A Dream
Call
And I could never forget the feeling I got when the phone rang and your voice was on the other end and I had butterflies all throughout-in places remotely familiar and yet new
Hug
And I could smell your cologne-unique
and I could feel the hardness of your body- calling me
and I could taste the sweat on your neck-bitter sweet
Kiss
And though the clock was ticking,time stood still
tick tock-tick tock....time didn't even matter as pecks became sucks and sucks became passion
Breath
I inhaled so deeply as you entered me-Didn't know that after all these years it could feel this way: New-Old-Possibility...........and my mind off to another land and i'm seeing picket white fences and a dog running in the yard, and a cruise to the island
Exhale
Body shaking and I can't get this silly grin off my face and you know what you did to me, and that's making you smile, too. Pretty teeth, though. Jet Black Skin and I can't even see you with these lights turned off 'cept for the light coming through the window giving you this sexy siloute. This could work. Ain't found nothing wrong yet. Wish I didn't have to go to work tomorrow.
Dream
Because there's no way in the hell I can stay up after this. Even though this place is strange, I sure do feel at home in your arms
I think i'll stay.
Copyright ©2006 Attica Lundy
And I could never forget the feeling I got when the phone rang and your voice was on the other end and I had butterflies all throughout-in places remotely familiar and yet new
Hug
And I could smell your cologne-unique
and I could feel the hardness of your body- calling me
and I could taste the sweat on your neck-bitter sweet
Kiss
And though the clock was ticking,time stood still
tick tock-tick tock....time didn't even matter as pecks became sucks and sucks became passion
Breath
I inhaled so deeply as you entered me-Didn't know that after all these years it could feel this way: New-Old-Possibility...........and my mind off to another land and i'm seeing picket white fences and a dog running in the yard, and a cruise to the island
Exhale
Body shaking and I can't get this silly grin off my face and you know what you did to me, and that's making you smile, too. Pretty teeth, though. Jet Black Skin and I can't even see you with these lights turned off 'cept for the light coming through the window giving you this sexy siloute. This could work. Ain't found nothing wrong yet. Wish I didn't have to go to work tomorrow.
Dream
Because there's no way in the hell I can stay up after this. Even though this place is strange, I sure do feel at home in your arms
I think i'll stay.
Copyright ©2006 Attica Lundy
What Shall I Name It
What shall I name it?
I must be crazy because what you do to me ain't called love
Like when you stare blankly at me when i'm telling you that even when you are in the room i'm alone- I pretend you are listening.
Like when you come home smelling like perfume and cheap liquor- I pretend you left an A list party filled with all these important people just to be with me.
Like when I get in your car and find a tube of lipstick that ain't mine- I tell myself that you were shopping around for me and forgot to return the sample.
Like when you call me and say "wassup baby" and I say "nothing" ...then you say "who is this?" like you dialed the wrong number- I think to myself, "he just dials my number automatically because he's always thinking of me"
No, what you do to myself ain't love; but what I do to myself ain't love either.
Copyright ©2006 Attica Lundy
I must be crazy because what you do to me ain't called love
Like when you stare blankly at me when i'm telling you that even when you are in the room i'm alone- I pretend you are listening.
Like when you come home smelling like perfume and cheap liquor- I pretend you left an A list party filled with all these important people just to be with me.
Like when I get in your car and find a tube of lipstick that ain't mine- I tell myself that you were shopping around for me and forgot to return the sample.
Like when you call me and say "wassup baby" and I say "nothing" ...then you say "who is this?" like you dialed the wrong number- I think to myself, "he just dials my number automatically because he's always thinking of me"
No, what you do to myself ain't love; but what I do to myself ain't love either.
Copyright ©2006 Attica Lundy
3 Day
Rhyme
As a poet, I have rhythem in my step, movement, and stride
As a woman, I can't keep my feet to co-inside
Co-habitation has been my largest flaw
Cause he ain't buying what he already saw
Damn, shouldn't give it up so soon, so fast
3 day rule got me screwed up, so I gotta change from the past
but...damn, his cologne just smells so good
And though i try to stay away, i'm all up in his hood
Talkin' 'bout, can i come see you and how you been
knowing all along i just want to touch his smooth skin
and feel his whole body on top of mine
Making rhymes to my rhythem and rhythem to my rhyme.
That's poetry in the making
But not the kind that is deep
Well, perhaps it is deep
But that's our secret to keep
Okay, so i'm hooked on his body, but this time imma walk
If I keep giving it up, he won't marry me - real talk
But oh, I love him so, love listening to him speak
Love his laughter, his eyes, and his snore when he sleeps
Love his jokes and his manerism...I even love when he's mad
I'm so in love with this man, now ain't that real sad?
Naw...this is love. And love is good and it's bad
So i'll try to change my rhyme and my rhythem and stay in my own bed.
Copyright ©2006 Attica Lundy
As a poet, I have rhythem in my step, movement, and stride
As a woman, I can't keep my feet to co-inside
Co-habitation has been my largest flaw
Cause he ain't buying what he already saw
Damn, shouldn't give it up so soon, so fast
3 day rule got me screwed up, so I gotta change from the past
but...damn, his cologne just smells so good
And though i try to stay away, i'm all up in his hood
Talkin' 'bout, can i come see you and how you been
knowing all along i just want to touch his smooth skin
and feel his whole body on top of mine
Making rhymes to my rhythem and rhythem to my rhyme.
That's poetry in the making
But not the kind that is deep
Well, perhaps it is deep
But that's our secret to keep
Okay, so i'm hooked on his body, but this time imma walk
If I keep giving it up, he won't marry me - real talk
But oh, I love him so, love listening to him speak
Love his laughter, his eyes, and his snore when he sleeps
Love his jokes and his manerism...I even love when he's mad
I'm so in love with this man, now ain't that real sad?
Naw...this is love. And love is good and it's bad
So i'll try to change my rhyme and my rhythem and stay in my own bed.
Copyright ©2006 Attica Lundy
Breakup/Makeup
He called me stupid and told me to get away
said I was dumb and not worth his time of day
at first i was shocked and the pain hurt so bad
but as hours passed, the pain didn't last.
The next day went smooth until the night came through
and he told me he didn't want me and that we were through
and though i begged the night before
a new me emerged-i'd be a fool no more
See...i'm not stupid, i know who i am
and though i asked for reasoning, that's not who i am
who i am is strong, deep, and oh so kind
but to disrespect me...did he lose his mind
see, deep brown eyes and a smile so wide
and an ass so juicy, make you lose your mind
and intellegence and wisdom like you wouldn't believe
on the grind the right way for anything i strive to acheive
so i took the heartache one night and one day
and then i was done, said all i had to say
but his tune changed and he didn't want to leave
so here we are...him and me.
Copyright ©2006 Attica Lundy
said I was dumb and not worth his time of day
at first i was shocked and the pain hurt so bad
but as hours passed, the pain didn't last.
The next day went smooth until the night came through
and he told me he didn't want me and that we were through
and though i begged the night before
a new me emerged-i'd be a fool no more
See...i'm not stupid, i know who i am
and though i asked for reasoning, that's not who i am
who i am is strong, deep, and oh so kind
but to disrespect me...did he lose his mind
see, deep brown eyes and a smile so wide
and an ass so juicy, make you lose your mind
and intellegence and wisdom like you wouldn't believe
on the grind the right way for anything i strive to acheive
so i took the heartache one night and one day
and then i was done, said all i had to say
but his tune changed and he didn't want to leave
so here we are...him and me.
Copyright ©2006 Attica Lundy
Looking Back
Looking back on it all now
We gave our very best
Put temptations to the test
And we won
And we failed
And we tried so often it became more of a job
So we said goodbye
And went on to live seperate lives
But the love-it never died
And even now sometimes I cry
Because I still really, really miss you.
So here I am....
Stripped of all my pride
And i'm wondering if you have grown
As I have grown
And i'm hoping we can begin again
Having learned so much
Can we give it another try
Not just as lovers, but also as old friends
Cause I hear the places you have been
Have led you back to a place
Where a familiar face
Could make you smile...you've traveled miles....
But your heart is still very much with me
And there's not a reason I can see
That we can't be for each other what we were meant to be
Had our stupidity not made us lose our way.
Copyright ©2006 Attica Lundy
We gave our very best
Put temptations to the test
And we won
And we failed
And we tried so often it became more of a job
So we said goodbye
And went on to live seperate lives
But the love-it never died
And even now sometimes I cry
Because I still really, really miss you.
So here I am....
Stripped of all my pride
And i'm wondering if you have grown
As I have grown
And i'm hoping we can begin again
Having learned so much
Can we give it another try
Not just as lovers, but also as old friends
Cause I hear the places you have been
Have led you back to a place
Where a familiar face
Could make you smile...you've traveled miles....
But your heart is still very much with me
And there's not a reason I can see
That we can't be for each other what we were meant to be
Had our stupidity not made us lose our way.
Copyright ©2006 Attica Lundy
ONE story of my life
Way back in 87, came back from California right
Just turned 13, got hips and breasts- Now Im looking tight
Im about the flirt-long hair and boys got my head blowing up
Feeding me the game and shawty knew her shit could not be touched
I got a boyfriend-Too young for a man and not scared enough to have a niggah yet
Pecks on the cheek and hugs, boyfriend saying girl I love ya
Loving all the sweet poetry found in my locker after a gymnastics set
Didnt make it to second quarter before I lost my virginity on a bet
Now Im feeling grown and and theres so many other fish in the sea
Football seasons in, and beer and liquor tastes got-damn good to me
Ol boy who graduated from the school like a year before
Caught me at the snack bar, now Im with him and he made the score
Story of my life
Damn near 14 and the time is just flying by
Im dumb as hell, went from straight As and honor roll to just barely passing by
Too drunk to care, I dont remember everything that went down
Found myself in a circle of girls wanting to whoop my ass and stomp me N 2 the ground
Got the strength from somewhere and in the circle I held my own
Gotta stop drinking and smoking, though, cause my world is hazy and I aint grown
And I got played big time cause he aint serious about no 9th grade girl
So imma dump his ass and try to get ready for the world
Now Im 14, January baby got to get it right
East Point 4 life, but I found me a Decatur niggah-he so tight!
Got his own car, he in 12th grade and from a good family
But he want the ass, too, and graduated, went to Tuskegee and he dumped me
Story of my life
I done ran through niggahsyeah, I can't respect them so I call them that
And Im on the hustle, cause homeboys from the Westside got my back
And we on the grind-seein money come in from left and right
In school by day and by night we trappintill daylight
Like to caught a case, slowin it down cause that was just too close
Still a little girl, no matter how much makeup or sexy clothes
Story of my life
Need to regroup, so I closed myself off and caught a chill
Barely 15 now, gotta get a job cause somehow I gotta live
I aint on the streets, but life at home we barely scrapin by
Grandma on a government check, so Im paying bills instead of getting high
Dude from the other side of the tracks got his eye on me
Next year I left home and moved in with his family
He dont treat me right, but Im okay cause thats all I know
Saving up some dough and when I have enough I know that I will go
At 18 Im pregnant with my 1st child right out of high school
And Im feeling good cause Ill have someone 2 love me 4 real, and thats really cool
Its a struggle, yeah, but I took my cash, moved out, and bought a home
Im okay with just me and my son doing it on our own
Baby Daddy crazy, so hes in and out my life for years
Gave me another son, but the price I paid was stress and a lot of tears
Back in the day he hit me and made my eye swollen, black and blue
Story of my life
We fought for years but one day I was strong enough to say I was through
Back to the grind and a brand new life, but I lost my house in the cause
Grandma had died and I felt alone-so its just me and my boys for the long haul
Imma get it right, but I gotta stack is what I told myself
Back to the Westside on a hustle and on the way to wealth
Little boys on the road with me, taking chances that should not have been taken
But I was on the grind and concentrating on all the dough Im making
BabyDaddy tried to snitch and things fell all apart
Feds on my ass and if I lose my kids Id basically lose my heart
Gotta live life straight, so I disappear and get a 9 to 5
Now Im a corporate whore working for the man just to stay alive
Hook up with a dude and a daughter was conceived; now I got my three
Left his ass real quick so its just the four of us in our family
And I gotta look back, cause throughout it all I made it out safe and free
Gotta raise two boys to be men and thats hard because at times I dont believe in me
But its worth the while and imma make it right and give them the life they deserve
And my baby girl and boys will one day have the whole fuggin world
Imma do it right and imma make sure they dont never need or want for a thing
Imma keep it real and not be fake or phoney and one day Ill get that ring
Story of my life
But for now Im married to my kids with vows that cant be broke
And Ill teach them family values-cause no matter what your fam is your down azz folk
1st born son, right now hes olderdamn hes now 14
Gotta prevent him from living my story, gotta keep him sweet, cant let him get all mean
Gotta set the pace, show him respect, not let him treat girls like them niggas treated me
Gotta keep him off the grind so he can grow into a man and remain free
Yes, I snap..cause if I dont he gonna do shit I did
And yes, he gotta learn on his own, but I can guide him on the right path and not into a dead end
He gonna be alright if he listens and if not, while he still young, imma whip that ass
Not outta anger but love-and hell be okay, all his anger and fear will pass
He loves his dad, but he aint gotta be the same way his dad is
He can be much better, more successful than us both, true to the heart and full of bliss
And his younger siblings, they gonna be okay cause imma make sure of that
Just them and me, we smile cause we got each others backs
I done seen it all, done shed some blood and even committed sins
But they gonna live a different life-so this is where their story just begins.
Copyright ©2006 Attica Lundy
Just turned 13, got hips and breasts- Now Im looking tight
Im about the flirt-long hair and boys got my head blowing up
Feeding me the game and shawty knew her shit could not be touched
I got a boyfriend-Too young for a man and not scared enough to have a niggah yet
Pecks on the cheek and hugs, boyfriend saying girl I love ya
Loving all the sweet poetry found in my locker after a gymnastics set
Didnt make it to second quarter before I lost my virginity on a bet
Now Im feeling grown and and theres so many other fish in the sea
Football seasons in, and beer and liquor tastes got-damn good to me
Ol boy who graduated from the school like a year before
Caught me at the snack bar, now Im with him and he made the score
Story of my life
Damn near 14 and the time is just flying by
Im dumb as hell, went from straight As and honor roll to just barely passing by
Too drunk to care, I dont remember everything that went down
Found myself in a circle of girls wanting to whoop my ass and stomp me N 2 the ground
Got the strength from somewhere and in the circle I held my own
Gotta stop drinking and smoking, though, cause my world is hazy and I aint grown
And I got played big time cause he aint serious about no 9th grade girl
So imma dump his ass and try to get ready for the world
Now Im 14, January baby got to get it right
East Point 4 life, but I found me a Decatur niggah-he so tight!
