Kisses underneath a waterfall are but a dream

Why look upon the past
where there lives no salvation
What fool searches to quench his thirst from a hollowed glass
Surely that will not bring on satisfaction

He says kisses under a waterfall are but a dream
But I've felt those kisses once upon a time; but had to frown
For if I'd not let go to take a deep breath
I would have surely drowned

Sometimes I think upon that rain
Of water coming down from passionate streams
And smiles that spread as wide as the widest seas
Until the drought interrupted the routine

Like desert sands are hot as coals
The drought was dry and so extreme
And thoughts turned to hallucinations from the heated wrath
Where there once were waterfalls, there now was colorless schemes

What is honesty without truth and fact
What is love without the same thing
They are simply kisses underneath a waterfall
In a heartbroken lover's dream


Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

My wings

Thought I heard a birdie say it was time
Time to spread my wings and fly away
I've been settled in the comfort of my mind
But now I must find the energy to speed up the pace
I do not know where my wings will carry me
Or which way the winds will blow
All I know is that when I leave I will be free
And where I'll arrive to, only God knows
But I am happy because I have found my peace of mind
I have learned a great lesson, even at this ladder age
That real love is hard to find
Sometimes it takes a wrong love to make you see it that way
Sometimes you travel in search of something
Only to find that you really had it all along
and hopefully you embrace what you have with a ring
And are saved from escaping into something that was wrong
Alas, I am much more free this time around
I smile and I spread my wings wide
And the renewed love of self has been found
No longer will lies be the shield in which I hide.
Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

Released

Had to let him know
That two wrongs could never make a right
Had to let him go
Because I can no longer feel the love inside
I felt so hurt and betrayed
But realized I'd done the same thing
So I released him into the night;
And wished him A Quiet Time
Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

Freedom Rings

Freedom rings, but it comes with a price
The sound it releases ain't always so nice
Sell your soul to come up out from the gutter
Turn your back on what's right so things can feel better
What happened to times when hard work wasn't a waste
When food was so good that you dreampt of the taste
When gas wasn't so high that you could take the scenic route
When parents closed doors so the kids wouldn't hear them shout
When the neighbors were family to each other
When blood was bond and we cared for our brother
What happened to "I do"'s were forever
When death til us part didn't mean we may kill each other
When we were proud to sign up for the cause
When we didn't have to suffer through all the loss
Things were not great, but they weren't this bad
Seldom do we see smiles anymore-now this is sad
When respect was earned and not just expected
When we romanced instead of letting love go neglected
Freedom rings and I sing it's glorious tune
Because I demand it, now what about you?
Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

The truth

We are told that in the beginning there was Adam and Eve
Then time passed, and the world was gone; only to be reborn again
We started over, still failing test after test until God started it all over again
Pairing us up, two-by-two...but that only lasted for a while

And here, I smile
Knowing that change is inevitable and that God trusts us to find our own way
I struggle to do the things I feel are right, and to make it day by day
And deep down I know secrets that aren't really secrets at all
Because our conscious exists, and that's God's blue print on our soul.

They say he sent his son here to forgive us of our sins...
I'm thankful for that
because no matter how much I try to imitate perfection
I'm always going to slack
And that is fine; because as long as I try to make ammends for things I've done wrong
Then there is still hope for me to be born again
And to embrace his only son

But who am I?
Am I his daughter?
Am I just as important as he?
And if so, then isn't it my duty to find injustice and set it free?

Such a large burden;
I'm still just a child in the midst of the galazy skies
So many stars and planets and journies
And so again, I ask "Who am I"?