Got his own car, he in 12th grade and from a good family
But he want the ass, too, and graduated, went to Tuskegee and he dumped me
Story of my life
I done ran through niggahsyeah, I can't respect them so I call them that
And Im on the hustle, cause homeboys from the Westside got my back
And we on the grind-seein money come in from left and right
In school by day and by night we trappintill daylight
Like to caught a case, slowin it down cause that was just too close
Still a little girl, no matter how much makeup or sexy clothes
Story of my life
Need to regroup, so I closed myself off and caught a chill
Barely 15 now, gotta get a job cause somehow I gotta live
I aint on the streets, but life at home we barely scrapin by
Grandma on a government check, so Im paying bills instead of getting high
Dude from the other side of the tracks got his eye on me
Next year I left home and moved in with his family
He dont treat me right, but Im okay cause thats all I know
Saving up some dough and when I have enough I know that I will go
At 18 Im pregnant with my 1st child right out of high school
And Im feeling good cause Ill have someone 2 love me 4 real, and thats really cool
Its a struggle, yeah, but I took my cash, moved out, and bought a home
Im okay with just me and my son doing it on our own
Baby Daddy crazy, so hes in and out my life for years
Gave me another son, but the price I paid was stress and a lot of tears
Back in the day he hit me and made my eye swollen, black and blue
Story of my life
We fought for years but one day I was strong enough to say I was through
Back to the grind and a brand new life, but I lost my house in the cause
Grandma had died and I felt alone-so its just me and my boys for the long haul
Imma get it right, but I gotta stack is what I told myself
Back to the Westside on a hustle and on the way to wealth
Little boys on the road with me, taking chances that should not have been taken
But I was on the grind and concentrating on all the dough Im making
BabyDaddy tried to snitch and things fell all apart
Feds on my ass and if I lose my kids Id basically lose my heart
Gotta live life straight, so I disappear and get a 9 to 5
Now Im a corporate whore working for the man just to stay alive
Hook up with a dude and a daughter was conceived; now I got my three
Left his ass real quick so its just the four of us in our family
And I gotta look back, cause throughout it all I made it out safe and free
Gotta raise two boys to be men and thats hard because at times I dont believe in me
But its worth the while and imma make it right and give them the life they deserve
And my baby girl and boys will one day have the whole fuggin world
Imma do it right and imma make sure they dont never need or want for a thing
Imma keep it real and not be fake or phoney and one day Ill get that ring
Story of my life
But for now Im married to my kids with vows that cant be broke
And Ill teach them family values-cause no matter what your fam is your down azz folk
1st born son, right now hes olderdamn hes now 14
Gotta prevent him from living my story, gotta keep him sweet, cant let him get all mean
Gotta set the pace, show him respect, not let him treat girls like them niggas treated me
Gotta keep him off the grind so he can grow into a man and remain free
Yes, I snap..cause if I dont he gonna do shit I did
And yes, he gotta learn on his own, but I can guide him on the right path and not into a dead end
He gonna be alright if he listens and if not, while he still young, imma whip that ass
Not outta anger but love-and hell be okay, all his anger and fear will pass
He loves his dad, but he aint gotta be the same way his dad is
He can be much better, more successful than us both, true to the heart and full of bliss
And his younger siblings, they gonna be okay cause imma make sure of that
Just them and me, we smile cause we got each others backs
I done seen it all, done shed some blood and even committed sins
But they gonna live a different life-so this is where their story just begins.
Copyright ©2006 Attica Lundy
Not feeling you
Never thought that Id ever get over you
But the day has come and I forgot the pain that was caused by you
Out to dinner? No, thats okay Im not feeling you
Dont think Id enjoy the company and didnt you forget-we are through
Stop stalking me.
Take off my ring.
Are you crazy?
You cant still love me!
Cause if you did
You'd realize that we can never be together
Too much damage was done
And I dont turn back, I just go towards another.
I know you feel that you finally get the point.
Years of telling you what I need, now I'm what you want
But you dont want me; you're just tired of those hoes out there.
You can't believe you lost a throne to a rocking chair!
The first you had gave you sensation dome
But you soon realized that she gave that to everyone
The next one you had wore only designer clothes
So hot-yeah right, without your money she'd leave you alone.
And sistah girl, the one you took to the picnic
Soon got off her diet-and you soon had triple necks
The lady you snuck off with when I would go out of town
Slept with your sister-but you didnt know that shit was going down.
Again, Ill tell you-dinner with you is not in my plans
You're yesterdays news-and Im with a brand new man
He fixes me morning coffee and gives me poetry as a late-night snack
Makes me moan and grown happily-now whyd you think Id want you back?
And when I'm sad, he sends me lyrics to an old school jam
Puts a smile on my face, no matter where I am
Calls me the sweetest you and makes me feel so wonderful
Im so damned glad that I dont have to put up with your bull no more.
So I'll holla later-sorry you had to lose
Next time wake up when the alarm sounds, instead of hitting snooze
And hopefully, you'll know what time it is
Before you lose out on what you had in this!
Copyright ©2006 Attica Lundy
But the day has come and I forgot the pain that was caused by you
Out to dinner? No, thats okay Im not feeling you
Dont think Id enjoy the company and didnt you forget-we are through
Stop stalking me.
Take off my ring.
Are you crazy?
You cant still love me!
Cause if you did
You'd realize that we can never be together
Too much damage was done
And I dont turn back, I just go towards another.
I know you feel that you finally get the point.
Years of telling you what I need, now I'm what you want
But you dont want me; you're just tired of those hoes out there.
You can't believe you lost a throne to a rocking chair!
The first you had gave you sensation dome
But you soon realized that she gave that to everyone
The next one you had wore only designer clothes
So hot-yeah right, without your money she'd leave you alone.
And sistah girl, the one you took to the picnic
Soon got off her diet-and you soon had triple necks
The lady you snuck off with when I would go out of town
Slept with your sister-but you didnt know that shit was going down.
Again, Ill tell you-dinner with you is not in my plans
You're yesterdays news-and Im with a brand new man
He fixes me morning coffee and gives me poetry as a late-night snack
Makes me moan and grown happily-now whyd you think Id want you back?
And when I'm sad, he sends me lyrics to an old school jam
Puts a smile on my face, no matter where I am
Calls me the sweetest you and makes me feel so wonderful
Im so damned glad that I dont have to put up with your bull no more.
So I'll holla later-sorry you had to lose
Next time wake up when the alarm sounds, instead of hitting snooze
And hopefully, you'll know what time it is
Before you lose out on what you had in this!
Copyright ©2006 Attica Lundy
Trippin
Dang
I never thought that you would trip about
Dem thangs
And never figured you to be so petty
But all the same
It doesn't matter if you are mad or pouting
I don't care
It's not like I don't have the right to have my own opinion
Not like you're even here
So what if I want the drama to end
and i'm not tripping, so?????
If you don't like how I feel about it then you can always
Go
And when you come back i'll be cool
~it won't even been a thang
Cause you were the one tripping and i ignored you
all the same.
I'm used to your temper tantrums
and they're so sad to me
I try to ignrore them so you won't
look so dang weak to me
And yes, i'm hard, but i'm soft about things
that are honest and are real
And yes, my demeanor is calm but it's not like
I don't or cannot FEEL
But this was about some bull**** and you know
that i'm not a friggin' kid
I wouldn't care if the whole thing ended
Cause this thang has got you bent
But anyway just take your time and just keep that drama there
And when you grow and get over it, then you can find me here!
Copyright ©2006 Attica Lundy
I never thought that you would trip about
Dem thangs
And never figured you to be so petty
But all the same
It doesn't matter if you are mad or pouting
I don't care
It's not like I don't have the right to have my own opinion
Not like you're even here
So what if I want the drama to end
and i'm not tripping, so?????
If you don't like how I feel about it then you can always
Go
And when you come back i'll be cool
~it won't even been a thang
Cause you were the one tripping and i ignored you
all the same.
I'm used to your temper tantrums
and they're so sad to me
I try to ignrore them so you won't
look so dang weak to me
And yes, i'm hard, but i'm soft about things
that are honest and are real
And yes, my demeanor is calm but it's not like
I don't or cannot FEEL
But this was about some bull**** and you know
that i'm not a friggin' kid
I wouldn't care if the whole thing ended
Cause this thang has got you bent
But anyway just take your time and just keep that drama there
And when you grow and get over it, then you can find me here!
Copyright ©2006 Attica Lundy
Big Spender
It is hard to be at peace with others....when you are not at peace with yourself.
It is hard to be a leader when you are lost.
At times I look at you from across the room, and dont recognize you at all.
Seems you are a changed person, but I fear your soul was the cost.
A price much too expensive to pay.did you keep the receipt?
Do some soul searching and its bound to reappear.
I was always there for you, and Im not too far away
So when you are ready I'll be in the stands giving you cheers.
Copyright ©2006 Attica Lundy
It is hard to be a leader when you are lost.
At times I look at you from across the room, and dont recognize you at all.
Seems you are a changed person, but I fear your soul was the cost.
A price much too expensive to pay.did you keep the receipt?
Do some soul searching and its bound to reappear.
I was always there for you, and Im not too far away
So when you are ready I'll be in the stands giving you cheers.
Copyright ©2006 Attica Lundy
His Skin
Tonight his skin rests on my skin
Still damp from being within
The hollow breaths of life escape his mouth
His heartbeat is my song
I love him so
Never want this feeling to end and
I wish it were a Friday instead of Sunday night
Because life begins again tomorrow
The song slows down and its time to dance again
Deep kisses tell a love story
Passionate movements paint a portrait
Vibrating moans pave the way
I love him so
Making love to him is more than just an act
Its a ballet and Im the prima ballerina
Its a war and this is just one battle
He makes me young
Sweat dripping from his body onto mine is like drinking water from the fountain of youth
And I lose myself in his eyes
And feel so safe in his frame, much taller than mine
I love him so
I dont want him to go away
I want to keep him with me always and a day
And if I could, Id pull him deeper into my womb and keep him everyday.
We fall asleep
And on this night I do not dream
I only smile in my slumber and love him more
And silently pray that well have more days like today.
Copyright ©2006 Attica Lundy
Still damp from being within
The hollow breaths of life escape his mouth
His heartbeat is my song
I love him so
Never want this feeling to end and
I wish it were a Friday instead of Sunday night
Because life begins again tomorrow
The song slows down and its time to dance again
Deep kisses tell a love story
Passionate movements paint a portrait
Vibrating moans pave the way
I love him so
Making love to him is more than just an act
Its a ballet and Im the prima ballerina
Its a war and this is just one battle
He makes me young
Sweat dripping from his body onto mine is like drinking water from the fountain of youth
And I lose myself in his eyes
And feel so safe in his frame, much taller than mine
I love him so
I dont want him to go away
I want to keep him with me always and a day
And if I could, Id pull him deeper into my womb and keep him everyday.
We fall asleep
And on this night I do not dream
I only smile in my slumber and love him more
And silently pray that well have more days like today.
Copyright ©2006 Attica Lundy
Happy Turkey Day!!!
I don't celebrate the traditional way
With Turkey, Dressing, and yams
I celebrate by giving extra hugs
Cause I truly love my fam
And I love to hear all the laughter
And see their loving ways
I tell ya, the love is so beautiful
enough to fill me up for days!
The grace is oh so special
Cause it's one we all deeply feel
And the twinkle in the elders eyes
Shows that true love is very real
I don't think about the pilgrims
And how they came to this land
I think about the stuggle
And how blood shed made me who I am
I'm thankful for the mi-nute freedom
That I have in these United States
And I am thankful for those around us
Who turn to peace instead of towards hate
I'm thankful for the foodstamps
That uncle Sam has given to me
Because as I sit here unemployed
I'm at least able to feed my family.
I'm thankful for my computer
And thank-God for this MySpace
Cause i'm not alone that much anymore
with friends from all over the place.
I'm thankful for my children
God blessed me with these three
I teach them love everyone equally
They are a reflection of all that's me
My oldest, Chris, is a character
He's a teenager and lord, that's hard
But his heart is very tender
He's in love with his first Sweetheart
My middle son's name is Nicholas
He's advanced in his studies in class
But the boy doesn't use commen sense
So what- I still love his crazy ass
My youngest is Miss Trinity
Her eyes are more Hpnotiq than mine
I had prayed for a daughter since I was 13
And finally God blessed me on the 3rd try.
I'm thankful for my lover
He's the one that still holds me down
I know sometimes I fly off the handle
But i'm still glad that he sticks around
Then there's my best friend, Portia Nicole
I love her more than words
She moved away to Texas
But I still make sure my voice is heard
Then there's Miss Ren, who's a close friend
She's so much fun, and keeps a smile on my face
I'm so very glad we met and connected
Because she keeps me grounded and at a good pace
I'm also thankful for my friend Christine
She's been sad lately-but things will be alright
Sometimes you have to learn to build yourself up
So i'm going to be there-no matter how hard the fight
I'm thankful for so much
Too much to list it all here
I'd be here all day trying to list it all
Though I don't mind, cause I always have your ear
Dang, forgot about my baby brother
I'm thankful for Larry and his words
He's the best writer i've come across in a while
His stories soar like the wings of the birds
Okay...i'm gone 4 real
I'd really like to stay
But since Tom gave me this site for Free
I've got to add new graphics to my page.
Copyright ©2006 Attica Lundy
With Turkey, Dressing, and yams
I celebrate by giving extra hugs
Cause I truly love my fam
And I love to hear all the laughter
And see their loving ways
I tell ya, the love is so beautiful
enough to fill me up for days!
The grace is oh so special
Cause it's one we all deeply feel
And the twinkle in the elders eyes
Shows that true love is very real
I don't think about the pilgrims
And how they came to this land
I think about the stuggle
And how blood shed made me who I am
I'm thankful for the mi-nute freedom
That I have in these United States
And I am thankful for those around us
Who turn to peace instead of towards hate
I'm thankful for the foodstamps
That uncle Sam has given to me
Because as I sit here unemployed
I'm at least able to feed my family.
I'm thankful for my computer
And thank-God for this MySpace
Cause i'm not alone that much anymore
with friends from all over the place.
I'm thankful for my children
God blessed me with these three
I teach them love everyone equally
They are a reflection of all that's me
My oldest, Chris, is a character
He's a teenager and lord, that's hard
But his heart is very tender
He's in love with his first Sweetheart
My middle son's name is Nicholas
He's advanced in his studies in class
But the boy doesn't use commen sense
So what- I still love his crazy ass
My youngest is Miss Trinity
Her eyes are more Hpnotiq than mine
I had prayed for a daughter since I was 13
And finally God blessed me on the 3rd try.
I'm thankful for my lover
He's the one that still holds me down
I know sometimes I fly off the handle
But i'm still glad that he sticks around
Then there's my best friend, Portia Nicole
I love her more than words
She moved away to Texas
But I still make sure my voice is heard
Then there's Miss Ren, who's a close friend
She's so much fun, and keeps a smile on my face
I'm so very glad we met and connected
Because she keeps me grounded and at a good pace
I'm also thankful for my friend Christine
She's been sad lately-but things will be alright
Sometimes you have to learn to build yourself up
So i'm going to be there-no matter how hard the fight
I'm thankful for so much
Too much to list it all here
I'd be here all day trying to list it all
Though I don't mind, cause I always have your ear
Dang, forgot about my baby brother
I'm thankful for Larry and his words
He's the best writer i've come across in a while
His stories soar like the wings of the birds
Okay...i'm gone 4 real
I'd really like to stay
But since Tom gave me this site for Free
I've got to add new graphics to my page.
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Whisper Love Songs
I'm sitting outside
it's the start of winter
November air cold
but my love for you still burns
Been missing you lately
and I can't get you off my mind
Don't know when i'll see you again
but i know missing you hurts
I try so hard
to let the past escape
from my mind
trying to remember only the good times
like laughing at
the silliest things
and toasting marshmellows
when the lights went out-and ending it with a slow grind
i long to hear
your song again
i miss you
can't get you off my mind
think i'll come back home
and lay you down
think it's been too long
and that it's about time
Sudden movements in the dark
scare me
not knowing what tomorrow brings
worries me
Pride before passion
has been my crime
i want you back
if only for one more time
la la la la
doo doo doo doo doo
la la la la
da da doo doo doo
umm hmmm hmmm hmm
Whisper love songs
hmm hmm hmm hmm
Till I fall asleep in your arms
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it's the start of winter
November air cold
but my love for you still burns
Been missing you lately
and I can't get you off my mind
Don't know when i'll see you again
but i know missing you hurts
I try so hard
to let the past escape
from my mind
trying to remember only the good times
like laughing at
the silliest things
and toasting marshmellows
when the lights went out-and ending it with a slow grind
i long to hear
your song again
i miss you
can't get you off my mind
think i'll come back home
and lay you down
think it's been too long
and that it's about time
Sudden movements in the dark
scare me
not knowing what tomorrow brings
worries me
Pride before passion
has been my crime
i want you back
if only for one more time
la la la la
doo doo doo doo doo
la la la la
da da doo doo doo
umm hmmm hmmm hmm
Whisper love songs
hmm hmm hmm hmm
Till I fall asleep in your arms
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Vows
He was married to his wedding band
And, he could easily remove the ring and be a brand new man
Didn't want the responsibilities of the vows
Pushed her away whenever she reminded him of them
She cried alone
Each night and day
He scorned her
And made her pay
For what?
Her sins did not amount to her penance
He chose to pushish her
But the wrong was done by him
She called me, crying
I hated him for that
She called me 'cause she wanted to die
So I talked her back to life
She needed him
But he's in the arms of another
She wanted him
But he's gone away for now.
The next day she called me
Found a number in his pocket
She dialed it
And it was a hotel right around the corner
No clues to the room
The front desk didn't know of him
No car parked outside
It could have been a day ago
Why is this happening?
She asked me over and over again.
Why won't he come back home?
I said, I don't know, my friend...
She called me, crying
I hated him for that
She called me 'cause she wanted to die
But I talked her back to life
She needed him
But he's in the arms of another
She wanted him
But he's gone away for now.
The next day silence
Not a word from her
I called and called
But I got no answer
I went to find her
No car parked outside
The front door was opened
And so I took some steps inside
I searched the house
And found no one there
I sat on the sofa
Sleep was creeping up on me by now
The phone must have been ringing a long time
I finally heard it
I answered and told them nobody was home
That's when I heard it
A car was in the garage
Still groggy from my sleep
Took me a while to make it to the door
I opened the kitchen door
To get inside
Her car was there still running
And I saw the two of them inside.
Doors were locked, as they slept in the front seat
I realized something was wrong
And I banged on the door to wake them up
The garage was filled with gas
And I couldn't breath
I knew they were gone
It was so hard to believe
I ran back inside and got a hammer
I went back there and broke the drivers side window
Holding my nose and mouth with one hand
The other reached inside the car
I shook her but she did not move, only fell into his lap
I ran back inside and called 911
It was too late, their story was now done
She'd spiked his drink and made him sleep
Then put him in the car-so death would them part.
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And, he could easily remove the ring and be a brand new man
Didn't want the responsibilities of the vows
Pushed her away whenever she reminded him of them
She cried alone
Each night and day
He scorned her
And made her pay
For what?
Her sins did not amount to her penance
He chose to pushish her
But the wrong was done by him
She called me, crying
I hated him for that
She called me 'cause she wanted to die
So I talked her back to life
She needed him
But he's in the arms of another
She wanted him
But he's gone away for now.
The next day she called me
Found a number in his pocket
She dialed it
And it was a hotel right around the corner
No clues to the room
The front desk didn't know of him
No car parked outside
It could have been a day ago
Why is this happening?
She asked me over and over again.
Why won't he come back home?
I said, I don't know, my friend...
She called me, crying
I hated him for that
She called me 'cause she wanted to die
But I talked her back to life
She needed him
But he's in the arms of another
She wanted him
But he's gone away for now.
The next day silence
Not a word from her
I called and called
But I got no answer
I went to find her
No car parked outside
The front door was opened
And so I took some steps inside
I searched the house
And found no one there
I sat on the sofa
Sleep was creeping up on me by now
The phone must have been ringing a long time
I finally heard it
I answered and told them nobody was home
That's when I heard it
A car was in the garage
Still groggy from my sleep
Took me a while to make it to the door
I opened the kitchen door
To get inside
Her car was there still running
And I saw the two of them inside.
Doors were locked, as they slept in the front seat
I realized something was wrong
And I banged on the door to wake them up
The garage was filled with gas
And I couldn't breath
I knew they were gone
It was so hard to believe
I ran back inside and got a hammer
I went back there and broke the drivers side window
Holding my nose and mouth with one hand
The other reached inside the car
I shook her but she did not move, only fell into his lap
I ran back inside and called 911
It was too late, their story was now done
She'd spiked his drink and made him sleep
Then put him in the car-so death would them part.
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Your Eyes
I do not wish to excape
the madness of your eyes.
It sends me further than i've ever gone before.
The burning sensations that it extracts
Grooves me
moves me
soothes me
loses me
It sends me to desolate seashore away from everywhere,
And there i am.
I feel the sea mist dampen my heart.
It sends me
and there i am.
I'm purring through and through like a kitten
tasting warm milk from the
bowl of a loving, but stern, caregiver.
I feel hungry.
You feed me.
I feel energized.
And there i am.
It sends me to a far away resort
with pools of clear turquoise
Where we sit out on the deck of our suite
and enjoy the sun,
Sipping on vodka and cranberry juice.
I taste the bitterness of the drink
---your drink.
I feel the hot sun tanning my already golden skin.
Heat.
And as i take one more sip,
one last taste,
i close my eyes.
It sends me to a hot bubble bath in a garden tub
built for two.
The foam moisturizes my body
and tickles my neck,
and i notice how the bubbles seem to melt
and turn
into a smooth film.
And as i watch your naked body taking in the scene,
it sends me.
It sends me.
It sends me to a waterfall
where the water falls
from the mountain above us.
We are in the cave behind it.
There is a lagoon there,
and you caress me because the water is cold
And intimidating.
And as you hold me close to you,
it sends me.
It sends me.
It sends me back
to that madness of your eyes,
and as i realize that there is no escape,
i surrender to them,
to you,
to us.
And i dream,
as i fall into my slumber,
that they
(your eyes)
will always
Look
into mine.
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the madness of your eyes.
It sends me further than i've ever gone before.
The burning sensations that it extracts
Grooves me
moves me
soothes me
loses me
It sends me to desolate seashore away from everywhere,
And there i am.
I feel the sea mist dampen my heart.
It sends me
and there i am.
I'm purring through and through like a kitten
tasting warm milk from the
bowl of a loving, but stern, caregiver.
I feel hungry.
You feed me.
I feel energized.
And there i am.
It sends me to a far away resort
with pools of clear turquoise
Where we sit out on the deck of our suite
and enjoy the sun,
Sipping on vodka and cranberry juice.
I taste the bitterness of the drink
---your drink.
I feel the hot sun tanning my already golden skin.
Heat.
And as i take one more sip,
one last taste,
i close my eyes.
It sends me to a hot bubble bath in a garden tub
built for two.
The foam moisturizes my body
and tickles my neck,
and i notice how the bubbles seem to melt
and turn
into a smooth film.
And as i watch your naked body taking in the scene,
it sends me.
It sends me.
It sends me to a waterfall
where the water falls
from the mountain above us.
We are in the cave behind it.
There is a lagoon there,
and you caress me because the water is cold
And intimidating.
And as you hold me close to you,
it sends me.
It sends me.
It sends me back
to that madness of your eyes,
and as i realize that there is no escape,
i surrender to them,
to you,
to us.
And i dream,
as i fall into my slumber,
that they
(your eyes)
will always
Look
into mine.
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Black
Midnight
And his skin is transparent
With the night
Shawdow enters space
between the sheets and I
His lips encompassasing
Damp edges of my moist
Punani
and with a suck so deep
that i gasp
into the night.
My hips rise and fall
as i hear sounds of our lips encounter
still down below,
his lips slave to my masterous princess pearl
or was it me that was slave to his
lips, tounge, and skill...
I gasp
no matter who's in charge
only that Black is the cause of my pulse rising
and once the falls come running down
shawdows from the dark rise from the
shelter of the sheets
and his mouth tastes mine...
still hungry i kiss and tease with my tongue
as his rod enters my world below
and again we dance
this time in union
thrusts, dips, moans, and praises
And I stroking and scratching the Black Panther that surrounds his spirit in this night of passion.
Applause as two worlds become one!
I scream "Black" in the midnight hour,
and i'm somewhere else because this man becomes my
sunrise
and
sunset
And I become his Sunshine and North Star in the smile that I cannot hide.
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And his skin is transparent
With the night
Shawdow enters space
between the sheets and I
His lips encompassasing
Damp edges of my moist
Punani
and with a suck so deep
that i gasp
into the night.
My hips rise and fall
as i hear sounds of our lips encounter
still down below,
his lips slave to my masterous princess pearl
or was it me that was slave to his
lips, tounge, and skill...
I gasp
no matter who's in charge
only that Black is the cause of my pulse rising
and once the falls come running down
shawdows from the dark rise from the
shelter of the sheets
and his mouth tastes mine...
still hungry i kiss and tease with my tongue
as his rod enters my world below
and again we dance
this time in union
thrusts, dips, moans, and praises
And I stroking and scratching the Black Panther that surrounds his spirit in this night of passion.
Applause as two worlds become one!
I scream "Black" in the midnight hour,
and i'm somewhere else because this man becomes my
sunrise
and
sunset
And I become his Sunshine and North Star in the smile that I cannot hide.
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She is
She is too clingy. Too needy. Too weak.
I used to think that she was the world and that her passion was such a beautiful thing but as I look at her now, I see something so tiny and undesirable. When she begs for love, it's pathetic. When she pours out her heart, it's almost embarrasing. And I suppose all I see is negative because she's not really loving the person she's with - it's all about her and her need to fool the world into thinking that her heart is selfless when in fact, she's selfish. She doesn't know what love is. She only pretends. And that's why she's so pathetic, and that's why she'll always end up alone.
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I used to think that she was the world and that her passion was such a beautiful thing but as I look at her now, I see something so tiny and undesirable. When she begs for love, it's pathetic. When she pours out her heart, it's almost embarrasing. And I suppose all I see is negative because she's not really loving the person she's with - it's all about her and her need to fool the world into thinking that her heart is selfless when in fact, she's selfish. She doesn't know what love is. She only pretends. And that's why she's so pathetic, and that's why she'll always end up alone.
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Forever Your Love
I lay still sometimes awaiting anything...everything...from you.
So still, breathing getting more shallow, heartbeat slowing down...trying to stay still enough that you'll seem to move faster than me.
But you won't. You died a long time ago and all that is left is the shell of you. Your voice is a foreign tongue. When we walk together and pass a mirror-your reflection does not exist and I see how very alone I am. Sometimes I think that you are not real; just my imaginary partner, my imaginary friend.
Sill breathing-more shallow-getting dizzy but still faster than you. You do nothing. You are nothing. We are nothing. I am everything that you cannot be.
Escape me, please. Let me cast you into the darkness that you've pulled me into. From the day I loved you, my life has not been my own. From the day I loved you, my dreams have fallen short. From the day I didn't love you anymore, my future seemed much brighter.
Now I lay still enough that you can't know i'm breathing, hoping you'll surrender over your life out of desperation and leave, so that I may re-emerge and reclaim mine.
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So still, breathing getting more shallow, heartbeat slowing down...trying to stay still enough that you'll seem to move faster than me.
But you won't. You died a long time ago and all that is left is the shell of you. Your voice is a foreign tongue. When we walk together and pass a mirror-your reflection does not exist and I see how very alone I am. Sometimes I think that you are not real; just my imaginary partner, my imaginary friend.
Sill breathing-more shallow-getting dizzy but still faster than you. You do nothing. You are nothing. We are nothing. I am everything that you cannot be.
Escape me, please. Let me cast you into the darkness that you've pulled me into. From the day I loved you, my life has not been my own. From the day I loved you, my dreams have fallen short. From the day I didn't love you anymore, my future seemed much brighter.
Now I lay still enough that you can't know i'm breathing, hoping you'll surrender over your life out of desperation and leave, so that I may re-emerge and reclaim mine.
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Life Hope
Fear not what holds in thyne destiny
It is what light shines in from the sun rays
It is what mist hazes through the twilight
It is what song hums from the winds
It is babe's breath in the summer
It's the look of the pharoah in his greatest moment
It's the wisdom carried on through generations triumphing ignorance
It's hope in the midst of despair
It's the truth in the presense of a lie
It is thyne destiny.
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It is what light shines in from the sun rays
It is what mist hazes through the twilight
It is what song hums from the winds
It is babe's breath in the summer
It's the look of the pharoah in his greatest moment
It's the wisdom carried on through generations triumphing ignorance
It's hope in the midst of despair
It's the truth in the presense of a lie
It is thyne destiny.
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New Seas
I suppose i'd summoned you from across a thousand seas
To a place i barely knew.
Except in my dreams how many times had i
Traveled there before.....and though it was familiar to me, it was, in all honesty, new.
The wanting in your eyes made me tingle from every pore,
Somewhat like the rain hits your skin in the mist of a summer storm.
And yet it was heat that i felt as your hand touched mine,
for that made me hungry for more.
It was your kiss that sealed my fate (much like it sealed my lips).
The taste of you made me quiver as i watched the movement of your hips.
And when you pulled me to you, it was a journey in itself.
For i knew that all the world's riches didn't compare to this love's
Wealth.
Your hand searched my body slowly, and i knew fear,
For i was afraid that this would be the last time.
So i savored every movement, every sigh, every touch¼
And sketched the memories in my mind.
And that night as i slept, i saw it all again,
As if i were at a movie show.
And i thought that dream would never end,
But the new day came; and the dream did go.
And today? I summon you from across a thousand new seas
To our place underneath the sun.
And when i see that smile on your lips again,
I know that we've just begun.
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To a place i barely knew.
Except in my dreams how many times had i
Traveled there before.....and though it was familiar to me, it was, in all honesty, new.
The wanting in your eyes made me tingle from every pore,
Somewhat like the rain hits your skin in the mist of a summer storm.
And yet it was heat that i felt as your hand touched mine,
for that made me hungry for more.
It was your kiss that sealed my fate (much like it sealed my lips).
The taste of you made me quiver as i watched the movement of your hips.
And when you pulled me to you, it was a journey in itself.
For i knew that all the world's riches didn't compare to this love's
Wealth.