It's hard for me to embrace the thought that there is but one soul intended to touch mine
And it's impossible for me to understand why there are no clear boundries on my path
I screamed to the heavens once, "What is this all about?!"
But no answers came readily to me
And then when the silence fell upon the dark night winds
The answer came to me

It said that freedom exists when you can give your all
And not expect anything back in return
And when you can put a smile on a saddened face
Or help to break a fall
And it said that when mothers hold their young close to them
And heal them from their pain
Then there is good in the world and good in mankind and there is hope that still remains
And that faith is the belief that all is not lost
And that the sun will shine again
And the rain will fall upon scorched dried out lands
To help the harvests grow again
And when you can spare some bread or meat or drink to calm a hungry man
And when you can give it your all and something good comes from it, then it's proof of God's gentle hand

So many answers came that one moment, and I still shutter when I think of it all
The lovliest voice I've ever heard; almost the sound of a white dove's call
Words like bible and love and growth and hugs and kisses and couples came about
Feelings like joy and bliss and elation filled my body
Moments of being afraid escaped me momentarily and a strong surge of braveness erupted
That moment when God told me his entire plan is the moment when I learned to love it

See...in truth we can be good or we can be bad
The choice always remains in our hands
And even when we fall short of glory
He'll always extend his hand

I tell you this because you need the proof
Of what you already know
That hope is not lost and you do have power to make it through
Even when things don't look like they are going to go
You way....but they will if they are meant to be
And if not, then you're better off without it
But my point is to look way deep inside
And the truth will always arise.

Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

Heaven's Door

Looking into your eyes
I search for the truth
But decide to end the search
Because what really matters is only you

I don't care what happened
The hurt has been cast aside
I only know that the love we have
Must never again hide

To the world, it can remain hidden
But we both know the truth
And whether we surface or remain underground
The love we have is true

So know that I forgive you
Because that's what love is about
And you'll never have to test my heart
And you'll never have to do without

Things have changed from then to now
And we are more than ever before
And though our lives are on different planes
I'll always come visit you through heaven's door


Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

Do you consider

If I told you everything or nothing at all would it matter?
Would you notice if I lay awake or sleep at night?
If you had the power to make a change would you make the effort
To make the wrongs with us turn into right?

If I passed away this very moment would you miss me?
Does our silence comfort you in a selfish way?
If I cried from hurt would you let my tears continue
Or would you have the heart to wipe them away?

If I was falling and reached out to you would you try to catch me?
Or would you let me fall without even trying to save me?
When I say things to you that are important to me, do you consider
That I'm saying them to you because you're the biggest part of me.

Sometimes I think that I am just a factor,
A small fraction of something that exists in your world, but is overlooked.
And when you see the sorrow in my eyes does it make you want to try harder
Or is it not important enough for you to even look?

My love is so large, it overflows...
But is it wasted as surplus that has no value at all?
If you could turn back the hands of time to the moment you said you loved me
Would you change that moment so that I wouldn't fall?

Fall as in falling in love with you;
Do you regret that you chose this path with me...
And if you don't regret it, why won't you make it better
Instead of making me feel that I'm an object of stupidity?

Two wrongs can never make it right
And love is a job that has to be worked with pride
And the level of perfecting a craft of the heart that is supposed to last forever
Cannot be swepted and continuously brushed aside.

When you laugh and joke with your buddies, can you see the difference?
Can you see that you don't laugh and joke with me?
It would seem that two people who are committed to each other
Would have stolen moments that make the two feel complete.

I will not try to confront tonight's heartache
I've been here too many times before this night
No matter what I say, you won't feel compassion
Or even want to heal my heart that you kicked aside.

So a new day will come at the break of tomorrow morning
And we'll start the new day as we have each and every day
And I'll pray that you won't disappoint me again and make me lose my luster
Because I'm really trying to make my heart's love stay.

Sometimes it feels like a losing battle...
God, I'm tired of fighting the same old tirdful fight
So I'll pray that God will open your eyes to what you need to do
And that he'll forgive you for overlooking the gift created for you last July.

Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

Raw

This feels raw
Unable to assertain the definitions of my feelings
Not able to understand the rhyme nor reason
Incapable of grasping any corner of hope
Too willing to have a glimmer of coping skills
To make it through this pained moment
And as the skies open up through the clouds
I still feel foggy
For it was love that was the biggest lie
That pushed my heart over to the side
And walked out through the door
Into the great known; for it was the door which led OUTSIDE our home
And into a dangerous place
And the saddest part is that you did not notice
The look of heartache on my face
Did not see the watery seas which were my eyes
Nor did you hear my hidden cries
Could you not FEEL that I needed you
To hold me up, instead of knocking me down
Towards the floor, even underneigth where the crawlers lurk
It was the distance which handed out that final blow
To make me realize that we were no more
What I always thought us to be:
Two hearts that would beat as one;
But you only maintain the beat of one drum
Not of partnership, so I was the fool
Who thought you were my protector, not my deliverer of doom
Not the one who would hurt me with non-trust
And shush me into silence, not wanting to hear
That I needed you; I guess I didn't make that clear
Or did I?
I think I did...but you don't care, only what matters is what you said
And what you say
And what you think
And what you want
As if my needs are minute fragments
Of a fool's play things
Won't taste me because I'm sour to you
Won't embrace me because it's not the needs of you
Won't protect me because you simply do not care
But I want to thank-you, my darling dear
For the one and only gift you gave to me
The knowledge of what it feels like to not matter at all
Yes,
This feels raw
Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

Stolen Love

We made music together
Acoustic soundwaves filled the sky
Harmonic symphonies with melodic moments
All of this, his very first time

I'm compelled to say it was unselfish
To make his world feel right
To touch his heart more than anyone else
Even if it were for the last time

When he held me, I slept peacefully
He wondered where I'd been all his life
I knew that somehow it wouldn't last forever
Couldn't put my finger on it, but it felt too right

Was I his fallen angel
Seemed like I knew the hourglass was spilling fast
At twenty four, he was still innocent
But longed for passion, even if it were not to last

I enjoyed making him so very happy
Dying young is never easy to do
And though we both had our own ailments
I felt compelled to see his through

The last night he asked impossible questions
Wanted to know if my love was true
And he told me I'd see him in my dreams
A promise he made so true

The seductive kiss in the shower
My hair still wet from the fall of rain
To think of him brings happiness to my heart
I'm not ready to feel the pain

I cannot wrap my head around this
A stranger I've known all along
Breathing without his life present
Just somehow seems so wrong

I do not know his family
I know only the life he shared with me
In solitude I light candles for his soul
To one day be rejoined with me

Is he looking down from heaven
Can he feel the shatters of my heart
I think he knew it would be over
Long before it was to start

Despite the unanswered questions
I know what we had was real
And to anyone else who doesn't beleive it
Doesn't know how sincere he could feel

I loved him before I knew him
I love him now even more
And I will be waiting my whole life
To see him again when I enter heaven's door

So sleep quietly, darling, don't fret
Your love travels with me each day
And we will be together once again
So meet me there on judgementday

I'll smile at our inside jokes
That will keep a smile on my face
But deep down I'll always miss you more
So sleep quietly until I see you again


Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

Investment in love

The dust has settled
And the dawn has set in
My heart is so heavy
In all we've been in
And yet I still wonder
How things could have been
Had we took the time to take it slower
And not just to have rushed in
I love you today
As I loved you the day before
But is love ever enough
To keep closed the door
The door to the unknown
I've been there before
So I suppose it's the comfort
Of not having to push for another score
But when do we take time
To see the sunrise
Are we unaware of the beauty
Of when the sun shines
And when do we share
In hopes, dreams, and goals
When all we have is routines
Never any time for anything more
See...that's why I shutter
to think of what could be
If I did not have you
And you did not have me
Would we be the same people
Would anyone else love us best
I'm not willing to risk it
Not willing to take that test
See, God had a plan
Whether you believe it or not
He sent us to each other
So that our hearts would not rot
He meant for you to join me
In a journey where pain did not exist
But sometimes you forget that...
Sometimes you hit and miss
And then there are those moments
When we are silent, but it feels like we're old friends
And that's called companionship
With that, we've got to win
Because some people are lonely
They don't have "forever" in anyone's eyes
Don't think you are unlucky
Just know that You've got I
And I've got you, babe
For now and ever more
I pray that you'll understand
And come back to me once more
See...I've never been alone
But always felt solitude
Until I met you
And made a choice to change the mood
So listen quite closely
Because you may miss the point
Eternity has a price
Like an account that is joint
Together we stand
Seperatly we will fall
So let's do this together
This is the last call
I'll stand side by side with you
And never be afraid
It was a wise investment
...the price that we paid

Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

Love is God

Love is more than a four letter word
It is a world that God made with his mind
It is doing the right thing because you know it's right
It is the good that God intended
It is when he made Eve for Adam
It's companionship
It's when he spared a few from the flood
It is sacrifice for the greater good
It is forgiving your enemies
It is being stronger by being wiser
Love is God

Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

The commitment of love

To love love is being in love
The joy
The smiles
The laughter
The tenderness
The safety
The security
The certainty

To be committed to the commitment is remaining committed
The vows
The promise
The work
The choirs
The name
The ring
The date

If it were as simple as that
Forever would never be in question
But what is committment without love
Is it co-habitating with no common interests?
Is it saying "good morning" and "goodnight"?
Or is it taking in fully what you have encountered
without hesitation
moving forward and putting in effort

Remember when you first met
When you took time to converse
When you took pleasure in pleasing one another
When traveling wasn't an issue
When you not only loved each other but liked each other
When you fought for us, not fought with each other
When it was important?

Do you see how things have changed?
Do you see how time is not taken to remember?
Do you see how hard it is to speak about joyful things?
Do you notice that her eyes are full of pain?
Do you notice that he no longer knows what made him long for you?
Does the thought of forever now seem improbable?
Is every night just like the night before?

It would seem that this is not love
It's not like
It's not enjoyment
It's not right

But it is forever...
So why not start again?
Why not search deep within?
Why not only be partners, but also try to be friends?

Such a shame to lose the love...
You listen to the love songs all the time
but don't really liiiisssstttteeennnn
Do you hear the words
Words like "taste" and "want" and "need"
Remember when you did just that?
Like riding a bike, you can learn again...
try again....
do again....
be again....
before it's too late.


Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

Shattered

Seemingly
Love is so unkind
Like nothing matters
In the path in which we find
Our two heartbeats
beating in union-now it's so faint
And you are comatose
And it's too much for me to take
My heart is shattered
And love pours from it's own veins
And I am broken
Because I may never see you again
Please come back, baby
Our love needs to grow even more
I can't lose you
Please walk back in the door

Tears
Flow from my eyes
They will not stop
I feel like drowning in them some more
I cannot touch you
Can't take away your pain
And I can't find you
I don't have the strength to abstain
From hurting so much
From hurting so deep
I cannot breathe
I cannot sleep
Will you just come back
Don't go into the light
We can make it through this
We can put up the greatest fight

I feel shattered
Today you had your surgery
And now you're in a coma
Are you dreaming of you and me
Is our love
Enough for you to come back
Or will you leave me now
And throw me all off track

Your laughter still remains in my mind
Your keeps my heart beating still inside
I don't want to lose you
I've lost too much before
Please be strong enough for us both
And fight for us some more.

Don't leave me shattered.........

Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

Failed Test

I told you in the beginning
All the secrets to having me
The things that would keep me close
The things that would make me not leave
You said those other guys
Were stupid for not appreciating me
And that you would treat me better
And be all that I need
I love hard, so I gave you my all
I try hard, so I did my best
But you failed on so many levels
And could not past the final test
So I'm gone and you are sad
You know that he said the same things to me
He said that you were a fool for not trying
And you know he's right, that's why you lost me



Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

Until Dessert Comes

The appetizers have not yet arrived
But I have
Over and over again
Almost
Before the waiter even brought out our drinks
I can't stand you
Because you say we can't leave
Not until dessert comes
He comes over with glasses of ice water
I take out a cube and begin to suck on it
And your hand is still there, under my jacket and up under my dress
Fingers stroking my cherry,
but not fast enough
Because he is there taking our order
And you calmly talk to him, asking me questions that I can't even decipher
about what I would like
As if you don't know
I give you the look
Chuckling at the waiter
Because my behavior humors you
You say something clever to the waiter
And you order for me
And continue to torture me all the while
I beg you to stop
whispering to you so no one can hear
But you won't
You whisper back that you won't stop
Until dessert comes
I cover my mouth
Suffocating screams before they escape
And you won't stop
Until dessert comes
But I can't wait for the waiter
I can't wait for our meal
You see,Whip cream escapes and my cherry has burst
And now I'm not in the mood for dinner
But you say we'll stay anyway
And will not leave
Until dessert comes

Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

Puppy Love

I was sick of puppy love
Non-productive love
Un-responsive love
I needed something real
No lustfully filled
Or sexually reeled
I'm thinking you might be that guy
That will treat me right
And love me truly
Could it be that you are the one
That can make me come
Around to you without feeling blue?
What will it take to make you mine?
Boy it has been a real long time
Since anyone has made me feel the way you do
And wasn't about the games
Just being true...
Is that you?
My ex didn't dog me out
Didn't scream and shout
Didn't hurt me bad
But he wasn't about the long term role
He was scared to show
That his heart did know
That I was the one for him
So he tried to squirm
Out of tagging me
I realized that I needed so much more
Deserved to really score
So I returned that fish back to the sea
But are you the one for me?
Did I catch you at the right time
Or are you taking up my time selfishly?
Do you see forever in my eyes?
Or is this knight in shining armor look just a disguise?

I'm looking for the real deal
Not just sex appeal
I'm looking for committed love
Not just puppy love
I'm looking for a friend to talk to
Who I can go on long walks with
Who I can spend my time with
Who I can spend my life with

Are you the one
Who will rescue me from heartbreak
Are you the one
Who is not on the take
Are you the one
Who will give his all to me
Are you the one
Who will marry me
Who will marry me
Who will marry me
Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

Just Be

Sadness comes in the day
And I yearn to hear from you
I don't know where you are
But I know that I'm in love with you
Happiness interrupts the mood
When you call me and we talk for a while
I love that you want to be with me
Just be who you are
when you are here with me
Be Kind
Be True
Be Good
Be Rude
Believe
Be more
Be you
Be sad
Be more
Be great
Be sore
Just be who you are
when you are here with me
It seems that you're holding back
Are you afraid that I won't accept the bad
I look past all the tainted parts
And love you, good and bad
Be free
Be shy
Be bold
Be there
Believe
Be poor
Be rich
Be cautious
Be scared
Be renounced
be low
be high
be known
Just be who you are
when you are here with me

Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

When I let you in

You should have known it
Wouldn't you know it
Tell me you do
Don't play and act like you don't see it
Is pride the sin
Well, repent and give in
to me
Realize that
As my name escapes your lips
your heart skips beats
as blood flows to places
down below
where no one else should go
and where no one else should see
except me
because I am
with whom you want to be
and when I shut you out
your world trembles
but when I let you in
celebrations surround the globe
and when your name escapes my lips
once again your heart skips beats
as blood flows to places
down below
where no one else should see
except me
because I am
with whom you want to be
and when we surrender to
our wants
and when we admit
to our needs
we can't help but to feel free
of the burdens of the world
and the things that make us sad
and the people who make us mad
everything is silent
And when our names escape our lips
our heart skips beats
and blood flows to places
down below
where no one else should go
and where no one else should see
except us
because we are
with whom we want to be
with
for that moment
which will live on
forevermore
in our memory
because it's timeless
(that moment)
if for a second or for hours
years or just days -
a higher power
leads us
and intrigues us
to do
what we must do
in the shadows of
desire
Yes, a higher power
controls us
and urges us to be more
than anyone else could know
and the secret never unfolds
that As our names escape their lips
hearts skip beats
And their blood flows to places
down below
and they hide because they know
that we will travel
to where no one else should go
and where no one else should see
except you and me
because we are
meant to be
for eternity


Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

We used to

We used to free fall
the sky wasn't even the limit
all we needed was to get in it
and it was exciting, great, and free.
We had our moments
mountain tops
parking lots
anywhere, as long as could just be.
We loved hard
harder than anything solid
harder than stones and brick
so hard that it made us sick.
We still dream
dream of how it used to be
dream of how it should have been
dream of how we performed like real life flicks.
We know better
better to have loved than to not have loved at all
better to have had a taste of perfection
better to have known when to say when.
We will always have memories
memories of what we were to each other
memories of who we were to each other
memories that will live on long after our lives come to an end.
Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

How Shall I Die?

Should I lay down quietly and let your words kill my spirit?
Shall I drown in tears you made me cry?
Shall I hold my breath, knowing the truth doesn't exist in your world?
How Shall I Die?

Should I continue to depend on strangers to comfort me?
Should I jump from the window in hopes that I'll fly?
Should I ignore all the signs?
How Shall I Die?

If you wanted to you could cure me
But that would mean you'd have to be true
And of course that would mean sacrifice
Which is something you're too selfish to do.

So instead of waiting for you, I'll disappear from your world
I'll make it easy for you to get on with your life
I'll let you make up the story of what to tell our friends
I'll let you decide how I shall die.

Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

Just Make Me Happy

Just make me happy
Stop and think about what I'd like
Take some time out from being self consumed
And consider what would make me feel alright

You know the things that make me smile
You know how to touch me the right way
When times are hard, I may need a little giggle
After a hard day, I may need to play

When we talk, it's mostly about things that are serious
The bills, the kids, the stress
But how about coming up with stimulating conversation
Or saying "we're going out, so go upstairs and get dressed"

It doesn't take a lot of effort
To bring joy to someone you love
But for whatever reasons that doesn't seem to be a priority
For some reason you forgot about the compassionate parts of love

It's not about the cuddling
Though that is nice enough
It's not about the sex
Of course that's needed, but sometimes I yearn for a different touch

Like sometimes declare you'll cook dinner
Or send me a text saying "I love you"
Leave a love note under my pillow
Ask me "Is there anything that you'd like me to do?"

Just make me feel super special
Make me the Queen of your kingdom all the time
Turn my tear drops to champagne kisses
When my day is cloudy, demand the sun to shine

GO out of your way for me more frequently
You know I do the same for you
If you truly love me, then you'll want to just make me happy
If you truly love me, that's not a hard thing to do.

Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

New Day

I wake up
Still groggy from a summer's dream
In time I come to focus
On whatever the new day brings
And though the dreams were wonderful
I know a new day must begin
With working out, writing, and daily chores
And talking with my friends
And then the kids come home
I handle them with care
I laugh at all their funny jokes
And wonder how we all got here
Here in this place of joy and bliss
A happy home filled with love
I suppose it was God's way of showing
That he's still with us-though up above

Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

The price for breaking my heart

Did I break your heart, just a little
When I left you out to dry
If I did, then I am sorry
But that was the price for making me cry

Was I the one for you, after all?
Did you realize it much too late?
When it mattered you didn't care at all
You chose your own fate.

Once upon a time,
it was only you and I
We Were happy and our love was passionate
And made love under the starry night

Sometimes we got real kinky
Made love in the back seat of my truck
I thought that you saw forever in my eyes
Until I realized I was just a f**k

Why did you have to call her
And foolishly lie to me
Did you think I didn't know who she was
Your phone was out there for me to see

And yes, I called her back one day
Pretending to be from a fashion magazine
She said she wasn't a model,but a teacher
And that's all I needed to see

I knew she was from long ago
And you were rekindling memories from you past
So I decided that I didn't deserve how you were treating me
And I decided we could not last

When I let you go, I felt relieved
And I went out on my own way
And low and behold, he found me
And we're married til this day

That could have been you, but you were greedy
You didn't know what a good thing you had
I was someone that your parents loved
I guess you messed up really bad