Your hand searched my body slowly, and i knew fear,
For i was afraid that this would be the last time.
So i savored every movement, every sigh, every touch¼
And sketched the memories in my mind.
And that night as i slept, i saw it all again,
As if i were at a movie show.
And i thought that dream would never end,
But the new day came; and the dream did go.
And today? I summon you from across a thousand new seas
To our place underneath the sun.
And when i see that smile on your lips again,
I know that we've just begun.
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Over The Edge
WHY AM I FIGHTING THIS CRAZY WAR?
I'M SO TIRED AND ALONG THE WAY I FORGOT WHAT I WAS REALLY FIGHTING FOR.
AND WHO IS THE REAL ENEMY?
I'VE HURT SO MANY PEOPLE TO GET TO HIM, BUT HE'S STILL ALIVE.
HOW CAN THAT BE?
I CLOSE MY EYES AND COUNT TO TEN, BUT WHEN I OPEN THEM AGAIN I CANNOT
SEE.
I CANNOT SEE.
AND WHEN MY VISION COMES INTO FOCUS, A SPOTLIGHT COMES ON AND BRIGHTLY
SHOWS US;
I SEE AN IMAGE OF ME. ONLY ME.
SO I RUNAND HIDE UNTIL I'M TOO TIRED TO GO ON, AND SIT DOWN SO I CAN
THINK.
HOW CAN I RUN FROM MYSELF? HOW CAN I PROTECT MYSELF?
MY WORLD'S BEGINNING TO SINK.
IT'S BEGINNING TO SINK.
SO I RUN AND HIDE UNTIL I'M TOO TIRED TO GO ON, AND I SIT DOWN SO I CAN
THINK.
HOW CAN I RUN FROM MYSELF? HOW CAN I PROTECT MYSELF?
MY WORLD'S BEGINNING TO SINK. IT'S BEGINNING TO SINK.
I LISTEN CLOSELY FOR A MESSSAGE OF ESCAPE.
BUT ALL I HEAR ARE INNER VOICES REMINDING ME OF ALL OF MY MISTAKES.
ALL OF A SUDDEN I'M LIKE A CHILD AGAIN; I'M ALL ALONE, AND I'M AFRAID¼
IT SEEMS THAT I'VE LOST ALL OF MY FRIENDS.
WHY DID LIFE HAVE TO INJURE ME THIS WAY?
I CONJURE UP THE STENGTH TO SAY " I NEED ALLIES AGAIN. I NEED HELP
AGAIN".
I TRY TO BANDAGE UP WOUNDS IN SHAME, I CANNOT BARE ALL THE PAIN.
ALL THE PAIN.
SO IN A FOGLESS STATE OF MIND, I GO OVER THE LEDGE AND JUMP TO SHELTER
BELOW.
AND AS I CROSS OVER THE EDGE, I PREPARE MYSELF FOR THE FALL.
I REALIZE WAR IS ALL THAT I KNOW;
it is all that I've ever known.
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I'M SO TIRED AND ALONG THE WAY I FORGOT WHAT I WAS REALLY FIGHTING FOR.
AND WHO IS THE REAL ENEMY?
I'VE HURT SO MANY PEOPLE TO GET TO HIM, BUT HE'S STILL ALIVE.
HOW CAN THAT BE?
I CLOSE MY EYES AND COUNT TO TEN, BUT WHEN I OPEN THEM AGAIN I CANNOT
SEE.
I CANNOT SEE.
AND WHEN MY VISION COMES INTO FOCUS, A SPOTLIGHT COMES ON AND BRIGHTLY
SHOWS US;
I SEE AN IMAGE OF ME. ONLY ME.
SO I RUNAND HIDE UNTIL I'M TOO TIRED TO GO ON, AND SIT DOWN SO I CAN
THINK.
HOW CAN I RUN FROM MYSELF? HOW CAN I PROTECT MYSELF?
MY WORLD'S BEGINNING TO SINK.
IT'S BEGINNING TO SINK.
SO I RUN AND HIDE UNTIL I'M TOO TIRED TO GO ON, AND I SIT DOWN SO I CAN
THINK.
HOW CAN I RUN FROM MYSELF? HOW CAN I PROTECT MYSELF?
MY WORLD'S BEGINNING TO SINK. IT'S BEGINNING TO SINK.
I LISTEN CLOSELY FOR A MESSSAGE OF ESCAPE.
BUT ALL I HEAR ARE INNER VOICES REMINDING ME OF ALL OF MY MISTAKES.
ALL OF A SUDDEN I'M LIKE A CHILD AGAIN; I'M ALL ALONE, AND I'M AFRAID¼
IT SEEMS THAT I'VE LOST ALL OF MY FRIENDS.
WHY DID LIFE HAVE TO INJURE ME THIS WAY?
I CONJURE UP THE STENGTH TO SAY " I NEED ALLIES AGAIN. I NEED HELP
AGAIN".
I TRY TO BANDAGE UP WOUNDS IN SHAME, I CANNOT BARE ALL THE PAIN.
ALL THE PAIN.
SO IN A FOGLESS STATE OF MIND, I GO OVER THE LEDGE AND JUMP TO SHELTER
BELOW.
AND AS I CROSS OVER THE EDGE, I PREPARE MYSELF FOR THE FALL.
I REALIZE WAR IS ALL THAT I KNOW;
it is all that I've ever known.
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The Innocent One
The Lie called Love has stolen my innocence away
this autumn day
and as I lay there in the mist of it all
I cry tears of lost emotion
Feeling nothing as he lay hovered above me
because all the pain is gone
Gone forever are the storybook dreams
that he had told me
Only the rush of resentment;
Is this how it is to be?
I am a child of God,
have I lost my place in heaven?
What sins have resulted in this,
What crime?
So alone now am I.
Shame
Don't say my name
call me something else,
something new
a name for this new person that you created
because the old me,
the whole me,
the innocent one has left the room.
Your gifts mean nothing
they are not from the heart;
they are from the mind.
Premeditated attempts to win back my love
and to hush my attempts to cry.
Win back my love?
Well, man, what is love?
What I thought was love can never be.
I am a child,
so I play by your rules.
But you can never take my soul away,
or my mind.
So when you are raping me
I cannot feel you.
I am the innocent one.
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this autumn day
and as I lay there in the mist of it all
I cry tears of lost emotion
Feeling nothing as he lay hovered above me
because all the pain is gone
Gone forever are the storybook dreams
that he had told me
Only the rush of resentment;
Is this how it is to be?
I am a child of God,
have I lost my place in heaven?
What sins have resulted in this,
What crime?
So alone now am I.
Shame
Don't say my name
call me something else,
something new
a name for this new person that you created
because the old me,
the whole me,
the innocent one has left the room.
Your gifts mean nothing
they are not from the heart;
they are from the mind.
Premeditated attempts to win back my love
and to hush my attempts to cry.
Win back my love?
Well, man, what is love?
What I thought was love can never be.
I am a child,
so I play by your rules.
But you can never take my soul away,
or my mind.
So when you are raping me
I cannot feel you.
I am the innocent one.
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
For The Most Part
For the most part we r 1
lovers through and through
but every now and then I'm drawn
to stray away from u.
It's not because I love u less
or that I can't keep up pace
It's just that sometimes I miss myself
and that's when I need space.
Until u came N 2 my life
there was always only me
I got used 2 things being that way
I thought that was how it was 2 B
Now I have u n my life
and my dreams have all come true
The space I need is a little space
But the rest is given to u.
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lovers through and through
but every now and then I'm drawn
to stray away from u.
It's not because I love u less
or that I can't keep up pace
It's just that sometimes I miss myself
and that's when I need space.
Until u came N 2 my life
there was always only me
I got used 2 things being that way
I thought that was how it was 2 B
Now I have u n my life
and my dreams have all come true
The space I need is a little space
But the rest is given to u.
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I Need U
For so long, I carried all the emptiness inside
didn't want to run and hide
didn't want my heart to cry
Now u feel the same emptiness I do
and it's all deep inside u
because u still don't have a clue.
But I'm telling u that I will never leave your side this way
U don't have to force me to stay
I'd be here anyway
u r my heart and no one can take that away.
So I'm taking time right now to apologize
and I'm asking u to forgive me if I made u cry
and I'm asking u to stay right by my side........
I Need U.
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didn't want to run and hide
didn't want my heart to cry
Now u feel the same emptiness I do
and it's all deep inside u
because u still don't have a clue.
But I'm telling u that I will never leave your side this way
U don't have to force me to stay
I'd be here anyway
u r my heart and no one can take that away.
So I'm taking time right now to apologize
and I'm asking u to forgive me if I made u cry
and I'm asking u to stay right by my side........
I Need U.
Copyright © 1997 by ADMLundy. All rights reserved.
Hectic Days
I never want the rain to pour down
and ruin our parade
I only want the sun to shine
and brighten up our days.
I know that sometimes things are hectic
I know that love is strained
But if you have faith in us, then nothing has to change.
There are troubled waters that will be there
you have to wait along the shore
And eventually the tide will calm
upon the ocean floor
When the time is right
you can take a dip in,
and swim till your heart's content
It won't always be this way.......
Once again we can picnic with the sun beaming down her rays...
Until then we'll sit inside on those cold and rainy days.
Copyright © 1997 by ADMLundy. All rights reserved.
and ruin our parade
I only want the sun to shine
and brighten up our days.
I know that sometimes things are hectic
I know that love is strained
But if you have faith in us, then nothing has to change.
There are troubled waters that will be there
you have to wait along the shore
And eventually the tide will calm
upon the ocean floor
When the time is right
you can take a dip in,
and swim till your heart's content
It won't always be this way.......
Once again we can picnic with the sun beaming down her rays...
Until then we'll sit inside on those cold and rainy days.
Copyright © 1997 by ADMLundy. All rights reserved.
In My Heart
My heart calls out to u
it has blossomed like a flower
...a rose, because it unfolds
sweet beauty within...
I cannot deny that this haunts me,
the anxiety that I feel
of your lips becoming one with mine.
With U all things could be possible
And with US nothing could steer us wrong
I'm at my best when you're on my mind
and I think that u r thinking of me
and our destiny
I hear u calling out to me...
Dare I answer?
Copyright © 1997 by ADMLundy. All rights reserved.
it has blossomed like a flower
...a rose, because it unfolds
sweet beauty within...
I cannot deny that this haunts me,
the anxiety that I feel
of your lips becoming one with mine.
With U all things could be possible
And with US nothing could steer us wrong
I'm at my best when you're on my mind
and I think that u r thinking of me
and our destiny
I hear u calling out to me...
Dare I answer?
Copyright © 1997 by ADMLundy. All rights reserved.
Dip With Me
take a dip in,
and swim till your heart's content
my seas open up to you
tonite
skinny dip
i want to feel your skin
private parts buried in
making my cherry throb
until my wimpers turn to sobs
God, how I love the way
You make me cum over and over again
How you pound harder when i say your name
how you pull gently at my silky mane
then slow it down when i need you to
and do tricks with your tongue that no others do
take a dip with me tonite
waves of thunder feel so right
make me shudder with one touch
what you do to me means so much
Copyright ©2006 Attica Lundy
and swim till your heart's content
my seas open up to you
tonite
skinny dip
i want to feel your skin
private parts buried in
making my cherry throb
until my wimpers turn to sobs
God, how I love the way
You make me cum over and over again
How you pound harder when i say your name
how you pull gently at my silky mane
then slow it down when i need you to
and do tricks with your tongue that no others do
take a dip with me tonite
waves of thunder feel so right
make me shudder with one touch
what you do to me means so much
Copyright ©2006 Attica Lundy
Forgive
It was hard for me to forgive you
'cause my mind wouldn't let me forget
But I know i am not perfect
And i've done things myself that I regret
But i've never taken anything
Especially nothing like the thing you took from me
Our horrid little secret
I was six, and you took my virginity
It still makes me shudder to think of it now
I was just a little girl
And even though you did me wrong
You still were the center of my world
But I do forgive you now
Mack Wallace Hines, i'll say your name
And that way another little girl
Will know you before she plays your games
God told me to forgive you
And if I did, he'd take the pain from me
So I do forgive you for your crimes
And await god's eternity.
Copyright ©2006 Attica Lundy
'cause my mind wouldn't let me forget
But I know i am not perfect
And i've done things myself that I regret
But i've never taken anything
Especially nothing like the thing you took from me
Our horrid little secret
I was six, and you took my virginity
It still makes me shudder to think of it now
I was just a little girl
And even though you did me wrong
You still were the center of my world
But I do forgive you now
Mack Wallace Hines, i'll say your name
And that way another little girl
Will know you before she plays your games
God told me to forgive you
And if I did, he'd take the pain from me
So I do forgive you for your crimes
And await god's eternity.
Copyright ©2006 Attica Lundy
Whatever I Did
Whatever I did is done. I don't expect you to forgive me if it's not in your heart to, but I do forgive myself and truly, that's all that matters. Life is too short to dwell on what cannot be taken back. I love myself. God loves me, too. That's all that really matters.
Whatever I did is done. I cannot erase the past, nor would I want to. I realize that what was done has helped to make me who I am-so I regret nothing. I've learned from my mistakes and hopefully i'll not repeat the past. It's called growing. Not necessarily growing up, but growing.
Whatever I did is done. The tears cannot wash away the pain. The tears cannot clense my soul. Prayer did, though, and I feel renewed, refreshed, and reborn.
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Whatever I did is done. I cannot erase the past, nor would I want to. I realize that what was done has helped to make me who I am-so I regret nothing. I've learned from my mistakes and hopefully i'll not repeat the past. It's called growing. Not necessarily growing up, but growing.
Whatever I did is done. The tears cannot wash away the pain. The tears cannot clense my soul. Prayer did, though, and I feel renewed, refreshed, and reborn.
Copyright ©2006 Attica Lundy
Front Door
Knock-Knock
You think you can just walk into my life when you want to?
You think you can come, bringing your drama-filled life to my front door?
Do you realize that I can't possibly house all those folks...
cause there's you,
then there's me,
then there's everyone you've been with,
then there's everyone i've been with,
then there's everyone they've been with;
and hell, i'm all out of sugar.
Copyright ©2006 Attica Lundy
You think you can just walk into my life when you want to?
You think you can come, bringing your drama-filled life to my front door?
Do you realize that I can't possibly house all those folks...
cause there's you,
then there's me,
then there's everyone you've been with,
then there's everyone i've been with,
then there's everyone they've been with;
and hell, i'm all out of sugar.
Copyright ©2006 Attica Lundy
Making Love
Ill formed clusters of light fall through spaces of the window blinds
The night has cast a spell
Moonlight envades the room
Chocolate so sweet when melted in sex
Marked structures of tatto's and scratches
Unified, an alliance has been made
I do, I will, and vows of the sort
No witnesses, 'cept God and the night
And a slow jam CD made for making love
Accompanied by melodies of the heart
Copyright ©2006 Attica Lundy
The night has cast a spell
Moonlight envades the room
Chocolate so sweet when melted in sex
Marked structures of tatto's and scratches
Unified, an alliance has been made
I do, I will, and vows of the sort
No witnesses, 'cept God and the night
And a slow jam CD made for making love
Accompanied by melodies of the heart
Copyright ©2006 Attica Lundy
My Platform
I shy away from the norm
No certain truths hold me barred
No certain ideals represent my platform
No certain chains hold me down
I am my own woman
Representing ME in all that I am
Respecting ME inside and out
Portraying ME and no others
I fear only GOD
I put no man before my maker
Nothing shiny or large can make me wonder
I am certain of this before all else
I speak Truth with no words or sounds
Hypnotic with tales of my life
Hpnotic when day turns to night
Herotic when it comes to my stride
A new day must come
When we recreate ourselves each day, make new
When we utilize ALL of our tools
To be what we can be
I'll start today
For me, i'll pave the way
And tonite, on my knees i'll pray
That you all will do the same.
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
No certain truths hold me barred
No certain ideals represent my platform
No certain chains hold me down
I am my own woman
Representing ME in all that I am
Respecting ME inside and out
Portraying ME and no others
I fear only GOD
I put no man before my maker
Nothing shiny or large can make me wonder
I am certain of this before all else
I speak Truth with no words or sounds
Hypnotic with tales of my life
Hpnotic when day turns to night
Herotic when it comes to my stride
A new day must come
When we recreate ourselves each day, make new
When we utilize ALL of our tools
To be what we can be
I'll start today
For me, i'll pave the way
And tonite, on my knees i'll pray
That you all will do the same.
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
A different landscape
He's disrespectful
He hangs up on you when he get's mad.
Sometimes he curses at you, and that's not right.
When you are a lady outside but a freak in his room, he betrays you by bringing it up later as a 'comeback'.
He makes you feel stupid for even being with him....
but you can't leave him alone because you can't imagine your life without him.
You are stuck.
You can't trust him.
Can't trust that he will change.
You don't really want him to change who he is...you love that about him.
But you want him to love you the way he says he does, to respect you the way he says he does, to deliver the promise of a future that he said....
And yet he takes you through mind games
and underminds you-breaks his promises...
You've come unglued.
But this is your love.
It's nowhere near perfect.
The book has been written, but he won't read the words so you're stuck reading them yourself and you realize that the relationship isn't a partnership, only an entity.
But you stay.
You stay because nobody can take you from who you are.
You are strong because you've come to understand that nobody is perfect and that ultimatly, he needs you.
He needs you to let him vent.
He needs you to stand by his side.
And in your darkest moment, he'll do the same for you.
He wants no other...he will not cheat....he shows you his good side and bad side and has shown you that he's just a man and not perfect and that is okay with you.
You see his love when he steals glances at you.
You feel his love when you sleep at night and your heartbeats beat to the same drum.
He loves you more than he's ever loved anyother woman.
And that's why he acts up-because sometimes he's afraid because if he loses you, he has lost it all.
It's his way...and it's your choice.
You choose to stay because despite all the bad things, the peace that you feel when you think of him is the truth.
That's who you love.
He's your man even when he acts like a little boy.
And though some may call you stupid, in the end, they don't matter.
In the end, they can't live your life for you.
And no matter what they may say, their grass is no greener than yours-it's just a different landscape.
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
He hangs up on you when he get's mad.
Sometimes he curses at you, and that's not right.
When you are a lady outside but a freak in his room, he betrays you by bringing it up later as a 'comeback'.
He makes you feel stupid for even being with him....
but you can't leave him alone because you can't imagine your life without him.
You are stuck.
You can't trust him.
Can't trust that he will change.
You don't really want him to change who he is...you love that about him.
But you want him to love you the way he says he does, to respect you the way he says he does, to deliver the promise of a future that he said....
And yet he takes you through mind games
and underminds you-breaks his promises...
You've come unglued.
But this is your love.
It's nowhere near perfect.
The book has been written, but he won't read the words so you're stuck reading them yourself and you realize that the relationship isn't a partnership, only an entity.
But you stay.
You stay because nobody can take you from who you are.
You are strong because you've come to understand that nobody is perfect and that ultimatly, he needs you.
He needs you to let him vent.
He needs you to stand by his side.
And in your darkest moment, he'll do the same for you.
He wants no other...he will not cheat....he shows you his good side and bad side and has shown you that he's just a man and not perfect and that is okay with you.
You see his love when he steals glances at you.
You feel his love when you sleep at night and your heartbeats beat to the same drum.
He loves you more than he's ever loved anyother woman.
And that's why he acts up-because sometimes he's afraid because if he loses you, he has lost it all.
It's his way...and it's your choice.
You choose to stay because despite all the bad things, the peace that you feel when you think of him is the truth.
That's who you love.
He's your man even when he acts like a little boy.
And though some may call you stupid, in the end, they don't matter.
In the end, they can't live your life for you.
And no matter what they may say, their grass is no greener than yours-it's just a different landscape.
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
Acts
A spell
A whisper
A need
A want
A feeling
A passion
A lust
A love
A dream
A haunting
A compassion
A revelation
A movement
A shawdow
A longing
A tear
A stroke
A touch
A kiss
A moment
A feeling
A hunger
A burning
A desire
A fragrance
A memory
A life
A fear
A conception
A claim
A question
A test
A task
A plan
A woman
A man
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A whisper
A need
A want
A feeling
A passion
A lust
A love
A dream
A haunting
A compassion
A revelation
A movement
A shawdow
A longing
A tear
A stroke
A touch
A kiss
A moment
A feeling
A hunger
A burning
A desire
A fragrance
A memory
A life
A fear
A conception
A claim
A question
A test
A task
A plan
A woman
A man
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
Abstract Mind (with poets explanation!!!)
Sitting alone in a white room-white walls make the space seem endless-white floors make my caramel skin seem out of place-white doors feeling unwelcoming-white windows won't even let the sun shine through
you know, in the dark we are all black.-but in this white, i'm so out of place
looking around, there's no other face like me.
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
_________________________________________
Note from the author:
Typically I don't explain my poetry, but for this one I wanted to.
The white walls are the void filled world-void of color and emotion
The white floors are places you go that you have to tip-toe through and can't be yourself.
My caramel feet against that white floor is my free nature not feeling right in this world that won't let me express myself freely.
The white windows are the clouded view that society has us looking at.
In the dark is in a place where we are all on equal ground-nobody is a particular race, creed, religion, etc. We are not fat, thin, pretty, or ugly. We are the same
you know, in the dark we are all black.-but in this white, i'm so out of place
looking around, there's no other face like me.
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
_________________________________________
Note from the author:
Typically I don't explain my poetry, but for this one I wanted to.
The white walls are the void filled world-void of color and emotion
The white floors are places you go that you have to tip-toe through and can't be yourself.
My caramel feet against that white floor is my free nature not feeling right in this world that won't let me express myself freely.
The white windows are the clouded view that society has us looking at.
In the dark is in a place where we are all on equal ground-nobody is a particular race, creed, religion, etc. We are not fat, thin, pretty, or ugly. We are the same
Bonfire
"They" sat around the bonfire passing the smoke, drink, and sharing the laughter
Talking about things from this to that with so many meanings
Deep thoughts and high dreams and "they" all nodded, understanding
Because the night was free and the sand was endless in the night
At some point "they" became "we"
Sure, others were still there but we were in a new place
Having bonded somewhere in the admidst glances here and there
Our high now lulled into a seduced yearning for verity
It was a point where amongst eyes all around, an instant where I could not look away, nor could he-mutally acknowledged that something would occur...
And when the others seemed to fade away, we only drew nearer and eventually engaged in a tribal consortion
Quiet unexpected, lips softer than mine
Silence swarmed the night, 'cept quickened heartbeats and deep breaths
Ending never wanting to take a play, but of course nothing lasts forever
Returning to the fire, the group had reunited once again and we again became apart of them, 'cept the secret that burned in the fla
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
Talking about things from this to that with so many meanings
Deep thoughts and high dreams and "they" all nodded, understanding
Because the night was free and the sand was endless in the night
At some point "they" became "we"
Sure, others were still there but we were in a new place
Having bonded somewhere in the admidst glances here and there
Our high now lulled into a seduced yearning for verity
It was a point where amongst eyes all around, an instant where I could not look away, nor could he-mutally acknowledged that something would occur...
And when the others seemed to fade away, we only drew nearer and eventually engaged in a tribal consortion
Quiet unexpected, lips softer than mine
Silence swarmed the night, 'cept quickened heartbeats and deep breaths
Ending never wanting to take a play, but of course nothing lasts forever
Returning to the fire, the group had reunited once again and we again became apart of them, 'cept the secret that burned in the fla
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
Lived to love you
She lived to love you
Used to eat, sleep, dream, and breath you
Used to wake up in the middle of the night and smile just because her heart fluttered thoughts of the night before.
She used to pray for you
She stayed
FOR YOU
But your love wasn't true
And her heart broke 'cause of you
Damn, Black Man, why can't you see
That when a GREAT black queen, yes the one you've always seen
Shining through her eyes, her smile a sunrise
Her heart pure platinum and jewels
Your home girl from the old school
The one who has your back
Through thick, thin, white, or black
Putting her on the back burner
Like she's yesterday's news
But, Black Man, you just don't know
You ain't got a clue
She's the best you've ever had
The one who loves you
And if you fuck this thing up
You'll be the one that will lose
See...she's smarter than most
She's the TRUTH-but she don't boast
She ain't got to front
It's evident in her stunt
She's not some hoe
That you got from the club
She's the best thing since sliced bread
But you can't get that through your thick head
She ain't about the bling
Or the lame game 'dem other dudes sing
She don't need nothing from no one
She's got it all through God's love
And if you didn't know it till now
Then pay attention today
Any niggah could get any broad
But it takes a real man to be true and to do the right thang.
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
Used to eat, sleep, dream, and breath you
Used to wake up in the middle of the night and smile just because her heart fluttered thoughts of the night before.
She used to pray for you
She stayed
FOR YOU
But your love wasn't true
And her heart broke 'cause of you
Damn, Black Man, why can't you see
That when a GREAT black queen, yes the one you've always seen
Shining through her eyes, her smile a sunrise
Her heart pure platinum and jewels
Your home girl from the old school
The one who has your back
Through thick, thin, white, or black
Putting her on the back burner
Like she's yesterday's news
But, Black Man, you just don't know
You ain't got a clue
She's the best you've ever had
The one who loves you
And if you fuck this thing up
You'll be the one that will lose
See...she's smarter than most
She's the TRUTH-but she don't boast
She ain't got to front
It's evident in her stunt
She's not some hoe
That you got from the club
She's the best thing since sliced bread
But you can't get that through your thick head
She ain't about the bling
Or the lame game 'dem other dudes sing
She don't need nothing from no one
She's got it all through God's love
And if you didn't know it till now
Then pay attention today
Any niggah could get any broad
But it takes a real man to be true and to do the right thang.
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
Richard,Mi Amore'
I CLOSE MY EYES IN DISBELIEF THAT YOU ARE GONE.
HOW COULD YOUR PRESENSE BE STOLEN AWAY FROM ME?
YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE WHO COULD EVER HAVE MY WHOLE HEART.
AND YOU LOVED ME BACK
ENTIRELY.
Copyright © 1997 by ADMLundy. All rights reserved.
HOW COULD YOUR PRESENSE BE STOLEN AWAY FROM ME?
YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE WHO COULD EVER HAVE MY WHOLE HEART.
AND YOU LOVED ME BACK
ENTIRELY.
Copyright © 1997 by ADMLundy. All rights reserved.
Rummy
When Granny was away we used to
play
and have our special times like
rummy at the card table
and
big bottles of cranberry juice
and
lyrics flowing back and forth to each other
not original
but
meaningful, nonetheless
things were so simple yet important
and never ever any sour notes
and crashing a wedding, watching above in the balcony
of a blissful weekend
with
special made omlets
and nights filled with lights in the trees
and trips to BJ's for no reason at all
and this was us
this was right
tinted windows creeping up through the YO
and it's okay.....
because life is about change
but
i
will
not
4get
because it makes me smile
and laugh
and cry
and celebrate
and mourn......................
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
play
and have our special times like
rummy at the card table
and
big bottles of cranberry juice
and
lyrics flowing back and forth to each other
not original
but
meaningful, nonetheless
things were so simple yet important
and never ever any sour notes
and crashing a wedding, watching above in the balcony
of a blissful weekend
with
special made omlets
and nights filled with lights in the trees
and trips to BJ's for no reason at all
and this was us
this was right
tinted windows creeping up through the YO
and it's okay.....
because life is about change
but
i
will
not
4get
because it makes me smile
and laugh
and cry
and celebrate
and mourn......................
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
Holding Back
I WILL NOT FALL IN LOVE AGAIN. THE PAIN HURTS TOO BAD NOW.
I'LL HAVE TO LEARN TO PACE MYSELF AND HOLD BACK SOMEHOW.
I KNOW THAT PASSION SOMETIMES DIES, AND THINGS WILL BE OKAY.
AND IF MY LOVER LEAVES BECAUSE THE NEED IS THERE, I WILL NOT BEG THEM TO
STAY.
A HEART CAN DIE A BILLION TIMES AND LIVE TO SEE THE NEXT LIFE.
A LOVER CAN HOLD YOU, LOVE YOU, FEEL YOU-BUT THEY NEVER TAKE YOU AS
WIFE.
EVERYONE GOES AWAY SOONER OR LATER
EVERYONE SAYS "GOODBYE".
EACH OF US STRIVES TO REACH THE NEXT LEVEL
ENDLESS, IT SEEMS, BUT WE STILL TRY.
EVERY NOWANDTHEN THINGS SEEM TO BE LOOKING UP
EVENTUALLY THEY'LL COME DOWN.
Copyright © 1997 by ADMLundy. All rights reserved.
I'LL HAVE TO LEARN TO PACE MYSELF AND HOLD BACK SOMEHOW.
I KNOW THAT PASSION SOMETIMES DIES, AND THINGS WILL BE OKAY.
AND IF MY LOVER LEAVES BECAUSE THE NEED IS THERE, I WILL NOT BEG THEM TO
STAY.
A HEART CAN DIE A BILLION TIMES AND LIVE TO SEE THE NEXT LIFE.
A LOVER CAN HOLD YOU, LOVE YOU, FEEL YOU-BUT THEY NEVER TAKE YOU AS
WIFE.
EVERYONE GOES AWAY SOONER OR LATER
EVERYONE SAYS "GOODBYE".
EACH OF US STRIVES TO REACH THE NEXT LEVEL
ENDLESS, IT SEEMS, BUT WE STILL TRY.
EVERY NOWANDTHEN THINGS SEEM TO BE LOOKING UP
EVENTUALLY THEY'LL COME DOWN.
Copyright © 1997 by ADMLundy. All rights reserved.
Light
Leave the light on for me
I'm coming home
It's such a relief to find comfort in you
Keeper of my soul
And while the angels watch over me
It still is not the same
As the warmth that I can only pray for
From the hold of your strong embrace
I am but a woman
Who in the past found comfort in man
But it wasn't until I learned a greater joy
Of saying a prayer and ending it with amen
You were always here for me
Right from the very start
It just took a while for me to recongnize
That you were the missing part
For so long I felt so empty
And i'd shed tears from pain inside
But now my tears are from pure joy
Tears I need not to hide
And one day when you call me home
I will not fight at all
I'll gladly go where you will me to
totally, completly, and all.