I know you regret what happened
And I know you'll learn from your mistake
At least we can still be friends
And I won't rub it in your face

The truth is I do still miss you
I wish you'd been honest to me
We could have achieved greatness
But you were afraid to commit to me

I still smile when I think of our birthdays
We had fun, didn't we
And the time we went to the mountain top
And got high, and you made love to me

I'm mad still, though, because you lied
You may not cheated but you still snuck around
You thought I was so stupid
But look who is looking stupid now

I'm done rubbing it in your face
I just wanted you to know what was the last straw
Saying the call was from your cousin
When it was really from your ex-I hope she was worth it now

I would have done anything for you
If you would have just done the right thing
You should have put in on the bills
And gave me a friggin' ring

Whatever, I'm fine with my life now
I finally have someone to take care of me
But know you can always call me friend
But that's all we will ever be
Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

Saying Goodbye to an Old Friend

I suppose this is more of an observation
How some women keep a tight leash on their men
I guess it could be insecurity
Or a battle of sorts coming from within
But...think about the true reason
Be honest, please don't lie
Because you can't expect him to be true to you
If you can't be true to the "you" inside
For instance, I have a friend that I've known for years
And we "click" on so many levels, in fact
And there is nothing romantic or sexual between us
But his wife can't understand that.
She hates me for no good reason
Bans him talking to me at all
And I've got to wonder why she's so insecure
When there's no reason-no reason at all
I've got to also check him on this
Because if he were a true friend, he'd stand up for us
He would value the years that we've been friends
And would put an end to all that 'fuss'
So is he weak in that sense
Is our friendship's worth less than I thought
Because in my past I've never dropped him as a friend
And even put him right on top
Everyone I've dated has known about him
They've had to respect that he's my very best guy friend
And If they wouldn't accept him
I'd have to put that relationship to an end
But now I'm understanding that I must let him go
Because if he won't fight for me, what's the use?
And though it's hard to say "goodbye, dear friend"
It would be the smartest thing to do
They say a friend is someone who knows all about you
But loves you anyway-
And that is what I thought we had
But obviously he doesn't feel the same way.
I fear nobody except the lord
I stand tall and loyal for my true friends-they know
So if he can't treat me just as I treat him
Then I guess I'll have to let him go.
Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

He didn't try

Saw his profile and it still says single
Is he lost without my touch?
Does he regret the things he didn't do
When I loved him so very much?
I can't care if he is lonely,
I can't care if he's alone,
I let all my caring escape from me
When I said it was over, so now that's an old song.
I can say he was a fool
To do the things that he did
He should have been thinking with his brain
Instead of with that other head.
He wasted too much time doing nothing
He didn't try hard even though he had a chance
He was too much into going through the motions
Instead of renewing our steamy romance.
I'm married now, moved on long ago
I hear from him now and again
But I'm glad that I found my soulmate
And me and my ex could remain friends
Friends is a little off definition
I'd say we're assocates with a past
That way there's no hard feelings
I hope he finds a love for himself at last.
Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy
By Hpnotiq

Party

I'm wet, but you knew that already
Got me yearning for you more than ever before
Got me wanting you to take me right here and now
But damn, yo peeps on the other side of that door.

Damn, My legs feel so week
From those soft kisses you placed on my neck
And, oh, how my breasts sit up at attention
And, damn, is that big buldge i'm feeling your d**k?

When is the party going to be over?
Why you gotta tease me the way that you do?
You know I got a man
And you know my heart is true

What's love got to do with it? you ask
Well, at this point not a damn thing
Want me to touch you where? Awww, baby!
Hold up, let me take off my ring.

Baby, I can't keep quiet much longer
I hear them dancing and partying out there
Do you think that if I scream they'll hear me
Damn, babe, you done messed up my hair

My perm is sweated out so badly
My p***y's soaking through and through
I got hickies all over my body
And you say we still ain't through?