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
I'm coming home
It's such a relief to find comfort in you
Keeper of my soul
And while the angels watch over me
It still is not the same
As the warmth that I can only pray for
From the hold of your strong embrace
I am but a woman
Who in the past found comfort in man
But it wasn't until I learned a greater joy
Of saying a prayer and ending it with amen
You were always here for me
Right from the very start
It just took a while for me to recongnize
That you were the missing part
For so long I felt so empty
And i'd shed tears from pain inside
But now my tears are from pure joy
Tears I need not to hide
And one day when you call me home
I will not fight at all
I'll gladly go where you will me to
totally, completly, and all.
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
Cry
Spending nights alone are much better than spending nights with a lie
Sometimes it's best to call it as you see it, and not to run and hide
Best to take a look at yourself and find the worth inside
And know that you are beautiful, and shread away the pride
It's okay to cry if you need to
Okay to scream and shout
But know what your bottom line is
And do not count that out
Never be the fool
Because then you let him win
And take it from a pro
You will find love again
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
Sometimes it's best to call it as you see it, and not to run and hide
Best to take a look at yourself and find the worth inside
And know that you are beautiful, and shread away the pride
It's okay to cry if you need to
Okay to scream and shout
But know what your bottom line is
And do not count that out
Never be the fool
Because then you let him win
And take it from a pro
You will find love again
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
The End of Love
Love was when i loved you
When I waited for your call
When I came out in the middle of the night
No matter how near or far
Love was when there were moments
And love was when there were smiles
Love was when I'd lay down my life
If it would keep you from harm
Love was when it mattered
Love was when there was a chance
Love was when there were stars in the sky
And the sweet nector of romance
Love was when you completed me
Love was at "hello"
Love was never doubting
How far I would go
Love was pretty and golden
Love was never afraid
Love was holding hands
And always feeling brave
Love was sacrifice
Love was all there was
Love was any and everything
Love didn't have a cost
Love was truth and honor
Love was breathing in your soul
Love was keeping cool in the summer
And love was staying warm when it was cold
Love was rainy nights in the darkness
Love was timeless then
But nothing lasts forever
And now love has come to an end
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
When I waited for your call
When I came out in the middle of the night
No matter how near or far
Love was when there were moments
And love was when there were smiles
Love was when I'd lay down my life
If it would keep you from harm
Love was when it mattered
Love was when there was a chance
Love was when there were stars in the sky
And the sweet nector of romance
Love was when you completed me
Love was at "hello"
Love was never doubting
How far I would go
Love was pretty and golden
Love was never afraid
Love was holding hands
And always feeling brave
Love was sacrifice
Love was all there was
Love was any and everything
Love didn't have a cost
Love was truth and honor
Love was breathing in your soul
Love was keeping cool in the summer
And love was staying warm when it was cold
Love was rainy nights in the darkness
Love was timeless then
But nothing lasts forever
And now love has come to an end
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
Silent Presents
I can't speak.
I've said all the words,
There are no more.
I smoke cigarettes because I know they cause cancer
and I don't value my life enough to give it justice.
I want to live. I really do.
But no matter how much I reason with others about how things should be....
no matter how much I try to live in God's light, there is always that dark shadow standing in the way of the shine.
At 4 it was her-presenting to me that I wasn't worth commitment.
At 6 it was him-presenting to me that having a home had a cost.
At 12 it was them- presenting to me that a lie could turn white if tinted in the right way.
At 15 it was them- presenting to me that moments were not prescious.
At 17 it was him- presenting to me that you could run, but could not hide.
At 18 it was him- presenting to me that bruises could be ignored.
At 19 it was it- presenting to me that control was a choice.
At 23 it was her- presenting to me a chance to leave the team and join the flock.
At 27 it was him- presenting to me that bonnie and clyde did exist.
At 30 it was me- presenting to myself that change was necessary.
At 33 it was me- presenting to myself that love could die.
At 34 it is me- presenting to myself that you can't trust what you see.
At 34 it is him- presenting to me that an arrangement is acceptable.
At 34 it is God- presenting to me that life is precious, and time is now, and tears don't have to be cried in vain, and what you feel deep down inside is typically right, and
and
and
perhaps it is time to appreciate and practice wisdom.
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
I've said all the words,
There are no more.
I smoke cigarettes because I know they cause cancer
and I don't value my life enough to give it justice.
I want to live. I really do.
But no matter how much I reason with others about how things should be....
no matter how much I try to live in God's light, there is always that dark shadow standing in the way of the shine.
At 4 it was her-presenting to me that I wasn't worth commitment.
At 6 it was him-presenting to me that having a home had a cost.
At 12 it was them- presenting to me that a lie could turn white if tinted in the right way.
At 15 it was them- presenting to me that moments were not prescious.
At 17 it was him- presenting to me that you could run, but could not hide.
At 18 it was him- presenting to me that bruises could be ignored.
At 19 it was it- presenting to me that control was a choice.
At 23 it was her- presenting to me a chance to leave the team and join the flock.
At 27 it was him- presenting to me that bonnie and clyde did exist.
At 30 it was me- presenting to myself that change was necessary.
At 33 it was me- presenting to myself that love could die.
At 34 it is me- presenting to myself that you can't trust what you see.
At 34 it is him- presenting to me that an arrangement is acceptable.
At 34 it is God- presenting to me that life is precious, and time is now, and tears don't have to be cried in vain, and what you feel deep down inside is typically right, and
and
and
perhaps it is time to appreciate and practice wisdom.
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
Stalker
I need my peace
I will you away
Go someplace
And there, please stay!
Don't call my phone.
Don't Call my name.
Forget about me,
and i'll do the same.
You just can't see
that even if I tried
I can't love you again
Because your actions made me hide.
I can't go out in public
For fear that you are there
I can't feel secure
because you are everywhere!
You are in my dreams
You are on my phone
You are every where
Please leave me alone!
It's so sad to say
I've had to call the police
You are the worst person in the world
Much worst than a thief
Much worst than a killer
Much worst than a fein
It hurst me to say
that your worst than anything!
Why won't you leave?
Why can't you try?
Seems you are mentally unstable
And you could get help if you tried.
Breaking into my accounts,
Hiding behind the scenes
Making me hate you...
is that how to you "love" is seen?
I'll tell you the truth
You don't know love at all
because if you really loved me
You'd not bother me at all.
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
I will you away
Go someplace
And there, please stay!
Don't call my phone.
Don't Call my name.
Forget about me,
and i'll do the same.
You just can't see
that even if I tried
I can't love you again
Because your actions made me hide.
I can't go out in public
For fear that you are there
I can't feel secure
because you are everywhere!
You are in my dreams
You are on my phone
You are every where
Please leave me alone!
It's so sad to say
I've had to call the police
You are the worst person in the world
Much worst than a thief
Much worst than a killer
Much worst than a fein
It hurst me to say
that your worst than anything!
Why won't you leave?
Why can't you try?
Seems you are mentally unstable
And you could get help if you tried.
Breaking into my accounts,
Hiding behind the scenes
Making me hate you...
is that how to you "love" is seen?
I'll tell you the truth
You don't know love at all
because if you really loved me
You'd not bother me at all.
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
Real
I cannot dream without seeing your face
It doesn't haunt me, just calms me and puts me in a peaceful space
But I fear that time is so sudden
Going from cold to hot, coming from nothing to something
I fear it's not real
Fear i'm dreaming like a child
But it feels real
And I feel confirmation through your smile
It's so intense
The way my heart beats for you
It makes no sense
But my faith tells me this is true
So how could this be....
Like going from zero to a hundred in a second or less
Before I was so independant
But now I feel I can rest
My trust in you
Is more than i've ever known
Makes me think somehow
That i'm still not all the way grown
But still I smile
Can't help it 'cause you bring me joy
This is not bad
For a girl to meet a boy
And have a future
Taking it one step at a time
I'm still on my path of faith
Want to live my life surrounded by God's love
And with recent blessings
Seem's you've been sent from heaven above
I must pray on this
To understand God's plan
I've always wanted
to be in the arms of an honest man
I want so much
And I've got so much to give
I suppose in the past
I was alive, but never truly lived
So this is me being reborn
And it feels good, but scrary at the same time
I'll just walk on faith, because I know that you are mine.
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
It doesn't haunt me, just calms me and puts me in a peaceful space
But I fear that time is so sudden
Going from cold to hot, coming from nothing to something
I fear it's not real
Fear i'm dreaming like a child
But it feels real
And I feel confirmation through your smile
It's so intense
The way my heart beats for you
It makes no sense
But my faith tells me this is true
So how could this be....
Like going from zero to a hundred in a second or less
Before I was so independant
But now I feel I can rest
My trust in you
Is more than i've ever known
Makes me think somehow
That i'm still not all the way grown
But still I smile
Can't help it 'cause you bring me joy
This is not bad
For a girl to meet a boy
And have a future
Taking it one step at a time
I'm still on my path of faith
Want to live my life surrounded by God's love
And with recent blessings
Seem's you've been sent from heaven above
I must pray on this
To understand God's plan
I've always wanted
to be in the arms of an honest man
I want so much
And I've got so much to give
I suppose in the past
I was alive, but never truly lived
So this is me being reborn
And it feels good, but scrary at the same time
I'll just walk on faith, because I know that you are mine.
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
Games
You were so lame trying to call me out like that
Little girl, I'm a grown ass woman and I don't respond to shit like that
You wanna play, it's your game, I got no time for it cause i'm ALL that and more
And if your man ain't happy-look at yourself-what the hell you looking at me for?
That shit was so funny, I laughed my ass off, and then together we laughed even more you.
You made a fool out of yourself, desperation isn't cute-so what you really one wanna do?
Two grand a month? Baby that ain't shit? I got shoes worth much more, and you were the fool to even pay.
I got royalty checks, stocks and bonds,i'm a super starr, and I pay my OWN damn way.
Catch me on tour if you wanna see me, you know how us BIG ballers do...
Or you can buy the book, and read all about US..and see how YOU were played for a fool.
And the best part about it is when they buy the books, money gets put into MY account.
Now that's some funny shit, Karma like a motha, cause didn't you cheat on your spouse?
Now you don't really know me, so there's no need to show me just how childish you seem to be
Pretending to have a baby on the way is so high school, makes me laugh harder at you, imagining you drinking hatoraid like it's sweet tea.
And your boy hooks me up just right, serves me oh-so-well, and drinks up every sip of this Hpnotiq, cause it tastes so RIGHT
Hope your satisfied with this info cause I won't be acknowledging you again, especially in this life time.
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
Little girl, I'm a grown ass woman and I don't respond to shit like that
You wanna play, it's your game, I got no time for it cause i'm ALL that and more
And if your man ain't happy-look at yourself-what the hell you looking at me for?
That shit was so funny, I laughed my ass off, and then together we laughed even more you.
You made a fool out of yourself, desperation isn't cute-so what you really one wanna do?
Two grand a month? Baby that ain't shit? I got shoes worth much more, and you were the fool to even pay.
I got royalty checks, stocks and bonds,i'm a super starr, and I pay my OWN damn way.
Catch me on tour if you wanna see me, you know how us BIG ballers do...
Or you can buy the book, and read all about US..and see how YOU were played for a fool.
And the best part about it is when they buy the books, money gets put into MY account.
Now that's some funny shit, Karma like a motha, cause didn't you cheat on your spouse?
Now you don't really know me, so there's no need to show me just how childish you seem to be
Pretending to have a baby on the way is so high school, makes me laugh harder at you, imagining you drinking hatoraid like it's sweet tea.
And your boy hooks me up just right, serves me oh-so-well, and drinks up every sip of this Hpnotiq, cause it tastes so RIGHT
Hope your satisfied with this info cause I won't be acknowledging you again, especially in this life time.
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
On Top
Why am I so fly?
I'm the winner of the game.
I'm the apple of my daddy's eyes.
Why are you surprised?
Did you think that you would win?
Please, I am blessed by the most high!
And my heart is priceless, too.
Let the Devil try his best, but he's surely going to lose.
Hater's want to threaten, but I have nothing else to prove.
I'm protected by the law, and not just the one that carries guns.
Each and every day I'm blessed…
So now I know that I can't let the devil bring me stress!
Phone calls, emails; they can't touch me, you hear?
You can hate me all you want to but God is the one that you should fear.
Putting all your energy into acting like a fool!
That's not even attractive, so who would want to be around you?
I'm the winner of the game.
I'm the apple of my daddy's eyes.
Why are you surprised?
Did you think that you would win?
Please, I am blessed by the most high!
And my heart is priceless, too.
Let the Devil try his best, but he's surely going to lose.
Hater's want to threaten, but I have nothing else to prove.
I'm protected by the law, and not just the one that carries guns.
Each and every day I'm blessed…
So now I know that I can't let the devil bring me stress!
Phone calls, emails; they can't touch me, you hear?
You can hate me all you want to but God is the one that you should fear.
Putting all your energy into acting like a fool!
That's not even attractive, so who would want to be around you?
My Thoughts Tonight
I can't count the times
Peace breathed into me new dreams and goals
And I know i'm getting older, but there's still a twinkle in my eyes
Especially when i'm with him on those hot summer nights
And we never fight
Because we know that this is right
Jesus gave so much so that we could make it through the fights
Untouched by evil ways
And have many "better" days
And that's where I am right now
In love with God's pure grace
Married to his truth
Guided by his hand
I found this without man
The guide was already there
Bible verses, scriptures, and the knowledge inside my soul
That's why I always make my goal
Because I don't seek things selfishly
I give what I give and take only what I need
But I work hard for what I have
All this strength in these little hands
And a smile that blesses everyone who's honored with my time
I'm here to please my maker and that is why I shine
And i'm not boasting, bragging, or conceited
I'm just happy-that's what you see.
Happy being me.
Inside this beautiful skin he made me in.
Happy with where he's put me.
Content with love that's true.
And even the hurdles i've been through
have made me more of a woman, so it wasn't in vain.
Do you know what is insane?
Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result.
And that's not what i'm about.
I'm about perfecting what's already in sight.
And I give with all my might.
But it's success that I get in return...
So let the fires burn,
Because I can't be touched by flames.
The lioness inside of me has finally been taimed.
And I'm feeling free again.
Free to do the things that I want to without worry.
And I can take my time, there is no hurry.
And though you probably don't understand,
Trust that God always has a plan.
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
Peace breathed into me new dreams and goals
And I know i'm getting older, but there's still a twinkle in my eyes
Especially when i'm with him on those hot summer nights
And we never fight
Because we know that this is right
Jesus gave so much so that we could make it through the fights
Untouched by evil ways
And have many "better" days
And that's where I am right now
In love with God's pure grace
Married to his truth
Guided by his hand
I found this without man
The guide was already there
Bible verses, scriptures, and the knowledge inside my soul
That's why I always make my goal
Because I don't seek things selfishly
I give what I give and take only what I need
But I work hard for what I have
All this strength in these little hands
And a smile that blesses everyone who's honored with my time
I'm here to please my maker and that is why I shine
And i'm not boasting, bragging, or conceited
I'm just happy-that's what you see.
Happy being me.
Inside this beautiful skin he made me in.
Happy with where he's put me.
Content with love that's true.
And even the hurdles i've been through
have made me more of a woman, so it wasn't in vain.
Do you know what is insane?
Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result.
And that's not what i'm about.
I'm about perfecting what's already in sight.
And I give with all my might.
But it's success that I get in return...
So let the fires burn,
Because I can't be touched by flames.
The lioness inside of me has finally been taimed.
And I'm feeling free again.
Free to do the things that I want to without worry.
And I can take my time, there is no hurry.
And though you probably don't understand,
Trust that God always has a plan.
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
Miss Him
I miss him
Miss seeing his smile
And even though his embrace has been erased
Love for him remains all the while
I don't see him at all anymore
Unless I look at old photos from time to time
I'd never imagined that we'd not be together forever
And it hurts that he's no longer mine
He had to go away
And do what he could not accomplish here
But I know that I will see him again, and he's okay
So there's no need for me to shed tears
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
Miss seeing his smile
And even though his embrace has been erased
Love for him remains all the while
I don't see him at all anymore
Unless I look at old photos from time to time
I'd never imagined that we'd not be together forever
And it hurts that he's no longer mine
He had to go away
And do what he could not accomplish here
But I know that I will see him again, and he's okay
So there's no need for me to shed tears
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
Monkey Do
I must admit, he told me he was an a-hole
Within the first week we hooked up
So it's not like I can get mad
When he acts like a monkey's nut
Lord help me! When I used to say "moneky"
He would throw that race card out
Like my light skin removes my blackness
(until I brought the black girl right on out)
He was funny with his ways
A gentle giant, if you ask me
Not much of a talker
Said there really wasn't any need
So I began to consider his silence as golden
And his words either as feathers or spears
But no matter how much I tried to love him
I couldn't break through any of his fears
I loved my gentle giant
But I told him, too, that when I love, I love hard
One day our worlds just took separate paths
And tore our world apart
I no longer see him as an a-hole
No matter how he acts
I understand him more now
And I'll always have his back.
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
Within the first week we hooked up
So it's not like I can get mad
When he acts like a monkey's nut
Lord help me! When I used to say "moneky"
He would throw that race card out
Like my light skin removes my blackness
(until I brought the black girl right on out)
He was funny with his ways
A gentle giant, if you ask me
Not much of a talker
Said there really wasn't any need
So I began to consider his silence as golden
And his words either as feathers or spears
But no matter how much I tried to love him
I couldn't break through any of his fears
I loved my gentle giant
But I told him, too, that when I love, I love hard
One day our worlds just took separate paths
And tore our world apart
I no longer see him as an a-hole
No matter how he acts
I understand him more now
And I'll always have his back.
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
Free to be me
I am so happy to be free
Free to be the woman inside of me
Five foot two, but towering above obstacles far and wide
Lil' mama in stature, but not in the mind
I'm wondrous and loving and soft to the touch
I don't settle for less, but I don't ask for too much
My blackness precedes me, but now my femininity must rule
I love to wear the dress, but I've had to wear the pants and work shoes
I count my blessings; me, him, and ours combined completes our family
Brand new last name, but inside I'm still the "me" that I be.
God, powerful and mighty, done put his kiss on me
Got me floating to the heavens, and I'm blessed and happy!
Long years behind me, no more doubt and no more pain
No longer without knowledge of the future, I can stand the rain.
Appreciated for the child of God I am, no longer have to hide my true soul
And bite my tongue before I speak, and do what I am told
And because God is with us, there's never a need for a harsh word
Husband and Wife should also be best friends; I know that's what we have heard
And so that is how I live: the life I've always imagined has come to be
And the dreams that I've always looked forward to have become my reality.
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
Free to be the woman inside of me
Five foot two, but towering above obstacles far and wide
Lil' mama in stature, but not in the mind
I'm wondrous and loving and soft to the touch
I don't settle for less, but I don't ask for too much
My blackness precedes me, but now my femininity must rule
I love to wear the dress, but I've had to wear the pants and work shoes
I count my blessings; me, him, and ours combined completes our family
Brand new last name, but inside I'm still the "me" that I be.
God, powerful and mighty, done put his kiss on me
Got me floating to the heavens, and I'm blessed and happy!
Long years behind me, no more doubt and no more pain
No longer without knowledge of the future, I can stand the rain.
Appreciated for the child of God I am, no longer have to hide my true soul
And bite my tongue before I speak, and do what I am told
And because God is with us, there's never a need for a harsh word
Husband and Wife should also be best friends; I know that's what we have heard
And so that is how I live: the life I've always imagined has come to be
And the dreams that I've always looked forward to have become my reality.
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
Over-Throne
I accept the post as Queen and I take my place on the throne
And whereas we were once in two seperate places, now we are home
I keep up the paceand run, yes...in haste
to take my seat on the softness of your face
and accept kisses and more as we move down to the floor
dancing rhythmically to beats of our hearts, juices do pour
it's funny how carpet burns are not a factor at all
guess it's because we're floating above it all
skin on skin, there's no distance - I suppose we are now one
and as you offer me another seat, I cum on your tongue
This goes on and on until we both are too weak
Can't move another muscle-Damn near can't speak
So no speeches today i'm too tired to do anything more
'cause the Queen needs to rest her mind-and get the hell off this floor!
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
And whereas we were once in two seperate places, now we are home
I keep up the paceand run, yes...in haste
to take my seat on the softness of your face
and accept kisses and more as we move down to the floor
dancing rhythmically to beats of our hearts, juices do pour
it's funny how carpet burns are not a factor at all
guess it's because we're floating above it all
skin on skin, there's no distance - I suppose we are now one
and as you offer me another seat, I cum on your tongue
This goes on and on until we both are too weak
Can't move another muscle-Damn near can't speak
So no speeches today i'm too tired to do anything more
'cause the Queen needs to rest her mind-and get the hell off this floor!
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
Party Girl
U gets high off the marijuana
And when yo woman try to get some, u don't want her
Cause your senses are too intense and u don't wanna lose
The way the weed make u feel, so u gotta choose
U offered her to smoke with u but she act like she too good
Chick done came up, forgot she from the hood
But when u go get it from somebody else
She got issues and she wanna step
All of this cause you wanna get high
If it were me, I'd tell her ass goodbye
Baby Boy, fuck it imma smoke with you
Cause I can think of some freaky shit that we can do
Seems like it's better when u do yo thang
With somebody else who swings yo way
Birds of a feather flock together
And we can fly so high and make it last forever
I'm a party girl, only twenty two
So imma do the things yo old lady don't wanna do
Baby come with me, let me free yo mind
We gon' do it big all through the night
I see u smilin' over there, I got you feelin' right
I know u want my body cause my shit is tight
Get out the scented oil- slide in and have some fun
My waterfall's pouring, come and get u some
Now I got the munchies, let's get a bite to eat
Then we'll smoke some more, and turn up the body heat
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
And when yo woman try to get some, u don't want her
Cause your senses are too intense and u don't wanna lose
The way the weed make u feel, so u gotta choose
U offered her to smoke with u but she act like she too good
Chick done came up, forgot she from the hood
But when u go get it from somebody else
She got issues and she wanna step
All of this cause you wanna get high
If it were me, I'd tell her ass goodbye
Baby Boy, fuck it imma smoke with you
Cause I can think of some freaky shit that we can do
Seems like it's better when u do yo thang
With somebody else who swings yo way
Birds of a feather flock together
And we can fly so high and make it last forever
I'm a party girl, only twenty two
So imma do the things yo old lady don't wanna do
Baby come with me, let me free yo mind
We gon' do it big all through the night
I see u smilin' over there, I got you feelin' right
I know u want my body cause my shit is tight
Get out the scented oil- slide in and have some fun
My waterfall's pouring, come and get u some
Now I got the munchies, let's get a bite to eat
Then we'll smoke some more, and turn up the body heat
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
Love Date
Come and take a ride
Hurry, cum inside
I just wanna chill with u
U know it's getting late
And though I love this date
U know what I wanna get to
This is like a dream
So romantic and it seems
That you know what you are doing, boy!
Strip off all your clothes
And lock all of the doors
Imma give you something you'll enjoy!
Ooooohhhhhh, I like the way you feel
U make me want to scream
I'm falling in love with you
No matter how soon that it may seem
I never want to leave
The safety of your arms
I give my heart to you
Promise you'll do me no harm
Once upon a time
We were friends, but you weren't mine
So I had to sit and wait patiently
I told you I was the best
And I'd succeed at any test
I told you to just wait and see
And then the big day came
You threw the past away
And asked if I would be your queen
And I did say YES
After that we passed all the tests
And reality was born from what was once just a dream
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
Hurry, cum inside
I just wanna chill with u
U know it's getting late
And though I love this date
U know what I wanna get to
This is like a dream
So romantic and it seems
That you know what you are doing, boy!
Strip off all your clothes
And lock all of the doors
Imma give you something you'll enjoy!
Ooooohhhhhh, I like the way you feel
U make me want to scream
I'm falling in love with you
No matter how soon that it may seem
I never want to leave
The safety of your arms
I give my heart to you
Promise you'll do me no harm
Once upon a time
We were friends, but you weren't mine
So I had to sit and wait patiently
I told you I was the best
And I'd succeed at any test
I told you to just wait and see
And then the big day came
You threw the past away
And asked if I would be your queen
And I did say YES
After that we passed all the tests
And reality was born from what was once just a dream
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
Hey Babe
Hey babe,
Is she everything you wanted in a woman, is she what you need, is there more to the plan?
See, I've been where you are, and never want to go there again.
I guess I grew up, and learned how to live-right not wrong-and I'm not waiting for you. I hope you're okay, and know the things that you have to do.
You're all on your own. Seems when I think about it, I should have left so long ago.
There were signs all around me, to indicate that you were doing me wrong.
I had no doubts about you because you told me I could trust you. It's a shame that you did the things you did to me…a shame that you told lies.
Now I found love in the arms of a new man. I know that you just want to hide.
He treats me the way I've always wanted to be treated. This love is oh so strong.
He doesn't leave me hanging like you used to do. He doesn't sing the same old song. He doesn't mind us going out, doesn't try to make me hide.
He always puts a smile on my face, and it breaks his heart when he see's me cry.
He never says "no", no matter what I ask of him. I don't have to beg for anything.
And the sound of his voice makes me want to melt when he says romantic things.
He looks me in the eye when he talks to me, says my face brightens up his world.
And he says no matter what he will never cheat, and I'll forever be his one and only girl.
Hey babe,
Are you lonely since she went away?
Did you beg and plead to get her not to go? Did you ask get her to stay?
Did she laugh at you and say the only way you could be with her is inside of your dreams?
Baby, that's messed up. But you were the one who planted that seed.
See I used to take care of you, didn't use you the way she did.
And I never would have cheated on you, but you chose to be with the one who did.
I know she talked a good game.
She told you all the good things.
But I was there for you.
I didn't lie to you.
She sold you big ol' dreams.
But what I gave to you was reality.
Hey babe,
Seems what goes around comes back around, wouldn't you agree?
You tried to treat me wrong, but in the end you were the one suffering.
Guess it's too late now, I've moved on and am happier than I've ever been.
So if you want to stay in my life, then all we can ever be is friends.
I hope that one day you will find happiness, I really do.
Just remember what we went through, so the next chance at love you will not lose.
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
Is she everything you wanted in a woman, is she what you need, is there more to the plan?
See, I've been where you are, and never want to go there again.
I guess I grew up, and learned how to live-right not wrong-and I'm not waiting for you. I hope you're okay, and know the things that you have to do.
You're all on your own. Seems when I think about it, I should have left so long ago.
There were signs all around me, to indicate that you were doing me wrong.
I had no doubts about you because you told me I could trust you. It's a shame that you did the things you did to me…a shame that you told lies.
Now I found love in the arms of a new man. I know that you just want to hide.
He treats me the way I've always wanted to be treated. This love is oh so strong.
He doesn't leave me hanging like you used to do. He doesn't sing the same old song. He doesn't mind us going out, doesn't try to make me hide.
He always puts a smile on my face, and it breaks his heart when he see's me cry.
He never says "no", no matter what I ask of him. I don't have to beg for anything.
And the sound of his voice makes me want to melt when he says romantic things.
He looks me in the eye when he talks to me, says my face brightens up his world.
And he says no matter what he will never cheat, and I'll forever be his one and only girl.
Hey babe,
Are you lonely since she went away?
Did you beg and plead to get her not to go? Did you ask get her to stay?
Did she laugh at you and say the only way you could be with her is inside of your dreams?
Baby, that's messed up. But you were the one who planted that seed.
See I used to take care of you, didn't use you the way she did.
And I never would have cheated on you, but you chose to be with the one who did.
I know she talked a good game.
She told you all the good things.
But I was there for you.
I didn't lie to you.
She sold you big ol' dreams.
But what I gave to you was reality.
Hey babe,
Seems what goes around comes back around, wouldn't you agree?
You tried to treat me wrong, but in the end you were the one suffering.
Guess it's too late now, I've moved on and am happier than I've ever been.
So if you want to stay in my life, then all we can ever be is friends.
I hope that one day you will find happiness, I really do.
Just remember what we went through, so the next chance at love you will not lose.
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
Bliss
I don't really want to hide
The truth is so much better
Lies always find their way to the surface
And it will make us tear apart each other
No need to peal away the layers
I stand naked before you now
I don't need to lay under the covers
I will find warmth amist your touch
Your tongue tastes good inside my mouth
I'm filled with nothing except you
I love the way you make me feel
I'm home whenever I'm with you
Take me to the world you're from
Help me learn your native tongue
Your sweat drips on me like a shower
I'm bathed in the waters of your love
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
The truth is so much better
Lies always find their way to the surface
And it will make us tear apart each other
No need to peal away the layers
I stand naked before you now
I don't need to lay under the covers
I will find warmth amist your touch
Your tongue tastes good inside my mouth
I'm filled with nothing except you
I love the way you make me feel
I'm home whenever I'm with you
Take me to the world you're from
Help me learn your native tongue
Your sweat drips on me like a shower
I'm bathed in the waters of your love
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
Slow Down
In the midst of my youth
I'd fallen for untruths
And the glamour of being seen on the outside,
Which led to me being unclean on the inside.
As if momma raised me to be out there and loose;
But didn't she, for she held the permissions for lock and for key?
Her fault, then, that I gave it up to him
And again she's the cause of me earning that nickname
And I suppose dad could be guilty, too, for pushing me into another man's arms
The same man who then sent me to another..and another did the same
Wow, and of all this I made it out somehow
Had to regroup my thoughts and retain my youth
With my nose up high, I dismissed my past
Because bullshit walks and money talks, and bullshit don't last
And here and now if I hear "hey Red, what it do?!"