Okay, i'll wait while you say bye to everybody
Okay, i'll stay for a while
Okay, i'll call you Big Daddy
Okay, i'll sit on your smile

Damn, can I stay here forever?
Can you do that to me over and over again?
Can you once again take me to heaven?
Will you be my 'very good friend'?

Ummm, i really got to go now
He'll be home in about an hour
if we rush, i can be home before he get's there
Can we please just get out of this shower?

Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

Sincerest Goodbye

I confess that our love wasn't true
Because if it were, you'd still be my 'Boo'
And although sometimes I still think about you
I'm glad that we are through

You did me wrong so many times
I can't even begin to count your many lies
And now you're acting like we can just pick up as friends
But the only thing I'll take from 'friends' is 'end'

I'm happier now than I've ever been
He fulfills my needs and cares deeply for me
He loves me entirely, not just certain things here and there
So in the end, I guess life is fair

Go on with her, I'm gone my own way
There's really nothing more to say
Except the next time around try not to lie
And also, my sincerest 'good-bye'

Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

No one

As I
walked down
the isle
towards you
The angels
all spied
at the dream
that came true
That day
came so fast
the month
after June
and when
you asked
me, I said
"I do"
And I still do
Because no one
Yes, no one
can hear me
but you
And no one,
Yes, no one
can feel me
except you
And no one
Yes, no one
can touch me
like you do
And no one
Yes, no one
can love me
the way that
you do
And I love you, too.

Day dreams turn to
Night dreams
When we lay
side by side
And honor
has a place
in our hearts
that's where it resides
And only
we know
what it takes
to survive
God sees us
And he smiles
for he knows
our love is truth
defined
Because no one
Yes, no one
can hear me
but you
And no one,
Yes, no one
can feel me
except you
And no one
Yes, no one
can touch me
like you do
And no one
Yes, no one
can love me
the way that
you do
And I love you, too.

Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

Soothin'

Smile, 'Chile
Don't let that sucka make you cry
You are so much better than that
Hush, Chile',dry your eye

Come, Chile', don't you fret none
You got mo' to live fo', gurl
You got yougin's what love you fo' who you are
And enuf' love in you to cover the world

Laugh, Chile', no mo' frownin'
Go on out and buy some new clothes
Make yo'sef feel all new and polished
get yo'nails done and yo' toes

Then go out to the danceflo' and dance to tunes that are soothin'
Have a time there, let down you' hair
I promise dem men will all try to court you
And that sucka won't be in yo' mind nowhere

And trust, Chile', in God-yo' maker
He make the sun rise and set
And one day yo' true love will find you
And yo' needs and wants will fo'eva be met


Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

Live life for today

Tomorrow is not promised so we must live life for today.
No need to be closed off or silent-there's too much to do and so much more to say.
If I had a dime for every time I stayed silent because I feared that the world wouldn't appreciate my stance-
then I'd be richer than Oprah Winfrey, but so saddened because I missed my chance
(to say the things I should have said before it was too late
or to jump at the chance when it was in front of me instead of waiting until it was too late).

Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy

Another four letter "L" word

If a pill existed, I'd take it
Just to get over the pain
Of never again being in your arms
Or feeling your touch again

If a time machine existed, I'd get in it
Just to find my way back to you
To say the things I should have said
And to do the things I was too afraid to do

But our love was so very tainted
It was wrong, but it felt so right
Our days were filled with laughter
And unimaginable passion filled our nights

At some point I realized that the love was not real
It was a fantasy that we both fulfilled
And nothing so sweet could remain
When the depth was no more than mere thrills

Lust is another four letter "L" word
I think we both hypnotized by it
Lies is another four letter "L" word
And at the time it had a better fit

Than to tell the truth and be honest
Enough to admit that the end was near
We ran from it and into each other's arms so many nights
Because our hearts were filled with fear

Sometimes you find the right one
But the time isn't right; you know
Like maybe we were too young or maybe we were too broke
Or maybe we were too impatient to go slow

Regardless of what happened with us
I just wish I could take back the pain
Because even though our love wasn't real
I'd wish we were back friends again






Copyright ©2008 Attica Lundy