I'm gonna keep on walking like I didn't hear you
And that's because that old girl is long gone
And she left behind those childish songs
Now I'm looking at our youth of today
Walking around with hickey's on their necks and guilt on their face
And I want to grab them and hold them
And sing them my song
Say, little girl don't wander off too far
And little boy, come on back home
Keep the stride of a child and a kid
It'll soon be over when you hit that adulthood bid
See..grown folks get caught in bills, payments, and taxes
And we're always too busy, never time for relaxing
Some of us have to play catch up
Cause when we were young, we weren't on task
And how the hell you gonna live today on forty thousand a year or less
And I'm just saying, once you have kids it's your responsibility to provide
And regardless if you weren't the only one that laid down, it was your choice so you can't hide it
And damn, you see "free" people out there, and you reminisce about back in the day
When you could just be tired and decide to sleep all damn day
But now you're on the grind, and it feels like you are digging your own grave
Remember, though, back then when you were ever so brave
Can you recall the first time you sipped your first beer
Or snuck kids in the house when your folks could not hear
And when you rolled your eyes at the teacher and told you she's not the boss of you
Remember those times when you screwed up in your youth
See, I remember those times and I remember them well
That's why I'm not so angry about it when I have to struggle to make bail
It's karma, so I take it, and pray for better days
And I know they will come, long as I still pray.
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
I'd fallen for untruths
And the glamour of being seen on the outside,
Which led to me being unclean on the inside.
As if momma raised me to be out there and loose;
But didn't she, for she held the permissions for lock and for key?
Her fault, then, that I gave it up to him
And again she's the cause of me earning that nickname
And I suppose dad could be guilty, too, for pushing me into another man's arms
The same man who then sent me to another..and another did the same
Wow, and of all this I made it out somehow
Had to regroup my thoughts and retain my youth
With my nose up high, I dismissed my past
Because bullshit walks and money talks, and bullshit don't last
And here and now if I hear "hey Red, what it do?!"
I'm gonna keep on walking like I didn't hear you
And that's because that old girl is long gone
And she left behind those childish songs
Now I'm looking at our youth of today
Walking around with hickey's on their necks and guilt on their face
And I want to grab them and hold them
And sing them my song
Say, little girl don't wander off too far
And little boy, come on back home
Keep the stride of a child and a kid
It'll soon be over when you hit that adulthood bid
See..grown folks get caught in bills, payments, and taxes
And we're always too busy, never time for relaxing
Some of us have to play catch up
Cause when we were young, we weren't on task
And how the hell you gonna live today on forty thousand a year or less
And I'm just saying, once you have kids it's your responsibility to provide
And regardless if you weren't the only one that laid down, it was your choice so you can't hide it
And damn, you see "free" people out there, and you reminisce about back in the day
When you could just be tired and decide to sleep all damn day
But now you're on the grind, and it feels like you are digging your own grave
Remember, though, back then when you were ever so brave
Can you recall the first time you sipped your first beer
Or snuck kids in the house when your folks could not hear
And when you rolled your eyes at the teacher and told you she's not the boss of you
Remember those times when you screwed up in your youth
See, I remember those times and I remember them well
That's why I'm not so angry about it when I have to struggle to make bail
It's karma, so I take it, and pray for better days
And I know they will come, long as I still pray.
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
Holla
Subliminal thoughts cross the room towards me, but I do not answer your calls of misguided intentions and reservations of what you think you feel.
For real.
See, I'm not a little school girl impressed with your age or popularity because as I see things from here,
I'm the one who gets the cheers.
See,
once upon a time, baby boo, I was so definitely all into you
but ever since we were though I
see nothing at all in you.
Nevereverland must have a place for you, and damn, what is it that you are trying to do?
I'm oh so satisfied and have made it clear
that your presense is not at all welcome
here.
Wow,
you just don't get it. Must I entertain
the energy that it would take to get this into your brain
that once it's over it's done. Can't you see
that you seem so damn weak to me.
It's not a good luck boy. Go bother someone else.
Or just stay single for a while
so you can find yourself.
Must have been a blow to the ego that I moved on so fast,
but we all know that good women don't stay alone as time passes.
I-----got up got some business about I, myself, and me…
and then the rest is just plain old history,
and you can read about us on the latest blogs
about how this dreamy romance came in out of the fog.
Sniff sniff, must I hand you a tissue for your eyes?
You still ain't got nothing, I know this came as no surprise.
Did you honestly think that I'd keep putting up with you
and remain in the shawdows because I couldn't be seen with you?
Wow, you really underestimated my worth from the start,
and that's the main reason why you are no longer in my heart.
So imma leave now, because me and my man have plans
and no
there will never
ever
be another chance.
For real.
See, I'm not a little school girl impressed with your age or popularity because as I see things from here,
I'm the one who gets the cheers.
See,
once upon a time, baby boo, I was so definitely all into you
but ever since we were though I
see nothing at all in you.
Nevereverland must have a place for you, and damn, what is it that you are trying to do?
I'm oh so satisfied and have made it clear
that your presense is not at all welcome
here.
Wow,
you just don't get it. Must I entertain
the energy that it would take to get this into your brain
that once it's over it's done. Can't you see
that you seem so damn weak to me.
It's not a good luck boy. Go bother someone else.
Or just stay single for a while
so you can find yourself.
Must have been a blow to the ego that I moved on so fast,
but we all know that good women don't stay alone as time passes.
I-----got up got some business about I, myself, and me…
and then the rest is just plain old history,
and you can read about us on the latest blogs
about how this dreamy romance came in out of the fog.
Sniff sniff, must I hand you a tissue for your eyes?
You still ain't got nothing, I know this came as no surprise.
Did you honestly think that I'd keep putting up with you
and remain in the shawdows because I couldn't be seen with you?
Wow, you really underestimated my worth from the start,
and that's the main reason why you are no longer in my heart.
So imma leave now, because me and my man have plans
and no
there will never
ever
be another chance.
Grandma
When I'm all alone I listen for her voice
Saying, "You don't have to go that route" and "You always have a choice"
And I know that even though she's no longer here with me
I'll always have the thoughts, the words, and the memories
She took me in when all was lost
And tried to give my life sunshine
Even though times were hard
She gave me peace of mind
Back then I didn't understand just how much a big hug meant
But now I know, and I thank her..from God to me she was sent
She was my grandma
Beautiful can't even describe her
Hair jet black and straight, skin so smooth and light
And, boy, could she set you straight
If you dared to do me wrong
That's why I loved her...she was my very first love song
I miss her now
I wish she were here with me
To see me smile
She'd be so happy
To see my life
And what it turned out to be
Me as a mother
And a wife
That's what she wanted for me
To see my dreams come true
And for my children to be happy and kind
That's why I do what I do
I show my family love
That's the way I keep her spirit alive
I feel her in heaven above
In a place with the most high
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
Saying, "You don't have to go that route" and "You always have a choice"
And I know that even though she's no longer here with me
I'll always have the thoughts, the words, and the memories
She took me in when all was lost
And tried to give my life sunshine
Even though times were hard
She gave me peace of mind
Back then I didn't understand just how much a big hug meant
But now I know, and I thank her..from God to me she was sent
She was my grandma
Beautiful can't even describe her
Hair jet black and straight, skin so smooth and light
And, boy, could she set you straight
If you dared to do me wrong
That's why I loved her...she was my very first love song
I miss her now
I wish she were here with me
To see me smile
She'd be so happy
To see my life
And what it turned out to be
Me as a mother
And a wife
That's what she wanted for me
To see my dreams come true
And for my children to be happy and kind
That's why I do what I do
I show my family love
That's the way I keep her spirit alive
I feel her in heaven above
In a place with the most high
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
Wow
I just made love in the sweetest place of heaven
I think I'm floating on cloud seven
I didn't know that sweat could taste so sweet
And that I could shiver in the heat
I wish that nights like this would never end
Can't wait for the next night like this to begin
And though I'm dreaming it feels like I'm awake
This is farthest from my old heartbreaks
If I could touch this I wonder how it would feel
Would it feel soft like feathers or hard like steal
I'm floating so high that I can't see the ground
And it's so quiet I can't hear the loudest sounds
All I hear is heartbeats-is that you or me
I'm so dizzy I can barely see
This is crazy-why do you make me feel this way
Promise me that you will always stay
I'm never going to leave this fuggin' bed
I know you're talkin' but I can't hear a word you've said
It's funny how when I try to maintain my composure
You make me lose it, make the wild side in me show exposure
I'm awake now, I guess I was never asleep
It was just so good that I thought I was in a dream
Okay, I guess I'll say goodnite for now
Gonna try to get some sleep somehow
Hold me tight until I drift off to my dreams
No matter how long it seems to take me
And I'll make you eggs and bisquets in the morn'
So you can regain your strength and be strong
Goodnite
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
I think I'm floating on cloud seven
I didn't know that sweat could taste so sweet
And that I could shiver in the heat
I wish that nights like this would never end
Can't wait for the next night like this to begin
And though I'm dreaming it feels like I'm awake
This is farthest from my old heartbreaks
If I could touch this I wonder how it would feel
Would it feel soft like feathers or hard like steal
I'm floating so high that I can't see the ground
And it's so quiet I can't hear the loudest sounds
All I hear is heartbeats-is that you or me
I'm so dizzy I can barely see
This is crazy-why do you make me feel this way
Promise me that you will always stay
I'm never going to leave this fuggin' bed
I know you're talkin' but I can't hear a word you've said
It's funny how when I try to maintain my composure
You make me lose it, make the wild side in me show exposure
I'm awake now, I guess I was never asleep
It was just so good that I thought I was in a dream
Okay, I guess I'll say goodnite for now
Gonna try to get some sleep somehow
Hold me tight until I drift off to my dreams
No matter how long it seems to take me
And I'll make you eggs and bisquets in the morn'
So you can regain your strength and be strong
Goodnite
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
Morning
Waking to the pulse of your vain within me
I move to the rhythem it brings
I imagine it is my ride to freedom rings
And then I exhale
As tulip bulbs begin to bloom
My breasts rise up and down like the peaks of mountain tops in June
We are one, me and you
And then I exhale
Rolling over and looking into your soul, I'm intact
I understand love now and will never go back
And I thank God as I wrap my arms around your neck
And then I exhale
Legs wrapped around your back as you do what you do
I wonder when the exact moment came that I knew
Just how very much I am in love with you
And then I exhale
Nothing sweeter could ever be
The way that you chose to love only me
You are the last piece I needed to complete my family
And then I exhale
On all fours I grab pillows so tight
That I'm sure the feathers will excape in this fight
But I don't care because this is right
And then I exhale
Fingers scratching the wall as I moan your name
And you say mine, too, and I'm going insane
You pull back to taste me as you work my brain
And then I exhale
I'm so lucky to have you take care of me
This is like tasting honey, so damn sweet
As I float up high to ecstasy
And then I explode
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
I move to the rhythem it brings
I imagine it is my ride to freedom rings
And then I exhale
As tulip bulbs begin to bloom
My breasts rise up and down like the peaks of mountain tops in June
We are one, me and you
And then I exhale
Rolling over and looking into your soul, I'm intact
I understand love now and will never go back
And I thank God as I wrap my arms around your neck
And then I exhale
Legs wrapped around your back as you do what you do
I wonder when the exact moment came that I knew
Just how very much I am in love with you
And then I exhale
Nothing sweeter could ever be
The way that you chose to love only me
You are the last piece I needed to complete my family
And then I exhale
On all fours I grab pillows so tight
That I'm sure the feathers will excape in this fight
But I don't care because this is right
And then I exhale
Fingers scratching the wall as I moan your name
And you say mine, too, and I'm going insane
You pull back to taste me as you work my brain
And then I exhale
I'm so lucky to have you take care of me
This is like tasting honey, so damn sweet
As I float up high to ecstasy
And then I explode
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
He Sees Me
He sees me
I know he does and if I look harder I can see him, too
I knows me
Sometimes better than i know myself, and that's so very hard to do
He holds my hand, I squeeze a little so he knows that I feel him
I love him so and never knew that love could feels so free
He's the best thing that ever happened to me
They call this love
They call this love
They call it love but I know it's so much more
They think they know
They think they know
They think it's the same as what they have, but they are so wrong
This is the purest form of happiness
He says we'll be this way forever and I believe in him
He tries so hard, never wants me to struggle again
Embraces my trueness and I love him so much for that
He smiles at me
I wink at him
That's our way of confirming what we have
It's been too long since I've seen him
And that was only five seconds ago
He watches me from the corner of his eye
As if he is painting a portrait of me in his mind
I take a pic of him from my camera phone
And stare at it all day when he's not near me
Love is
Feeling this way
And Love is
Staying this way
And Love is
All that we've said and more........
and this is forever more.
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
I know he does and if I look harder I can see him, too
I knows me
Sometimes better than i know myself, and that's so very hard to do
He holds my hand, I squeeze a little so he knows that I feel him
I love him so and never knew that love could feels so free
He's the best thing that ever happened to me
They call this love
They call this love
They call it love but I know it's so much more
They think they know
They think they know
They think it's the same as what they have, but they are so wrong
This is the purest form of happiness
He says we'll be this way forever and I believe in him
He tries so hard, never wants me to struggle again
Embraces my trueness and I love him so much for that
He smiles at me
I wink at him
That's our way of confirming what we have
It's been too long since I've seen him
And that was only five seconds ago
He watches me from the corner of his eye
As if he is painting a portrait of me in his mind
I take a pic of him from my camera phone
And stare at it all day when he's not near me
Love is
Feeling this way
And Love is
Staying this way
And Love is
All that we've said and more........
and this is forever more.
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Piano Man
Piano Man
Sing me a tune
Make it slow and heart felt
So that when I close my eyes I can see notes
float
up
towards
the
sky
Lift me up with your song
Brighten my day with your smile
That same smile, old friend, that I've not seen in a while
Whether it be something like the blues
Or even a tad bit jazz
Something to make my toes wiggle
Or that will make me shake my
ass
And if you're feeling rather gracious
Give me good old R&B
I want to snap my fingers to something
Yeah, I know you're feeling me
Piano Man, where's the music
I've got my ears so open and wide
There's something I've been missing
Since I crossed over to the other side
I cannot put my finger on it
Seems like there used to be a new song every day
I suppose I must have been to busy
To sing the songs of yesterday
But now I've got a duet playing in my heart
So I need music for our team
And you know that if you write the music
Then we'll write the song to sing
And I'm just hoping that all's not lost
And that you'll play for me again
It's not too often that I come out to be seen
But I will for an old friend
Sing me a tune
Make it slow and heart felt
So that when I close my eyes I can see notes
float
up
towards
the
sky
Lift me up with your song
Brighten my day with your smile
That same smile, old friend, that I've not seen in a while
Whether it be something like the blues
Or even a tad bit jazz
Something to make my toes wiggle
Or that will make me shake my
ass
And if you're feeling rather gracious
Give me good old R&B
I want to snap my fingers to something
Yeah, I know you're feeling me
Piano Man, where's the music
I've got my ears so open and wide
There's something I've been missing
Since I crossed over to the other side
I cannot put my finger on it
Seems like there used to be a new song every day
I suppose I must have been to busy
To sing the songs of yesterday
But now I've got a duet playing in my heart
So I need music for our team
And you know that if you write the music
Then we'll write the song to sing
And I'm just hoping that all's not lost
And that you'll play for me again
It's not too often that I come out to be seen
But I will for an old friend
Copyright ©2007 Attica Lundy
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